WHATS HAPPENING MONDAY
It certainly was cold this morning ,wasn’t it…down here it got down to31 degrees….very cold…we didn’t have frost tho. Which was amazing.
I potted up several plants and re arranged my green house. We are getting ready for our trip to Hatfield on Tuesday.
Today I have to go and do pre op lab stuff at Cox for my surgery on the 3rd….I have to admit that Angies death gave me more than normal amount of thought. But then I realize that I will have to do more than normal.
I sent Walter a card this morning with a check , I didn’t know what else to do . It makes you want to do something but what ? There isn’t any right words to say or right things to do. But im sure that Walter knows how much Angie meant to all of us, The first time I met Angie online she was in the process of trying to find a surgeon to help her back in 07 . That’s been a long time ago and it doesn’t seem like a very long time either. Not nearly long enough to get to know her as much as I would like to have. We always think we have tomorrow, next week, next month or year to do things and to let people know exactly what they mean to you….but we never know what we have…I have told Angie several times that she was such an inspiration to so many people. And she was…she was determined .. I wish I could be there at her funeral but we have no choice . Walter know that we are there in love …
Our neighbors from across the street , that are from Ca. left and went back to Ca. yesterday…They have been here this time since May. I told them I wish we could just follow them as far as AZ today…they said well lets go. Lol not ready , well I am but not..
So many of us freeze and have arthritis problems , we should all go together and buy some land in AZ that way we could share in getting water and everything there. wouldn’t that be neat, the ones that could could live there year round and the others could come anytime they could…we actually are going to look for some land while we are there. . We have plans for solar , also for earth homes….they are really neat and nice. Not what you would think…anyway a dream ……
Lou I too think it would be so hard to attend a funeral , I would much rather remember her as the vital , happy person that we all know , that always had a ready laugh or hug or a good word of encouragement for everyone.
You are doing wonderfully on your weight loss journey…You have lost so much . I remember the first time you came to support meeting. You look nothing like that girl then….and I love love your hair. With the hair cut you just erased more years off your age, not that you are old lol but you look so much younger. And sexy.
Yes I did enjoy the sunshine. It sort of made me think that Angie was smiling at all of us.
Cor: I agree that I wish that no one would ever have to go thru what we all did yesterday but if there wasn’t death then we wouldn’t know how wonderful life is…. It hurts us that are left behind but as Christians we have this hope and joy in knowing that we will see them again.
Hope all is well with you take care ….and hope you enjoyed today , it was a really pretty one…
JANET:"" I know I speak for everyone here that we here all love you too. I know I too called and talked to all my kids yesterday as well as a lot of the grandkids…Thanks Angie…..
It doesn’t ever hurt to forgive someone , doesn’t mean you have to put yourself in a postion to be physically hurt tho. …ok?
I guess today we are both doing pre op stuff……good luck ,
I will pray for you on Tuesday if you pray for me when I have surgery 2 weeks after you….lol we will both be ok ,,,like you said only God knows when we are to die so no need for us to worry about it..IF he wants us home then ill meet you up there with a hug….
JEANIE=RAE ::::; I think the reason we all become so close and attached to each other is the fact that we know what each other is going thu, from the beginning of the thoughts to have surgery on. As Janet says some have more or bigger problems than others but we all have problems. According to my doctor I was obese but I was a lightweight , sure didn’t feel like a light weight ….I am only 5 ft 3 inches and I weighed 272 that is a size 22/24 I was a round ball. Always out of breath, arthritis so bad that I couldn’t walk more than about 50 ft because of the pain. That is about out to the mail box. I thought I was doing great to be able to walk out to the mailbox and after getting my strength back I would walk back ….I can understand about Angies chair because I was more or less confined to my chair ….Joe did all the house work except for laundry and I did most of the cooking. But I would have to sit down every few seconds …I had a stool that I sat on to cook. Anyway what I was saying or trying to say is that we are all so close because no matter where we started at: we understand and we all have the same problems, need the same nutritional problems , problems trying to get in the protein, water. And vits. ….we all know that having the surgery isn’t a magic bullet. …and we know it is a lot of work so we hope that we can help others make that journey too. And in the process we grow to love each other ……so welcome to the club. You showed up , you joined. ….love you…
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GOD BLESS YOU TODAY
JAN COOK
I hope and pray that your all doing well today. I am going to have a busy busy day-oh joy! Maybe tomorrow I can relax, lol......Or at least slow down, dont think I will have a choice in the matter. I havent been posting the lifes happenings because of the tragic news we received the other day about Angie. I went out and found a sympathy card where the front is beautiful butterflys and I KNEW it was for her, I bought it and will send it today with a small check. I sure dont have much. I am almost embaressed to send such a small amount, but I just dont have it. I could just cry that I cant do more right now. Darn it! Maybe I will wait till Friday so I can send more. I will send this still....will see.
