Found this on the main board. How wonderful this will be!!!!
I visitor from 28 years ago!
Original Post by Pam German at 6:36 PM PST on 05/09/2004
Byhalia, MS - RNY (09/20/2002)
Today I was sitting in my living room playing with my grand babies and visiting with my children when there was a knock on the door. My eight year old opened the door and invited the knocker in before I could say anything. Standing in my living room was a tiny little dark haired woman. Her eyes looked familiar but I didn't know her. She asked if I was Pam and I said I was and she told me she was Sherry. I still drew a blan****il she said..Sherry Smith from high school. Then I knew who those eyes belonged to. I jumped up and hugged my old friend. Her mother walked in behind her and behind her was Sherry's big brother, who I had a killer crush on during our last two years of school. We had a great time catching up and we laughed until we cried. She had looked up just about all of our old friends recently and before she left we made a promise to make sure we all get the gang together again real soon. Then she said something to me that rocked me to my soul. She said, "I've looked up just about all of the gang in the past two years. They all look pretty much as you would expect. But you...Pam you look better than you did in school! You look radiant! I smiled and I realized the whole time they were there, I had not once thought..Oh my God..what must they think of me. How could I let myself look like this. I must have really turned a major corner in my life because a year and a half ago, I would have been so ashamed of my looks I would not have enjoyed their visit. I would not have been able to laugh and tell my friends brother of my major crush on him. I would have been too consumed with humiliation to enjoy that my old friend wanted to see me so much that she looked for me for months and even had her friend at the power company look for my address. I'm not so naive that I think I look better than I did 28 years ago. But I know what the difference is. Now. 28 years later...I feel good about myself. I feel my value as a person, a friend and a woman. I am not the 17 year old who's father made her feel like a cow. I am not the kid who wouldn't raise my hand because I didn't want to draw attention to myself. I no longer keep myself from smiling big because it makes my face look rounder. I'm not the chubby girl who keeps quiet because her best friend has a perfect body and I should feel lucky to be Friends with her because that's why (she says) the other kids invite me along.
I glow because I have been given a chance to enjoy my life again and not bury my feelings in cheese burgers. I am happy because these people came to me in friendship and love and I was able to freely give that to them in return.
If I ever needed an incentive to stay on track that was one. I hope to see my old friends again soon. And I hope when I do...I can drink in all the memories that made me smile and forget the ones that hurt and maybe someone will say to me....Girl you look better than you did in high school! What did you do?!
This surgery was a blessing to me. I am amazed at the quality of life I have now. If you are seeking the surgery, know this. It will not always be easy. There are plenty of trials that go along with it. But it is worth it and then some. Imagine yourself free of feelings of self doubt. Imagine seeing someone from your past and not even worrying about your figure. This is freedom. I wish you this kind of freedom and joy.
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