25 months out RNY...and guess what, I am gaining...slowly

i am at 25 months out RNY. Over the past 6 months i have gained 13 pounds and i really feel horrible. My goal is to stay between 80-85 pounds lost.  I am 5'2 and 44 years old.  My goal weight is to stay around 135 (which is not skinny for my height at all...135 is borderline normal/overweight BMI).  After this gain...I am sitting around 73 total pounds lost.  This extra weight weighs on my mind ALL the time.  I really dont eat bad stuff, i just eat too much healthy stuff which equals to many calories in a day.  I have head hunger.  I graze healthy foods and need to eat less slider foods.  I know my full feelings, but sometimes I wait a few minutes till they go away and then take a few more bites of my favorite food (I know that's bad).  I do love carbs.  I probably eat too many sugars from fruit...but i dont eat bread or pasta.  I do sneak in a tiny bite of chocolate now and then.   I do eat my souped up (extra protein) oatmeal or cereal every day...its my favorite breakfast (quick and easy).   I haven't worked out much since the holiday's either...im sure that is not helping.  I only get the chance to work out in the late evenings and by then, it is too easy to talk myself out of going.  I do walk alot in the warmer weather...i just need to hold on until then.  I KNOW what i must do...eat less and work out more...and drink more water.  i know about how many calories i need to maintain the weight I am looking for (about 1400 a day), but I figure I am gettting in about 1700-1800 plus a day.  i have gotten back into journaling online my intake.  Like I said, i know what i need to do...I am just in such a slump.  I am hoping that maybe sharing my experience, I will get myself back into gear.  To me, loosing 13 pounds right now feels like having to loose 100 pounds.  It seems like a mountain to me.  Don't get me wrong, I am greatful to have lost the weight...it is just harder to keep it off than I thought.  I am aware of trying to break those bad habbits from before...mostly grazing for me.  Are there others out there like me?

Lori all of us out here are like you lol ....some of them can control themselves better for longer pe riods of time but everyone , slips now and then....just get yourself back to basics...do the 5 day pouch test  yoakdfu can see it at www.5daypouchtest.com  and i know you can make yourself stick with anything for 5 days. so just do it...and if you make a mistiake , just brush yourself off and remember you arent the only one...we all have to work at it every day.

Jan, as always, gave you good advice.  I'm 18 months out and haven't lost anything since last July.  I like the way I look but not the number on the scale.  I'm 5'2" tall
and I would like to get down to 135.  My surgeon wants me get to 160 at least but I want to get much closer to 135. 

During the holidays in 2008, I didn't touch sugar and made sure to read every label.  In 2009 I didn't do so well.  I tasted way too much and suffered for it.  Sugar makes my pouch ache and gives me a sick feeling and I get very hot then cold.  Carbs are so darn tasty but the bad carbs are so bad for us.  I'm back to reading labels and keep sugar grams to 7 or less per serving and I've pretty much eliminated bad carbs.

There is an excellent article on bariactricchoice.com about WLS from start to finish.    Go back to what you did when you first had surgery.  Now is the time to take off those 13 lbs.  Don't let that number grow.

Think how good you felt when you were losing the weight and how good it felt when you were at goal.  We never want to go back to where we were.

Thanks for your reply.  I dont really think that i eat bad, i just eat too many calories and dont work out enough.  i have to get my mind set like it was in the beginning.  i do watch and read labels.  I know what you mean about that feeling before...it was so easy back then.  i know this is a life battle...what i am most proud of is getting healthy. 

Hi Lori...

I too struggle with food.  Whether it's good food or bad food.  I went back and did the pouch test recently and it surely did help... but unfortunately as you said I still am struggling every day.

Other than the good advise you have been given I don't have any. I just wanted to give you an encouraging word and want you to know I am rooting for you!   Wish we did not have to battle this "evil" ~tee hee every day but for some of us it seems to be the way it is.

I have lost 120 lbs and need to lose 20 to 30 more... I am having trouble getting over this hump I'm at but know I will keep after it and eventually I will succeed.  I hope to be at least at the top of my goal weight by April 22nd.  That means I will have to be very diligent.  I don't have trouble with the exercise but do keep a timer set to get my water in.  The food is still my issue and I hate that but know I deal with head hunger as well. 

Be encouraged you have realized what your issues are and have started taking steps to work on it and that is wonderful!  YOU CAN DO THIS!!

Thanks so much

Yes, I am with you.  I had my surgery in 04 and I wish I could tell you that it gets easier but it doesn't.  You have to start back at the beginning.  60-80 grams of protein a day, water, excersise etc...  You know what you need to do.  Go for it!  Penni