So, Satufday we had the last RC race of the season. Darrel took 1st place in the novice slasher (electric car), Mike took 3rd in Truggy (nitro gas truck/buggy), and then 4th in Monster Truck (also nitro gas, sportsman class). He would have taken first (as he had in the practice heats) BUT......truck broke in the main heat.....so 4th in that sense, is still amazing....lol....they have the biggest class! So, some of the guys up there that race-they are REALLY into kids racing and families etc-they LOVE that... and since the Slasher car that Darrel has been racing doesnt belong to us-and it broke in one of the heats (practices, they get 2-3 practice heats, and then the main)...anyway, a guy named Steve (older gentlemen) has been letting Darrel borrow his car since he doesnt race it-and got it from trading different services etc- he approached me afterwards and said that he would sell it to me and accept payments. I cant wait-because we are putting a new body on it-and there is his Christmas present.....well, lo and behold-Jon has asked if he can race next season too-he wants to race the slasher cars that Darrel races.....and I found another one, cheap (they are normally $200). So-while I am talking to this guy, Shawn, that has one for sale-we were talking about my old RC electric truck, the first one that we ever got... and I told him that if he came across someone who would like to buy a stampede to let me know cuz I was selling mine.... well, he is going to work out a deal with me. SO, both of my boys have their major christmas presents taken care of-and for a lot less money that I would have had to spend...YAY...
I am also starting to race next season, and the guys all talked me into it-I wonder IF they will feel the same IF I beat them out there? Ya, Im thinking NOT....so, we are going to be practicing like crazy WHEN we can... I will race the Revo Nitro gas car. They call it buggy. Im okay as long as I never have to race against Mike. I refuse to allow him in MY class or to race in his class. We have the revo already and thats why I chose that class. They are fast and fun and with a serious woman driver-we are more likely to get sponsors etc-and even if we just find one that will pay for my nitro gas ($33 a gallon) OR pay my entry fees to the different races, like they do Mikes.. then I will do it full time, if not-I wont. Since Mike gets sponsored, they said IF I can race like him-they will sponsor us together (free advertising for them-you have to wear their hats and tshirts) We joked about the whole family being sponsored and they said its a definite possibility because Darrel raced 2 races and he took 3rd in the first race after placing 1st in both practice heats. Lots of kids too...and then this was his 2nd race and he placed 1st. Will see. If its meant to be-those doors will keep opening! I can hang with the big boys-cuz fun toys arent just for boys-right?
I finally got to meet with my GYN...I finally went in and there wasnt a baby born to a woman dialated to a 9, lol.. SO.....Sat when I got in to post what we decided to do- WHAM....But, I better get it posted today, as I wont be posting for a few. LOL...,
Ok-here was the delimna. IF I have total-have to worry about hormones-no matter for how long-the worst case scenerio is a yr or more. Least is a month to 90 days. At ANY amount of time, for me, added risks due to the fact I got a blood clot from being on the pill....and I had just had surgery on my right knee, so I dont know why they blame the pill...but my mom had them 3 different times, calf first and lungs twice. This is scary ****
ok-so they have the option of leaving my ovaries so I am not thrown into early menopause BUT......and here is the big but, IF I have problems with my ovaries later and they need to go in and remove them, I will have so much scar tissue after 4 abdominal surgeries and then a tummy tuck-they will have severe issues getting in there! I sure dont want that! So, we deliberated and due to my family history (which is huge in this situation) we are doing a total and complete hysterectomy AND... I AM NOT going to even start on the hormones UNLESS.....I start to have issues and NEED THEM! IF I have to go on them, THEN and ONLY THEN....will I start them and then I will get coumadin to go right along with them, so it will help prevent the clots. Wish me luck. Prayers PLEASE!
I am CLAIMING and standing in faith that this will be a good surgery, good recovery and no hormones. They have been so messed up anyways-that I am believing that maybe not having that up and down rollercoaster of emotions is actually going to be a relief....as long as I dont start grabbing myself down there while wearing boxers and belching while scarfing down a beer and watching a football game-Im good with it-lol....
Today I am so crazy busy. Geez, I dont feel like Im going to get enough done to make everything easy for the guys while I am gone. Im trying to make sure they have easy meals and all of that.....then I think they will be able to come up and eat dinner with me fairly cheap, at least once-so thats good......they do have good food at that hospital- and its like a restuarant menu now-they dont do the regular tray times, you get a menu and can call between certain times for breakfast, lunch and dinner.... huge menu-just certain items for the entree, appetizer etc-and so I guess thats nice, they are always offering the same things and makes it easier-but anyway, when Megan was in there-the food was good. The cafeteria offers different items everyday and so on-I have liked everything Ive had. Today I am on a light meal for lunch and then liquids. I love chicken broth, so I will make a big old batch up from the cubes and just "snack" on that. Get some sf popsicles and whatever I dont eat-Im sure the boys will be heartbroken to eat what I dont-lol...
