I hate this. Why did i do this to myself?

I know why i had the surgery and that was to help me get rid of my high blood pressure.  But so far it has not been worth it in my opinion.  Do get me wrong i did the homework on my surgery for over 5 years.  At this point i really hate that i had this surgery, it has made me so miserable and i don't feel like my life will ever return to normal. 
Yesterday i was admitted into the hospital again because i was dehydrated, had low blood surgar and a UTI. I have never had either of these problems before.  I feel like the surgery is hurting me more than the hbp.
I read all these wonderful stories, so i naturally assume that i would have a wonderful story to tell (i realize that not everyone it the same), i couldn't be further from a wonderful story.
Simply Put  "I hate that i did this and i don't want to continue to cry about this, but thats all i can do at this moment.  I can't turn to food the way i use too. 
I hope someday in the near future i look back on my post and realize that this was just a phase i had to go through to get to the good time. 
Thank for allowing me to vent.

Sweetie I hate to hear your having such a hard time... Hang in there....It takes time to adjust to your new pouch and get the hang of things.....All the symptoms your having is from lack of the things you need and sometimes it takes a bit to get to the point where you can get the intake you need.....
Do your very best to get all you vitamins and water in...  And work hard on getting in as much protien as you can.. It's tough on everyone in the beginning....Very few can jump in there and get in all they need right off.....

I will keep you in my prayers....Keep us posted on how things are going....And ask any questions you have.... Someone on here will be able to answer you or help you find out the info you need.....

God Bless you....Luv & Hugs....Tammy~ammy

Hang in there! You are going through buyers remorse. I had several complications when I had surgery that it almost took my life. I too was thinking why did I do this and why did I do this to my family! But, I am now almost 4 months post op and down almost 70 pounds! I went from a 26 to a 16! I am so happy I did this!

Just keep in mind, IT WILL GET BETTER!! You will learn how to eat again, you will learn how to get your fluids in, it just takes a little time! God Bless!

Just wanted to let you know i'm sorry you are feeling so bad,But please believe me and i know you;ve heard this over and over but it WILL get better,
 I am a lil ovet 2 months out and just now getting to where i can get in my fluids and protein,I too for over a month questioned myself on why i did this to my body, Still there are days i ask that same question,
But it gets better day by day, It really helps when you can finally get in your fluids and protein, I know how hard that is to do,But it is very importasnt that we make ourselves drink,drink,drink, and i have not found a good protein yet, But i found some that are tolerable and i force myself to drink them,WE have got to have that protein and lots and lots of fluids,I have been in Er twice with dehydration and it really suxed,Those iv's hurt so my heart goes out to you.
 Bec uses a timer to let her know when to sip,sip,sip, you need a few onces of liquids every 15 min then soon yull have your fluids in for the day.
 Right now only thing i can eat that dosen't come back up is tomato soup,It is my new best friend.And posicles work good too.
 I pray you start feeling better so that soon you will on here telling us how much you love your RNY, I'm hopeing someday i'll be posting the same thing,
 Be sure you get in your vitamines it is very important to your body for life and to help us lose the weight, Same for protein,
I think of my vit and protein as medicin that will make me live,Without them i will die, So even though i don't like it i do it, because i wanna live,
 I'll be praying for you and hope you are better soon
 Love and {{{{{{{{{{{{{DEB}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

i was wondering where you had gone to since surgery....you need to vent , you just vent away...there is probably not a one of us that at sometime in the beginning that wished we had never had it done....but it does get easier , you have to push yourself to make sure you get enough water in and protein and all your vits. those three things are the basics of your life from now on. No one can really tell you how to do that, some people till they get theirselves trained to drink and drink and drink use timers. i have always and still do at 2 years out put all the water i need to drink in the frig every morning in bottles and i can see at a glance how far i am behind or ahead ...I have my protein in smoothies i make in my blender. 3 x a day cause i cant eat enough dense protein....and i sit my vits up in a weekly pill box with 4 openings for each day...
It is work, constantly to keep my self healthy but i think it is worth it now. ...
do you go to a support group where you live? that is one of the most important things you can do for yourself....and keep comeing on here daily please....we love you and want to help you  it is important to have people like yourself that have went thru this , we understand....I tell everyone you are a HYBRID now...lol....you know like the hybrid cars that go farther on less gas....that is us we go farther on less food ....it is just learning how to operate this new car that takes awhile to learn , it is totally different than any thing you have ever learned in your life before. ....love and a big hug to you ...i know you can do this....you can , you can , you can........

Thank you for the support and i love the idea of being a Hybrid and i know i'm going to use that.  I know i will get over this hirdle in time.

