66 pounds and still neurotic as he**!!

I updated my profile and posted to Cathy H....so I won't repeat myself here. Nobody is better at making me crazy than my own damn self...all the little crazies don't fall off with the weight.....Damn...what a gift though this opprtunity is...and the feeling of hope about the future is priceless...the weight was a prison...and even though I been released...there is even more pressure to make right choices for myself...and dam*** if I don't mess it up sometimes..but it's still a 1000 times better than that prison of hopelessness and FAT!!!! For all the newbies trying to have surgery or new to your surgery...do not give up...do not be detered...don't let other people and their fears stop you.. and most importantly keep your eye on the prize...this is still so worth it. Peace out, Eileen

Eileen, Thanks! It helps this newbie to know that it is all worth it. Took me over a year to decide and now I am so committed. I still get a little worried, especially when I read scary profiles. But I have to admit that I prefer honesty over lies. Even to know that when things go wrong, most people will say that is was all worth it. Now I take time to consider what the alternative is, a lifetime (and a very short one) in a fat prison. I'm ready to be freed. Thanks again, Peggy

You are a very wise woman!!

Hey, Eileen! Congratulations on your success! We all make mistakes, and we all have our neuroses. Just remember you are human and these things will happen. As far as the little crazies not coming off with the weight, don't be too hard on yourself. After all, how many neurotic (thin) people have we seen out there?? I am sure there are just as many, if not more, neurotic thin people out there. I am also sure you will get a handle on your "little crazies". Who hasn't seen countless versions of people with self destructive behavior (drugs, smoking, drinking, bulimia, anorexia, dangerous sexual promiscuity, etc.) who are ironically considered to be the "pretty people"? What has always distressed me about being fat is that all those "pretty people" with their crazy self-destructive behaviors are perceived as "better" than fat people. Just because those "pretty people" can usually hide their awful or dangerous behaviors, and we can't, we are vilified! *puts away soapbox* Whew, so the short version is, don't let your "little crazies" convince you that you are not a good person, that you don't deserve this gift, or that you can't do this! By the way, Eileen, my surgery is June 1. Had an insurance battle (explained in detail on my profile) that pushed my surgery from May 16, but I will be on the losing side with you in about a week! Thanks all. - Beth