So I talked to mom. I told her that whatever she decided was her decision and her life. I was honest with her on how I felt-but I am not going to cut her out of my life for making decisions I dont like. I love my parents, I just wish they would grow up. I also got the phone number for my brother and am going to call him. I havent spoken to him since my grandparents died. His wife got mad when I wouldnt be a bridesmaid-because at 450#, I wasnt comfortable wearing a strapless gown! My boobs were HUGE, as you can imagine-and I couldnt find a strapless bra that would support ME and the GIRLS... not to mention MY dress was going to have to be specially made-as theirs were bought from a fancy bridal shop and were $280 BEFORE having to be specially made. I just couldnt do it-and truth be told, even if my dress would have been 20, I wouldnt have been able to wear a strapless gown. I asked if mine could be different because of that fact and she accused me of wanting special attention and being difficult and then told me that IF I wasnt going to be in the wedding (which is the way you do things, SIL ARE TO BE IN THE WEDDING!) that I was disowned from their lives. I went to the wedding anyway, just didnt participate IN the wedding. When they lost their first child-Mike and I helped pay for the funeral because of their financial situation and my house was paid for at the time, so I had extra money-and know what? I didnt get so much as a thank you, kiss my butt-nothing. We were then told that they werent going to have a big service and so not to bother coming up to MN and found out later that it was a service, but Tonya told everyone that she meant what she said that I was NOT a part of their family because I RUINED her 50,000 wedding by NOT participating! OMG ARE YOU KIDDING ME? So, when my grandparents died 6 yrs ago-I got to see him and my beautiful neices and nephews. I have called and called in the past and never get a call back. I have sent pics and such and never hear back from them. She will not allow my brother to talk to me. I am praying that enough time has passed that she will allow my brother and I to be a part of each others lives. One of my best friends who lives in the same town as them, keeps me posted and says that they arent doing good....
******UPDATE ON SURGERY: The gyn office just called. Surgery cancelled. My doc has the flu. They expect her to be out for 2-3 days, if not the whole week. They said they will be calling me back to reschedule. I will keep you all posted as I know. So-NO SURGERY TOMORROW!
I guess I wont have to rush to get so much done today as it turns out. Darn. May just be the first week in November afterall.
Ok....since everyone was asking HOW I answered my little guy, 6.5 yrs old to be exact-trust me, he never let it go until HE was satisfied with the answers he got. Gheesh! Well, I tried to explain that sex was something that MARRIED people who love each other do...so then he wanted to know if it was fun? OHHHHH...Um, it CAN BE fun-IF YOUR MARRIED AND IN LOVE....LOL.... AND...Of course, YOUR OLD....I told him that the older you are, the more you know about "sex" and that sex isnt something that young kids SHOULD DO...and that a lot of kids talk about sex who dont know what they are talking about, and so IF he ever has anymore ?s, he should always come to us. Always! So-that opened up alot more ?s....and I think I had an ulcer by the time we were done. How do you do that? Why do you do that? Do old people have a lot of sex and do you have sex with everyone thats old? GOOD GRIEF CHARLIE BROWN, STOP IT....Mommys not gonna make it through this line of questioning. No, old people dont just have sex with other old people and most dont have sex with just anyone they see thats old. (notice I said MOST DONT?-LOL)....
So, just told him (didnt lie...just didnt feel the need to go into extravagant details) that everyone was different, just like how we dress etc. Told him he had 20 yrs before he had to worry about it and that he shouldnt listen to the kids on the bus who talk about that kind of stuff. Told him that people who love each other do that because they want to-lol......talk about uncomfortable. This child is just filled with a million and one ?s and I wish he would just ask something like-why are there clouds or how God made us-lol....those are a couple of ?s the girls asked. I thought those were hard ones to answer. I think IM TOO OLD FOR THIS-LOL..... Its honestly only the 2nd time I have seen Mike speechless, or at a loss for words. That story is going in the baby book AND another book I got for the boys where you put in different things, family history and such. LOL...this is worthy! His teacher even said she would try and think of a way to help answer him.
Well, I need to get out of here and go pay some bills and do some other stuff that needs to be done today. I hope and pray you all have a good day and a nice week and that everyone is healthy. Keep Angies family in prayer, along with one another.
Love you guys! As always, your all in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Janet
**Jan-Im not sure when Miss Renee will grace MO with her presense again! LOL... She is having a blast with Larry. They went to the Nascar races Saturday, and they are just having fun! She needed this! Should have told Jon that Aunt Renee is A LOT OLDER THAN MOST PEOPLE THIS WEEK!!!! LMAOROTF!!!! She will probably be using a walker, have hearing aids and cataracts by the time she gets home.... tee hee. Lucky woman! Hope she cant get on to read this today or Im in trouble! LOL LOL!
It looks like I will be back on here tomorrow....(knock on wood). I will talk to you guys then!
Life is so short we need to enjoy each day and they time we have with our loved ones.
