WHATS HAPPENING FOR MONDAY....IM BACKKKKA

Dear Auntie Jan and Peeps~

I usually dont do my responses first-BUT....Im SO GLAD to see you, Jan!!! Missed you like crazy! Thought about you a lot and if you were cold. I already knew the answer-but I was just believing that you were snuggled real close to Joe-stealing his body heat-which isnt much!!! (LOL)....Maybe you need to "fatten" him up for situations like that!! LOL....Ok-here is a suggestion and I WILL send you the details in an email if youd like-BUT....Mike and I have some thermals, for hunting-that are outrageously WARM...Im NOT just saying that either! I kept thinking about telling you, basically for riding the trike in the colder weather BUT....staying warm when you go to the fall CMA stuff-it would be beneficial-AND-Like I said-I can attest that they DO work....K? Worth every single dime-and then some.. Want me to send the info to you? You can get them, of course-at Bass Pro Shop-BUT...you can find them even cheaper at like an Academy or other places. Not walmart tho. Sorry.

I have been in a "funk" the past 3 days. I hate to say this. I dont want to feel like this anymore. I feel so drained/strained.....NOT suicidal-just-in a "funk". This "situation" with Mikes family and dealing with dad-its all so overwhelming. I picked up my phone to call him 3 times yesterday-THREE TIMES. DUH...Janet-he is gone. I hadnt broke down in front of Mike yet. I have cried, but not broken down, but I did last night. I was sitting on the couch and in the most pain ever-overwhelmed, pain mentally and physically and I lost it. I just lost it. I couldnt even catch my breath. That made Mike freak out. He didnt know whats going on. I dont "lose" it much around people. Im pretty controlled with my emotions most of the time! Jon had just hopped up on the couch and went to hug me and his knee/leg went right into the small of my back and that was it! It all started from the instant pain, and then one thing snowballed to another, then another, then another. Pretty soon, my nose was running- I was a fool-When I found out grama died-I was just like-Ok, God-ENOUGH ALREADY! NO MORE! NO MORE! NO MORE! Enough, enough, enough already!

I just got a call from my KC doc (the nurse) and I am to be on "rest" complete and total until I go see her....Are you kidding me? I can go to the restroom and I can shower...other than that-Im SUPPOSE to lay in my bed OR stay on the couch.....IF the tailbone doesnt heal before I see her-I am going to HAVE to schedule surgery. Wonderful. Yipee and Yay! Here is the best part-2 weeks ago on Friday....I rebroke it. It was 10x worse than the first time around and she is faxing orders for me to go get series of Xrays and perhaps MRI or Scan-whatever one is bone related, IF the x-rays dont show anything. She said she suspects that when it started to heal and re-broke, that the 2nd break-was more severe than the first, due to the amount of pain I am in and since I have been her pt for several months-she KNOWS when I say something isnt working OR something is wrong-it is. Thank goodness. Not liking this limitation thing. Guess it will all work out. Like I have options at this point, huh?

The mortuary in Lake Havasu, AZ is shipping the ashes directly to our front door-the only stipulation there is-is that we HAVE to be here-they HAVE to put them in our hands-they cannot leave them on the porch OR with anyone else. So, I will HAVE to be here for them. I am NOT looking forward to this day-but....At least the family stopped fighting about the ashes when I called and told them that Uncle Russ (aunt Sis's hubby) was sending the plane fare to Mike and he was flying out there WITHOUT ME-which means-nobody to help with anger management should Mike lose it-LOL...scary for them! I basically told his mom that IF she means all this crap she is always saying about regretting HOW she has treated Mike all his life and wanting to make amends-that it was a funny way of showing it-putting him through this crap when all MIKE IS TRYING TO DO-IS FULFILL HIS FATHERS LAST WISH! Come on people! GET A GRIP-a million bucks-sure, fight us-but his ashes so Mike can fulfill his fathers last wish of being scattered at their favorite fishing place-COME ON! Those were some very wonderful memories for Mike and his dad-WHO would stand in the way of someones final wi****s not like he was out of his mind when he asked for this. He first mentioned it to Mike about 5 yrs ago-when he was making up his will-and then again in July! The POS are now fighting over the money in dads account, his van and his belongings. Mike has told Aunt Sis that he thinks that the money should go to Grandma-after any balance at the mortuary is covered-and to sell the van and give it to Grandma also. They (grandma and dad) have lived together for 12 yrs and dad paid the rent and such and so he has said that dad would want this! He would too!!! Grandma is moving in with aunt Sis and Uncle Russ now.....What a mess. Wish I lived closer. I would even take her for the summer months here-but she is going to be 93 next month and just cant travel, even by plane-it would wear her out too badly. Dont get me wrong-the woman, she is active and gets around better than most people I know-LOL...but, it would just be too hard on her. Please continue to pray for the family. Including Mike and my kids please. Thanks.

