OMG I could cry..

I know I should not of spent the money but just had to.I went to GLIKS tonight and would you belive I got a out fit from there.Well let me start off my saying HUBBY LOVES THEM ALOT..LOL..I was a bit up set at first I tell everyone about my surgery if they want to hear my story so I was the only one in there and two sales ladys so I put on a size 16 Levis 550 boot cut and the lady said come out so we can see at this point I was so happy that I got into a size 16 so I went out and the lady said well to me they look a bit BIG let me get you a 14 so she got me a 14 I put them on and I was in there a bit longer then the first time she said well how they fit come out so I did and she said man they look great...I could of just cried right there they was both so happy for me we was like 3 friends in a store shopin.Now to what got me up set I get out in the car Mark said looks like you ladys was havin a good time in there I told him yes but you know if I was 355 lbs they would of not helped me.That was the first time any sales person helped me.I still can't get over size 14 levis never had LEVIS in my life.Sorry for going on and on.Hope everyone has a great Sunday.. Shelly

Shelly, How wonderful is this? Wow size 14. I don't ever remember wearing a size 14. I'm enjoying getting into size 20 right now. It's been a long time since I have seen that size. I understand how you feel about the way people are, but try to enjoy the great feel of those 14s and forget about the rest of it. You should be treated well, and it's about time people figured that out. Linda

I remember 20's and you know at the time I was in 20's I didn't care if I went any lower but it is great to keep going down.I am tryin to work on people being nice to me.I'm nice to them also don't get me wrong it's just stuck in my head I still see my self BIG and I know I'm not or maybe I feel that I have not changed and now everyone is really nice to me and I ask my self why,I'm going to try and stop askin my self and just go on in life and I will always be nice that the bigger person walking down the street I think I will always be nicer to them then smaller people not that I'm not nice LOL lets see how can I say this I will go out of my way to say HI to them.I better stop for now or I will get my self in a hole and will not be able to type my way out LOL have a good night..

Sweetie... I know the feeling.. I surely do. Shock, disbelief, euphoria and then some more shock right? *s* I still can't believe that I am wearing size 10's right now .. someone pinch me as I'm surely dreaming. You enjoy each and every moment like these as I know that you have worked so hard to achieve them! As for the acting nice part. I know exactly where you are coming from there to. There is a tinge of sadness as you KNOW that some folks who are now friendly to you wouldn't of given you the time of the day before when you were heavier. Love them in spite of their shortcomings and lift them up...don't EVER allow anyone to pull you down to THEIR level... Blessings on this Sunday..... Elizabeth~

Shelley, What a WOW moment for you. All of the above people give me inspiration. As a fresh post op I read your postings. As for you Shelley, walk straight, hold your head high and savor every day as a gift from God. He loves you and will walk with you all the way. I deal a lot with all kinds of people, happy, sad, crabby, lonely, gripy and I try to speak to all of them and be nice to them and let them know they are loved too. I dont know why people look differently on other people be it they are fat, or mentally challenged or deformed. A loving touch and a smile is sometimes all they need. Have a Great day. And yeh on size 14!!!!!!!!!!!Colette

Hi Shelly, I am so happy for you. I can't imagine how that would feel!! I've been slow at losing and am kind of wondering whether or not this surgery is going to work for me. Oh well, in reality, I KNOW it will, it just takes longer for some. Soak up the praises of people now girl! I know that it's hard to over-look how they MAY have treated you in your former body, but focus on the positive. We can't go around thinking of the past, it's not very productive in building our newly found self-esteem, huh! Just wanted to pop in and say CONGRATULATIONS!!!! Kelly

You will just take off the pounds one day soon I'm sure.I just read your profile I'm sure you will do fine I know I am goin to enjoy the thanksgiving dinner I'm really happy with how much I eat it's not much at all but thats a good thing.In church today they was talking about not talking or living in the past I think I can do a bit better now with people being nice to me..Thanks for the post..

Shelly, I think its great your in smaller sizes~! You need to tell us what your doing so we can do it too~!! I am down quite a bit from when I started. Guys sizes run differnt than gals ... I started in 46-48 pants, mind you thats in inches . I am now in size 33 pants, so thats a pretty good drop. Most people say I look thinner than 188, but I look in the mirror and still see the fat person I used to be. I dont think I look that bad but I agree with you I still see that heavy person and I am struggling with the fact that I am thinner. I guess I need to buck up and suck it up and accept the fact that I am thinner and get it in my head. I have also been told that those types of thoughts can lead to problems eating disorders, thats if I keep seeing myself as fat I used to be. Dunno, I want to lose another 42 more so I will be at my goal weight. Anyhoo, I wanted to chime in and tell you it great to see you in smaller clothes and your pics look great. It look like a whole new you~! Gevin RNY 06-01-05 314.5/188/146 scale aint moved for a week, grrrr

The thing about seeing your self as the fat person still....I think it will take time for our minds to get that loss of weight.I am doing better this week then last week.I am just going to be me and that is the New Thiner me LOL if some one wants to open the door for me I will shake my a_ _ and walk in that door if some one wants to help me where they didn't help me before well I guess they are now doing the job they are there to do.This is how I'm going to look at things from now on but I will never look down on that BIG person.. Shelly

Shelly, It is funny, not haha funny, but your right. I have noticed people smiling at me more, saying hi more and generally being nicer. Makes me think and wonder what they were saying/thinking before, because they didnt smile, or in some cases even acknowledge that I was there. I agree that when I see someone that is heavy I wont look at them the same way. I see my self thinner, I guess I just want to get to my goal weight and am for some reason losing patience. I should be happy I have lost what I have, but it is like a drug I want more and more and more... Another funny thing was one of the gals I work with made a comment about my rearend, I LOL and said i was enjoying being sexually harrassed, I know she was being nice and sadly I really did enjoy the nice a** comment. LOL Is that so wrong? LOL. Anyhoo, I guess your right it will take time for my brain to catch up with my waist, and I hope it does... Thanks for the reply I dont feel so alone. Gevin