I'm Just So Tired...

Hi, It has just been one of "those" days... I am just so tired emotionally and physically.... Right now I have kind of "stalled" in the weightloss department. I have done everything I know to do to get myself off of the weight that I am now... high protein, some protein, more water, step up the exercise etc.. Nothing seems to get me to budge off of where I am now.... then the nagging back pain is back in my life and it seems now I'm always in pain... the weird thing about it is the only relief of the pain is when I go to the gym. Then the rest of my time I'm nursing this pain. Now, with the WLS, and no pain meds except liquid tylonol. (and I think at this point I could be the poster child for their company or at least a major stockholder) I have had over 2 and a half months of no pain other than surgery pain, and now its all back and might I say worse.... Then to top the bucket off this ol girl wants a Diet Pepsi, and she'd even try to lay an egg if she thought it would get her one... I really don't have anything I should be whining about... I have so far been successful in loosing so much weight... I have had beautiful wow moments that I really didn't deserve. Not to mention the wonderful healthier and happier me. I have so much to be so grateful for. I read somewhere and try to remember it is... Weeping only endures for the night but JOY does come in the morning. I love enjoying the positive side of this WLS journey, but today I'm just plain flat pooped. (But I am looking for the morning's light!) Thanks for letting me whine a bit Ardie

Hey girlfriend, I am right there with you. Maybe its the weather. I had to take a nap... I never take naps. I have been thinkin about cigarettes. I havent smoked in 10 years. You know Ive always heard that muscle wieghs more that fat so maybe your body is building muscle to replace the fat that you are losing. and you have already lost alot. and I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW WHY YOU DONT DESERVE THE WOW MOMENTS? ok yes I was yelling but I would like to think that you would kick mine if I needed it. love ya lesa

Hey Girl, Thanks for the swift kick in the fanny.... you know it seems like everyday I have a wow moment... something I've noticed even if it's slight. Because so long I couldn't. I abused my body.. and nearly lost my life... nobody can tell me any different that I was almost to the end of it due to my weight. I didnt deserve the second chance, but I am the luckiest woman alive I got the second chance. I did hop on the scale this morning and did loose a pound so that was encouraging to my heart... maybe the body is going to cooperate and loose some more. I am only 8 pounds away from the "Century Club" mark and wanted to get there before support group meeting on the 22nd. So that should give me that little goal so I can do a happy dance.... need to do one! hee hee BTW if you ever even think about lighting up after ten years I will yell at you personally! I promise I won't drink a Diet Pepsi either! Thanks for the pep talk... I needed it! Ardie

Ardie, I'm sorry you are feeling bad. Since you are way ahead of me in this journey, I'm not sure I can help. Have you talked to Natalie about the stall in your weight loss. She and Michelle might have some suggestions. I'm really sorry to hear your pain has returned. Do you have a doctor for your back problem? Maybe it's time to make a call and check out the exercise program you are following. When you posted it the other day, it took my breath away; and I was sitting down at the time. BTW, you deserve many, many wow moments. I'm sending positive thoughts your way, and I hope tomorrow is a better day. Linda

Thank you Linda for your kindness... With the back pain there's not alot they can do. It's arthritis and a a degenerative "disease" if you want to put it that way. I was on about 3 different pain medications before WLS. But after the surgery the pain disappeared and I really hoped with the weightloss that It would stay away. I do have to admit since my center of gravity is different so the pain is a bit more bearable. It just gets tiring... just wi**** would go away. I have a life I need to get back to. I really don't want to do it depending on alot of drugs... and besides I dont think there is alot of meds I can take for it now other than liquid Tylonol. Thank you for all the positive thoughts and moments... I truly love being positive! It is soooo much better than crying... I've done way too much of that for a long long time. BTW- You go girl on your own weightloss journey.... I am cheering for you! Ardie

Ardie, I'm right there with you. Stuck. 48 pounds down and stuck there for almost 3 weeks. And I'm only 8 weeks out. I'm doing all I know to do. And to top it off, my legs, feet and back are hurting as much now as they did before surgery. Add to that the emotional stress of not knowing how I'm paying the August rent, and not having any $$ for other things I need, like gas, food and supplements, and I'm a basket case!!! I'm praying this all breaks and things actually start to come together soon!!! Connie

Connie, First of all I truly missed you at the support group... I know that when things are tight (and they are around here too) that so many things feel out of whack and out of control... Everyday it seems like a stuggle to just exsist, but somehow we do huh? I'm a very ordered person like everything just right and no surprises... but after the surgery I feel like Im more out of control than in. Nothing is permanant in life right now and sometimes I feel like I cant cope with this one more minute and let's go find a diet pepsi.... But you know I think the one thing that we both have more of since the surgery is hope.... and strength that we didnt know we had. We will get through this and we will start to loose the weight again. It will come. Just have to be diligent in mind, soul, and body. I am reminded by Dr. Bumby alot that I am a different woman, and I have changed for the better. I guess with that I'm telling you too that you are a changed woman and for the better.... I saw that at July's support group! I know you can do this! Hang in there girlfriend.... just a bit longer and I bet that life will come together better than you could ever imagine! Believe it for yourself.... I'll believe it with you too! Take Care Ardie

Ardelle, I'm grateful you posted this ... I've also had long-time back-problems and am 5 years post-op (failed) back surgery. My back was 50% of the reason I elected to have WLS, the other 50% was my weight, of course. I'm 4 months and a week past WLS, and for 3.5 months I've been enjoying relatively pain-free days. But in the last 3 weeks, it's all back again, just like yours seems to be. Like you, I hate to grouse about anything because life's so much better in every other aspect, but I was so disappointed when my back started in again like this that I just cried. In the past anti-inflammatories helped alot, but they also are full of sodium and cause extreme water-retention and swelling, which we don't need! I've been in a water-aerobics class, and during that the pain subsides, but returns with a vengeance when I get out of the water (and gravity settles back down on me). Right now, I'm just hoping this is a temporary thing and doing my best not to worry that it's more than that. All I know to do is to keep moving even though it hurts, push water through my system (to keep those back muscles lubricated) and medicate when absolutely necessary (although I had hoped that was all behind me). If this is a WLS side-affect, I'd sure like to know the remedy for it. Anyone? thanks and blessings to all, Myra