Just a few things from the Bear

Ok I know I havent been faithfull in posting but i have a reason. I fight depression around the holidays alot due to the passing of my daughter and me missing her during the times. So I am not the best person to chat with at the Holidays I appologise for this. New news: Got my cpap machine today for my sleep apnea and I guess I have it alot worse than I thought I did since my setting on it is 15 My wife who fell asleep while driving is only on 10 so I am confused I didnt even feel I had apnea so go figure. Please pray for my step father who is in the hospital he has a bactireal(sp) infection that they cant isolate as of yet. So it is drivingg him nuts and us all a lil bonkers with worry he already has psyrosis(sp) of the liver so this is deadly to him. And finally I have called Dr. Clevelands office to find out my status and now am waiting on a call back to know what or when I see them again. So otherwise here I sit again and for those that didnt get this from Sherry I think it is beautiful: http://wandascountryhome.com/pinetrees/index.html

How sorry you feel sad during the holidays. The pine tree story was beautiful. Thanks for sending it my way! Jane

Hey Barry, I just wanted to say Thank God for a CPAP machine my Mom has to have one and she is a 15 as well I believe ,she says it has made a world of difference ,she said after you get use to the mask ,it will help you rest so much better and when you wake up you feel like you have actually rested which will be well worth it for that alone. I am sorry to hear you have the holiday blahs it is so hard to be upbeat and happy when your mind is with the one that is not here with you ,I know how that can be .Although ,I can not even grasp what it feels like to lose a child or much less wrap my weak little mind around that kind of pain,I lost my little brother in June 2001(horrible car wreck),My Aunt in May 2002(lymphoma),and My Dad in March 2003(psorosis of the liver). The holidays have not been the same since my little brother died I always put up the christmas tree in my son's room so that he can enjoy it but, my Moma and My sister and me have not been the same around the holidays since our loved ones have left from us.There is something about it ,it is like no aspect of your life will ever be the same there will always be a piece of yourself that is missing,but that part of the grief I can identify with. I pray that God will console you and ease the ache that I know you have for your daughter.Also, I pray that God will touch your Father In Law and you will get your call back from Dr.Cleveland's office very soon that would be a great pick me uo huh ?..............Sherry....

I am soooo stupid why did I say father in law lol please just look over me I told you I had a weak lil mind lol ...........Sherry......

Your post broke my heart. I am sorry that you lost a daughter. Just isnt natural -is it? My heart is with you and your wife at this time. I hope your wife is careful when she is driving. A lady I work withs husband just got laid off. He was a trucker and they did an apnea test and had people ride with him and he was falling asleep while driving. He didnt know he had apnea. He didnt even know he was falling asleep. Very scary. VERY.. I hope you find out something soon from Dr. Clevelands office. I wish you would come to the support meeting on the 17th in Hattiesburg. We missed you last month. I was looking forward to meeting you. Take care Christine Ps.. I am praying for your step father.. If he is anything like mine-they are unreplacable.

My dear sweet Barry, I am so sorry that you had/are having a rough time. You know we all love you and you can come to us for comfort. I don't know how it feels to lose a daughter, but the thought of that terrifies me. (October is my bad month cause it's my Daddy's birthday month and I have this terror of Halloween and I don't want to see or talk to anybody.) I hope you are on the upswing. Talk to us when you are having a bad time, we will cry with you. I will pray for you and your stepfather, both, as well as your dear sweet wife. I supposedly don't have sleep apnea - I merely wake myself up snoring and my CPAP is on 13 so go figure.....Maybe it has something to do with overall weight or lung capacity....I dunno....But I love my CPAP. We sleep so soundly together. Remember we all love you and are rootin' for you! Smooch Arlies PS Call Dr S. BACK!!!!!