Something I read on someones profile
I just had to share this with all of my family here. I read this and said WOW, this is just how some of us really feel and are afraid to say. I hope she does not mind that I posted this.
Running from the Fat Monster after Gastric Bypass
By Kaye Bailey
Many patients of gastric bypass report feeling fearful of succeeding at
weight loss after a lifetime of failed diet attempts. In most cases,
the fear of success subsides as a patient reaches goal weight and becomes comfortable in their new body. About that time the Fat Monster shows up to scare the hell out of patients.
I thought the fear of success was scary - that is until I met the Fat
Monster. The Fat Monster came into my life one night shortly after I
achieved my weight loss goal. The Fat Monster terrified me with illusion -
in the darkness of night he convinced me that the weight loss was just
a dream, that by morning the Little Fat Girl would be back. He
convinced me that being thin was too good to be true. I was terrified.
The Fat Monster scared the hell out of me and I believed his
frightening stories. Even on days when my behavior was stellar - I followed the four rules - I was convinced he could catch me. Many restless nights I woke frequently to run my hands over my body confirming he hadn't caught me that night. I needed to know that I was still thin. Many patients are acquainted with the Fat Monster - after years of dieting failure it is common to believe this weight loss is too good to be true.
To this day the Fat Monster keeps me honest. Aloud I can say that
looking and feeling great is my motivation to follow the rules, to exercise
and maintain my weight. But deep down inside I'm on a dead run trying
to get away from the Fat Monster. I don't ever want to return to being
morbidly obese, I hated that life. So when I get on the treadmill I am
literally running from the Fat Monster. When I eat my protein and take
my supplements I'm building my strength to battle the Fat Monster. I am
at war with the Fat Monster and I will never surrender; I am winning!
Other patients are battling their own Fat Monster. One woman believed
the Fat Monster had occupied her bathroom scale - she began weighing
compulsively around the clock. She had a before work weight, an after work weight, before work-out weight, after work-out weight and on and on. Any fluctuation from normal caused immediate panic and self-loathing. Her husband locked away the scale and she nearly lost her mind! So, they came to a compromise. He would keep the scale - and the Fat Monster -locked away except for the once a week weigh-in. The physical act of locking-up the Fat Monster worked for her. She no longer weighed herself compulsively and her weekly weigh-ins showed she could very successfully maintain a healthy weight without round-the-clock vigilance to the bathroom scale.
Patients do best when they identify their own Fat Monster and learn
what behaviors - good or bad - the monster is affecting in your life. Do
not surrender control to the Fat Monster but use terror as a source of
motivation in your healthy life.
To this day the Fat Monster keeps me honest. Aloud I can say that
looking and feeling great is my motivation to follow the rules, to exercise
and maintain my weight. But deep down inside I'm on a dead run trying
to get away from the Fat Monster. I don't ever want to return to being
morbidly obese, I hated that life. So when I get on the treadmill I am
literally running from the Fat Monster. When I eat my protein and take
my supplements I'm building my strength to battle the Fat Monster. I am
at war with the Fat Monster and I will never surrender; I am winning!
I REALLY LIKED THAT PART. I have printed this out and am sticking it on my board at work. When I feel the need to graze I will know its the FAT MONSTER...
Thanks for sharing, Rhonda...