What you are going through right now is normal.  I had my surgery in Jan. 08 and I too thought I would breeze right through it and have a wonderful story but it didn't work out that way.  I to ended up back in the hospital 2x from dehydration, UTI, and severe aneimia.  I had an infection and ran a temp. for 3 weeks straight and was miserable.  I was so worried cause I was sick for so long when others were doing great.  I also thought, "what the heck did I do and why did I do this to myself".  It wasn't until about 3 months out when I started getting back to some kind of normalcy and back to work.  To this day 9 months later I can honestly say I would do it all over again in a heart beat even with the complications.  I remember how several people on here told me it would get better but at the time I wasn't so sure and had a hard time believing in that but it did get better and I have lost 160 pounds in less then 9 months and have gone from a size 28/30 down to a size 16.  I was diabetic they just diagnosed me about 9 months before my surgery and that's what made me decide to have surgery I didn't want the complications of diabeties.  I too was just a little over on the scale before that I had insulin resistance.  They put me on meds and when I was in the hospital for my surgery they gave me insulin shots well 3 days after surgery I never took anymore meds for my diabetes and today my levels are perfect!  I know right now you are feeling bad but just take one day at a time and know it does get better and soon you too will be able to say how wonderful you feel.  Come here and vent we will all be here for you, believe me I vented a lot in the begining and everyone here is so supportive and caring.  Hang in there.

Hi there,
I am so sorry that you are having these feelings and the experience with the ER visits and dehydration. It seems almost condescending to say this wont last or yadi yadi......BUT.....  Speaking from experience-this WILL NOT last-this too, shall pass-I PROMISE IT GETS EASIER!!! Each and every day!

I, too, ended up on IVs, VERY SICK post op-I really thought I was going to die. I had 24 hr care at my house-thats how sick I got-AND....I, too-thought-this is what I was looking forward to? THIS is going to SAVE MY LIFE? WHATEVER! This is going to KILL ME-NOT SAVE ME....and I was so upset!

I sure envy the people who waltz out of the hospital and never have an issue-BUT.....I also am thankful that I went through an experience where I can now witness to you and tell you that, for myself-I had buyers remorse for 6 months-and I have "angeled" SEVERAL people whom had buyers remorse in the beginning too-Kristy, Susan, Angy, Chante-I even heard Renee last week in the hospital say-"What have I done to myself?"  Sugar on here-months of being sick! PLEASE BELIEVE that what your feeling IS NORMAL to some of us!!!!

My advice to you: Keep on, Keeping on!!!  Keep your chin up! Get on here and LET US KNOW when you need us-PLEASE....That IS what we are here for-and MANY of us-have been right where you are!! When your dehydrated, sweety, your body is so weak AND.....you just feel plain puney and worse off than pre-op!  Let us help you get through it ok? 

Now, I KNOW you have heard this before-but considering that your body has just been through a life changing event and its wondering what in the hell to do-YOU HAVE TO take the bull by horns and control it-LOL....Kick it in the rear, if you will-and MAKE yourself sip until you want to throw the cup across the room-and when you THINK your gonna die if you have to sip some more-then you know your doing it right!!! You have to do this-IT IS what WILL keep you from another ER visit for dehydration! I KNOW it stinks, its like lugging around something 24/7-BUT....That gets better too-just takes a few months, thats all!!!

Vitamins and protein are also IMPERATIVE-to keep your body healthy.  Its losing A LOT right now-and then when you add the emotional stuff that comes from the hormones being released when those fat cells burn off-it leaves a lot of us scratching our heads wondering WHY did I do this?  SO......I want to add before I end the post:

Someone very wise did this for me, so I am paying it forward:  You did this to save your life- right? Is your blood pressure medication gone yet? If not-IT WILL BE!  You did this so that YOU could enjoy your life WITH the ones you love, to meet your goals, to FEEL GOOD AND BE HAPPY! ALL OF THIS WILL HAPPEN, IT WILL!!!   PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE-DONT GIVE UP!!!!  Just give it a couple more weeks.....Try the sipping constantly, even when you roll over in bed-take a sip-when driving, sip-when taking a shower-open your mouth and sip-LOL....and get in that protein ANY way you can....and then the vitamins-and I bet within a couple of weeks-you will read your post and know that we werent lying to you!!!

I will say extra prayers for you-and I HOPE and PRAY that you WILL let us know IF you need us-OK?????  Keep us posted.  Love ya (brother or sister in this journey) and wish you the very best!  Janet

 

Sweetheart, this is normal feelings you are having, and believe me your life does get back to normal after awhile, just consent rate on water and protein this is your time for healing and its alright to wonder if you did the right thing,
 
You know honey the reason I know I did the right thing for me is if I ha dent had it done today I would be in a wheel chair, instead I am waking and run if I need to and I am 69 years old and have had it done 18 mos ago..vesta

Thank you all for the the great advice you have give me in your post.  I promise i won't give i just needed my pitty party.  I know from reading different post on here that i could be in a worse situation so i really should count my blessings.  And someone said in there post "And This too shall pass".  Today is a new day.  I am determine not to be dehydrated again and i will get my protein and vitamin.  Thank you all for allowing me to whine.