We never found the deer. Mike was using a new arrow-mechanical-its SUPPOSE to open up upon impact (Grim Reaper they are called) and it never did expand. You can tell. So, she wa****but her blood trail ended and she clotted up (thank God) and hopefully didnt suffer. Mike was so disgusted that she would suffer. He will NEVER use those broad heads again and we are sending them a letter about it. They looked for several hours and never did find it. So-guess we will have to wait for more meat. Havent had it for about 6 months when the freezer broke and we lost it all. I have been craving the jerky and the back strap!!! Such as life.

I dont get to go to Mels gramas funeral-the grama I said was as close to my own as I had ever had- I cant go because of the doc and her orders this morning. I guess it may be a blessing, since I havent seen or really talked to her since the end of May-Im sure I would have felt really uncomfortable and out of sorts. I am going to do what I did when Mom Theresa died and what we are doing for dad too-and plant a tree or two in her memory this spring. Unless-Jan-is there a tree that CAN be planted in this weather right now and take? I would LOVE to plant the tree that attracts butterflies since Grama loved butterflies-but....will have to research-OR wait for Jan to tell me-LOL...I already got a Pine tree for dad-and will plant some more lilacs this spring, in his memory. Let me know. Thanks.

I talked to Bec this morning and she is going to get the baby clothes when she sees Deb today and then when we go to KC to meet Bec the 19th, then we can get them and if something happens and I cant make it-MAYBE we can talk Sugar into packing them in the van and bringing them to the meeting in November and we can get them there. Will see. I WANT to go to KC and I AM PLANNING on it. Guess my stupid bones and joints will determine WHAT I get to do! She told me what she made Deb and I am jelous-I want one!!! LOL...cant say it here-but-you all will know soon!

Well, I am gonna get these responses done soon and change my clothes. Just spilled my drink down my front. Swallowed a bug. Dont know what kind of bug-YUCK! Hope it wasnt a spider-but I have seen a lot of them around the past couple of days-GHHEESSSHHH!

**Jan-I could just "see" in my mind the wonderful sermons and the holy spirit working the magic! I just LOVE that feeling!!! What a wonderful trip! Wish you didnt have to have a trike/bike to attend-LOL....but...Understand!! LOL....When is your next one? Do they give you the option of what you attend during the day or do you have to attend it all? Do you all BBQ or do they have a hall where you are served like at summer camp? Details, details...want them all!!

If you went to the West Plains one, you could see Vesta and Virgil-so that would be WAY COOL, huh?

How did Joes MRI go this morning? Did he get sick from the contrast? Am praying for him. Hope it wasnt hard on him at all. Hope this one is clear and that they FINALLY help him. Im anxious to hear what this doc does for him-its been on my heart that maybe I should go to the same one OR one in that clinic in Springfield, right? Thats close enough for me and my family-but yet, better than what they have offered here in Joplin. Thats for sure.

Did your plants make it-or did you have a freeze while you were gone? We had a freeze here. My stuff made it so far tho. Pretty flowers too-Im amazed-and Happy about that! Love seeing the pretty flowers when I look outside the window or drive into the carport to park. Looks so pretty still-even though 3/4ths are gone-what I do have left-is pretty and vibrant!

Oh-and THANKS for the compliment-BUT....There is NO WAY that I do the Whats Happening ANYWHERE good as you-and so NO....I will NOT take it over permanently. Help you when you need OR want a break, anytime-permanently-NO WAY! Your such a turd! Have you been drinking so early in the morning? Did you see my pitiful Sunday post? Love ya for the compliment though-Im not sure why you didnt fire me, ecspically since I never got back on Sunday to finish AND I only had 2 posters! Your back for a couple of hours and WHAM....They are all over you like....(think of your own phrase there-the only "clean" one I can think of is....Like Stink on a skunk!) LOL....Love ya and cant wait to see your pics-AND to see you to hug Aunt Jan AND Uncle Joe!!! Miss you much-o! Tell Joe hi for me...Oh-have you seen Andy and Susan yet? How are they?

