WHY CANT I EAT??????

Ive tried so long to be able and sit down and aat a meal. Everytime I do I take four or five bites and then I get so weighted down in my pouch that It makes me want to vomit. Iam down to 175lbs now. After I get the tummy tuck I was suppose to be then now 174. so, you see im way past my goal . way past it. I dont think its mental because I knowim suppose to eat and I do try. I just cante explain it other than . the show on Discovery Health about the Lady who lost so much she just could not eat another bite. Drinking is fine. SO, Im thinking i need to go back to the protein shakes. Im constantly on the go , I have a parttime job now and I cannot sit still for a minute. Sometimes Im woken in the middle of the night with achey dull/sharpe pains in the pit of my stomach/pouche. Im thinking it might be an ulcer. not for sure.

Nov. 17, I had surgery on my Right Kidney. They developed huge stones. then one week later had the left one done. so Iam having problmes with pain in my lower back and just around my sides...BUT none the less it is not slowing me down at all.Im a workaholic, I do not like to quit. I dont sleep much either. Im so afraid, things wont get done, or someone needs my help. I try so hard to watch over and care for those special friends that helped me when I deathly sick. I really dont think im depressed at all. Maybe somewhat ofa worry wart..And i do stress out alot but I work to take my mind off of things.

To my body and looks. I never did this to look good, I did it to save my life/ for my health. BUT, i look like an 80 year old wrinkled up man. My ribs stick out a mile...they are way up to hight for normal ribs. It just feels and looks funny. Something is not right. Yeah Im skinny. its a blessing that God saved my life and I shouldnt be complaining if that what it seems to be. Im just concerned when Im suppose to get better with this. Im going on 3 years and every so often something comes up . another thing to worry about.
Thanks for reading this everyone and please continue with the prayers for each of us. I think the best thing about this site is the place to come and lay our burdens down for others to conveen and help pray for you. We shall all work together. JAN,  I would so love to chat with you on the phone if you dont mind sometime. If you would leave me a # to get ahold of you and Joe I would sure appreciate it. I sure need someone to chat with to hear and listen to  them. ..


God Bless you all . Love you all ....Craig Lee Watts

Craig,

I am not on here very much, but somehow this morning the Lord told me to get on here and you are the reason why.  First, let me tell you that you will be in my prayers.  and second,  no it is not normal that you are not able to eat.  Third - yes you need to get on protein shakes in the meantime.  I am 4 years out and remember coming to see you at the hospital.  You HAVE COME A  LONG WAY AND THROUGH SO MUCH.  BUT IT IS NOT NORMAL NOT TO EAT. You need to get to the bottom of this and get to a doctor that can help you.  Have you contacted Dr. H.  I am 4 years out and still have problems with eating some things, but I still have 2 shakes or 1 shake and 1 protein bar daily, because I do not get enough protein otherwise.  I recently had labs done and all is fine - had to start o some vitamin D.  You need to get this in check - I really think it is a serious thing.  I am glad you are so active and so caring with other people but God expects you to also take care of yourself.  I dont mean to give you a sermon, I care about you.  Okay?  Please feel free to email me at [email protected].  I seriously want you to see a doctor.  God bless you my friend.  Colette

Your stats look great.  You have come a long way.  I'm almost 18 months out so I'm definitely not an expert.  I still want to lose about 30 lbs., but I'm happy with my appearance.  I did this for health rather than looks but looking good is a nice benefit.

My surgeon told me I will always need a couple protein supplements a day.  I would recommend you drink some protein shakes just so you get in some healthy nutrients.  Seeing a doctor should be top of your list.  I'm a worrier too and I'm working on not doing it so much.  Usually what I worry about is something I can't control.

I hope you find the help you need.

yes for sure get on at least two protein shakes a day at least you can keep those down....i debated all day about what to say to you. I dont want to sound mean and you know i love you...so that shouldnt be how you take this. but everyone i know of and there have been many that have lost so very much weight and have trouble with eating, it is for the most part mental....now im not saying that yours is or isnt...im just saying that you are so determined that you wont gain any weight back that you sound like you have gone to the other end of the food addiction.  Please go and see Dr. H. and tell him everything. if there is nothing wrong physically then it has to be mental. Now i know you are smart enough to know how to take care of it. Please do so before it is too late. You dont need to be as small as you are. Please i beg you to go take care of Craig.......you are too important to us to not do so.

Craig;

If you are having trouble with kidney stones then you are not drinking enough water. My husband has had 7 and I can tell you he has learned his lesson the hard way. He now drinks water all the time and hasn't had a stone in 5 years.

I agree with Collette and Jan, Go see Dr. H.  Find the time and get there. Do not delay. The lord has sent you to us and now you must listen.....go see Dr. H.

Hugs and prayers
Barbara