What did you eat 7/7/05

Breakfast: Coffee shake and half of a bagel with cream cheese Lunch: Coffee Shake Dinner: Chinese food whi*****luded brocolli, wontons, black pepper porkand tiny shrimp, sushi Snack: SF Chocolate pudding. Cals 980 Fat 51 Carbs 54 Protein 71 *I am not feeling well. Think I am getting a stomach virus.* Went to my 9mos appt today. I just love going to the doctor. Dr. Whitehead said that I have about 10 pounds of skin on my stomach. He okayed plastic surgery. I have an appt with Dr. Pecunia July 14th... Wish me luck with insurance approval. I am excited and scared at the same time. Dealing with insurance is a pain in the rear and I get so upset when they deny me. I dont particuraly like Dr. Pecunia but I have heard good things about him as long as he doesnt work on your boobs. Wish me luck.. I just wanna look normal. I think if I get this skin off I will be in an 8 or 10... Hopefully.

I had a decent day today... B- Oatmeal with splenda S- 2 figs L- Salad with Ranch Dressing S- Peach D- BBQ Chicken Leg, 1 TBSP Baked Beans, 1 TBSP Potato Salad S- Peach I drank about 50 oz of Water/Crystal Lite today. That is a lot for me.. I drank one 8 oz glass of 1% milk with unjury. Good Luck on the plastic surgery!! I hope it all works out for you! You are already looking great, you will be TEENYNEENY then!! Rhonda

Hey Rhonda... Thank you for being so sweet! I want some peaches. I bought some a couple of weeks ago and forgot I had them and they ruined in the fridge. I wish I could get my water in. I do not know what it is but I absolutly hate WATER! To drink today I have had those 2 shakes and about 3 or 4 ounces of water. I know that is not near enough liquids. I just dont get thirsty...Even after working out today I wasnt thirsty. I gotta make myself do at least 20 ounces of water a day. Once I get that in I will up it 10 ounces a week.. eventually I will be there. I have been afraid lately and been thinking about the weight coming back. I havent gained anything but I have slowed down on losing and that kinda scares me. Of course I know I am at a good weight. I know lots of folks would kill to be where I am right now and I am so thankful, I am just so scared. I dont want to be fat EVER again. I need yall to not let me gain. My NEVER get past weight is 160. If I ever get 161 --I seriously think I would develop eating disorders... bad ones. It scares me. I have been kinda in a slump today thinking about it and talking to my nurse about it has helped but I do still worry. On their scales I was 154. I am 20 pounds below their goal weight. She told me over and over that I was doing great and I looked great and I told her I never dreamed I would ever be 154 ... Ever... Told her I was scared to death... She told me to measure my food and never eat more than what I measure out for myself. I guess I need to carry around measuring utensils. Or better yet, have Melissa and JOhn cook for me everyday.. HINT HINT.. haha... Fixing to go bathe... I am rambling... Wanted to get it off my chest though...

I know I'm a day late and a dollar short but ... Christine, Christine, Christine....do you know that out of everyone here on this board, of which a lot of people I look up to to be inspired and so on, you are my main inspiration! 20 lbs UNDER Dr. Whitehead and Janet's goal for you, that alone just makes me beam! You look so great and you keep it real. I know it's always a struggle and you're still getting use to the new you, but girl you gotta get your butt up here in the present and tell those demons from the past that keep trying to remind you of what you USE to be to get on down the road you don't have time for that now! I think maybe after ur plastic surgery and some soul searching you'll start seeing yourself as the rest of us do. The skinny minny you are and always will be. But you know what vent away cuz I know it helps but remember you're winning this battle now...you have control ... the fat has lost!! BIG huggles and love, Keli

Keli, you just made my day... I am so excited about being your inspiration...now I cant fail, huh? I have to keep it up if I want to inspiring... Haha... I saw Anna Thomas the other day at the Y..Do you remember her? She used to soooo skinny. She has put on about 40 pounds. Also, did yuo know that Missy Everitt works at Dr. Whiteheads office? I saw her yesterday for the first time since high school. She had no clue who I was... I dont see many people from high school. In fact all I have seen since graduation is Joy Russell, Anna Thomas, Missy Everitt, and you.... Haha...Weird huh... So close yet so far away... Thank you, Keli for saying those things. I dont know what got into me yesterday.. I was kinda getting low. I feel great now and have decided I am not getting a virus... I think that bagel from breakfast was stuck and its finally pushed itself thru. I was miserable all day after eating that. I guess it was too much dough for my little hole to handle. THanks! Have you heard from them yet?

Nope you won't fail cuz I won't let you and you won't let me ...see how that works...ah so beautiful. Anna Thomas not being skinny is so weird but at least we know she's human now ha ha...I played softball with Joy a few years ago...she was in my cousin in law's *is that even a word? lol* class at JCJC. She had lost some weight since high school don't know if she's gained it back yet or not. I remember Missy sorta..seeing her might jog the ol memory more. Anyways ... Huggles and love, Keli

B loaded omlet S pc of cheese L chicken salad on 1/4 of a croissant S 3/4 of an apple D grilled ckn alfredo 1/2 cup Dessert 1 pc sf blueberry pie with a little lite coolwhip Melissa

Where did you get chicken salad on a croissant... you had lunch somewhere didnt you?? You traded me for someone better, eh? Skinnier, sweeter, gives you the bigger peice of fish, says nice things about you.... TRAITOR!!!

B: Protein Shake w/ carb countdown 2% milk S: Sugar Free Choc Chip/Macadanian Cookie L: Protein Shake w/ carb countdown 2% milk S: Potato Skins - 1 serving D: 1/2 c. spaghetti 10 oz of coffee, 60 oz of water (still drinking) plus the 16 oz of milk in the 2 shakes. for a total 86 oz of water so far. Cal: 834 Fat: 36 Carbs: 58 Protein: 74

Not a real good day for me....But I am turning into one who doesn't eat very much at all.....I think it's all them ants..... Breakfast: 1 1/2 peanut butter crackers (low-fat ritz) and two bites of banana then I went and lost all that.... Lunch: 1/2 cup layered salad Supper: 2/3 cup homemade beef stew with 6 low-fat ritz in it. Left alot of potato and carrot. Snack: 10 grapes and 2/3 cheddar cheese stick I weigh Monday and BETTER be down SEVERAL pounds!!! Smoochies Arlies