**Tammy-I could just see you driving your own transit. I know he told you NOT to tell anyone, but a part of me says that you need to...IF he needs a "nap" then he wasnt rested-AND...if he is letting someone drive who has already caused other deaths-it just may be that he needs to go work somewhere else-and not where someone life is in his hands. Im sorry, but I WOULD call-and...IF they put him somewhere else-like dispatch or something, you wont have to worry about getting him next time....I think you owe it to the next person who may have to have him AND may NOT be able to take over driving....I KNOW YOU and IF Someone else died because of them-you would feel bad-thats how you are....So-girl, I personally, WOULD make that call! Thats BULL....

I bet Cheyenne is growing like a weed! I just simply cant wait to have my own lil gal here! Its what keeps me going most days!

You WILL get that tummy tuck! Im so glad they saw you anyway-but you shouldnt have been an hour late-because of those yahoo's!!! I KNOW you woulda called on them then!!! We will continue to pray that it all goes well and you get that approval and I KNOW YOU WILL!!! Congrats on the 4#!!! I am so happy for you!!! Love you!

**Tammy V-We bought some of the bullets for Renee at Walmart. She says they are okay. We got fruit punch. I dont know if they come in other flavors-thats all we saw there. They only have 26 g of protein vs the others that have 42, but they are like $1.50-$2.00 cheaper each bullet.

YAY about your results from cardio! What a relief!

So glad to hear about your sons job AND that they will be so close!!! Congrats!

**Lynette-where have you been? YOUR GROUNDED!!!! Are you okay? Please let us know. Been worried! Love ya.

**Vesta-HOLY COW, WOMAN!!! I would have NEVER recognized you on the street!! never!! never, ever!!! You look FANTASTIC, WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL and ADORABLE!!! Love the avatar! The pup was cute-BUT...Your cuter!! love ya and cant wait to see you in person and get a Vesta Hug!!!

**Sheila-Im so glad to hear your doing a lil' better every day! Im so sorry this surgery was so painful for you!! The worst is over now and your on your way!!! I will be praying for good results from the visit today AND......know that your in my prayers and thoughts. Love ya!

**Deb D-How did your weekend go? Give us an update!!! Hope it was magical and perfect! You guys sure deserve it! Cant wait to hear all about it!

What are you going to do at Becs? Do you have an appt up that way or just going for fun? I so wish I could join you guys there!!! Have fun! Love ya!

**Susie-How many days now? The countdown has begun!!! Take care-and-you WILL be able to eat your favorites again-its just going to be awhile....Maybe not ice cream and chocolate-BUT....you can go low fat for both and its good too!!!

**Deb (Pooh)-I swear-you crack me up!!! Dont you wish they made a pain pill that worked as well as Front line does for the pets? LOL....There aint no pain on me, there aint no pain on me...LOL...I can just see you and I in that commercial now!!!

My Stephanie was like you describe Nikki like in the morning...the Linda Blair thing-LOL...I was scared sometimes when I would have to go in there-and would take a shield with me to cover my body and stay by the door-LOL.... Im glad that the meds help her!! Thats what matters most..That it works-and if it didnt-I know you wouldnt leave her on it!!!

Have fun with Bec today-I KNOW you WILL love her even more than you do now-after you meet her! She is awesome! Dont you dare say you will disappoint her!!! PALEEZE! She loves you as much as we do! Im just jelous that you guys get to meet today-when I wanna meet you so badly myself!!! I told her to give you a hug from me!! She gives the best hugs EVER!!!

**Bec-Have fun at Ms. Debs! I cant wait to hear all about it!! Im jelous-I wanna live closer to all of you-youd be shoo-ing me away every time you turned around!!! LOL....You guys would be trying to find a company to keep me at bay more than once a month!!! LOL-like Janet be gone or something! LOL...Thanks, ever so much for picking up the babies clothes! What a doll you are! I appreciate it so much! Love you dearly.

**Sandy (shannon), Sugar, Barbara, Renee, Lou, Andy, Lana, Jeanine, Peggy, Penni, Sherr, Lori-AND....Anyone else I am missing-Hi there. Thinking of you!

**Well-Im off. Im hurting and I have to change and get settled in my new area for a few days-YAY. I hope you all have a wonderful week! Love and prayers to you all! Love, Janet