WHATS HAPPENING MONDAY

Dear Aunt Jan and OH Peeps~

I AM not having a good day today. As some of you have seen, we got a call this morning that Mikes dad has passed away. Please dont get me wrong, we have been expecting the call, BUT.....He had been fighting so hard and doing so much better-and I think we just got excited that he would still be around for that last fishing trip. So, I have been on the phone on and off this morning with our favorite aunt... Sis-the one that is terminal...trying to comfort her. Grandma does not know yet. Sissy is going to head over there in a bit and its breaking her heart. Please pray for them. The whole family has been in turmoil this past week with different surgeries, health issues and such-and, out of five of Grandmas children-FOUR were in the hospital last week-and the one daughter that wasnt-she didnt even bother to go help Grandma out at all-said she didnt have the time or the energy to run her all over the place because she never bothered to learn how to drive (real sweet lady.....dont like her at all!) Anyway-so thats that. Living in a house full of guys-well, this is the first time its affected me in a negative way-I was (and am) a little emotional-and Mike wont let ya see him cry-so he wasnt showing emotion. Think it was sinking in...Got a 1/2 hug from him and as soon as I started to cry, the hug was over-Darrel left for the bus without hugging anyone-and Jon is too little to understand. So, I hugged my dog....and am planning on going down the trail in a minute and hugging mom and dad (mikes adopted parents).

Ok-so if thats not enough, Megan and Stephanie have already been in a huge fight this morning-and that was a screaming match. Stephanie has been spending almost all of her time that she isnt in school with her sperm donor and so she has this better than thou attitude, with ALL of us-even my mom! SHE (Stephanie) WANTED to live with my mom and NOW.....nothing is good enough for her-so my mom told her that she could pack her stuff and go live with her other grandma OR her wonderful father. She told my mom that NONE OF US IS ever there for her, anyway! She also told Megan that she is lucky that she is pregnant because she would knock her on her butt, if she wasnt! I was like-Oh HELL NO! Whats really bad is that poor little Mackenzie gets to hear those ding dongs fighting like that-and Im sure it has to stress the lil' gal out! I told Megan on the phone that I am so over this crap with those 2 and that I am coming in to town here in a bit and we are all sitting down to talk-and I am even calling Eric afterwards. This is done. This is NOT working and its not healthy for anyone.

Was gone last week, so I didnt get over to child support enforcement to see about that warrant for felony level of child support and they are closed today-I was going to be there first thing this morning and my mom reminded me that they wouldnt be open today. So, I am going to be there first thing in the morning and get that straightened out. He is suppose to be here for another week-so that would give them time to get it activated. As soon as they arrest him, I gaurantee that my back child support WILL be taken care of-they had the money to pay cash for a 4 door, big, heavy duty (equiptment hauling) 2008 Toyota Tacoma! They have a brand new 2008 van with the company logo on it and all the money to live without working-AND still be able to travel all over the country-but he cant pay 225 a month for child support????? I have a problem with that, but Stephanie thinks I AM THE ONE who is a *B* because I wont let it go. She told me yesterday that her dads life would be so much better IF he didnt have the child support hanging over his head and that his dying wish is that "I" would be a better person (like he WOULD be, IF he were in MY position) and write off the back child support.....He just cant do anything with it on his credit and even with him talking about filing bankruptsy, he cant really have a "clean" slate-because of ME???? Me? what about 12 yrs of NO child support unless they garnish? Creep....(thats not exactly the word I am thinking of-but keeping this clean).

When I got home yesterday-the boys, Mike and I decorated the house for Holloween. We dont ever get any trick or treaters out here-but I found some really cool and cute decorations at Dollar General and for $5-the front porch looks Awesome!!! We have the police like tape from side to side in the carport/porch area as you pull in that says CAUTION: ENTER IF YOU DARE....then we also have it sideways across the big window and sideways across the screen (glass) door. We have a friendly full door ghost and house on the solid front door. We have inflattable trantulas hanging off the pilars by fishing line (so you cant see the fishing line).....then....there are 4 pilars-and between each pilar-are hanging ghosts-2 in each area. There is a hanging wind jammer (which is circular etc) and its a friendly skeleton looking guy wearing a jail suit....and then the boys put those ghost stakes throughout the yard. It looks sooooo cute! We were gonna do some of those spider webs-but it just gets way too windy out here. I dont think the hanging stuff will last-but will see! Tried to make it all enforced so it wouldnt rip when the wind blows-

Saturday night Mike did so good through the 3 heats they had-he was rockin and we were so excited! Every time his class was up to race-Jon was on Aarons shoulders and when Mikes car would come by us on the track-Jon would bounce up and down, clap and scream-THATS MY DADDY!!! GO DADDY!!! DADDYS GONNA WIN THE TROPHY!!!! Hoopin and Hollerin! ok-so we get to the main (the race that determines the winners) and Mike is in 2nd place-AND........a $4.00 pc BROKE!!! Cost him the race! Mike went through that car from front to back and did everything and had every single spare part there was-and it was the "glo plug" and without that-your car doesnt start-OR stay running! Dammit! Guess that it wasnt meant to be-but it sure would have been nice! Anyway-next time I know he will have one of those right there too. The sponsored guys from around Springfield-spent about 2 hrs talking to Mike and giving him tips and stuff-and were hinting about being on their team. Their team is sponsored BUT....they must attend the big national races like this. All of their expenses are paid when your on this team-so that wouldnt be bad....just take some time-AND they said that his family can travel with them-they encourage it-the family is big with them. They wouldnt pay for our food and what not-BUT....they cover the motel for the family AND Mikes food-he is allowed so much for the weekend-and he can buy it from the grocery store or whatever-so-that would be good too. Will see what happens. Mike would have to choose slot cars or RC and Im not sure he is ready to give up slot cars because he has been racing those now for 10 yrs and has a name for himself AND sponsorship already! Anyway-the guys on the team that were talking to Mike-they won multiple trophys-they are FAST! They said they were impressed with Mikes speed (his car is so fast that he cant give it full throttle or it literally goes air bound) It was a good night and Jon was so happy to go to the race-and between heats-he laid in the front of the Suburban, on his blanket and pillow, resting and we were right there under our shelter.

Before I forget-there is an organization here (its everywhere, really-BUT....Just getting its start) its called "save the ta-ta's" and they sell keychains, t-shirts, hoodys, zipper hoodies, hats and bandanas and ALL of the proceeds go for mammograms and cancer treatment for women (like me in the past) who dont have insurance OR their insurance WONT cover it.....IF anyone would like to buy a keychain or whatever-I can pick them up for you OR you can get on line and check it out. The keychains are only 3.50. The hoodys-which are the big, thick, heavy duty ones are the fall (darker) brown with pink lettering. They are $40. I put one on layaway. They didnt have my sz....check it out-they had small (fit but wasnt long enough for me) and then xl and xxl-which were BOTH too big for me! That was weird. Anyway-this is close to my heart-and Im sure that ALL of us knows someone who has been affected by breast cancer. ALL of the proceeds here - stay in Missouri-each state gets to keep their own proceeds....so-let me know. I am going to be buying some and putting them in the motel lobby to sell (the cheaper things)-thanks.

Well, I need to get this done and head to town. I promised Darrel I would go get the vest for his costume and we would get that done tonite after school. He is not trick or treating this year-but is going to dress up to walk with me and Jon. I may dress up too....I may just go as as myself-I mean a witch... The boys are going to be pirates and they have the coolest costumes-we just needed one more vest for Darrel-and then I have the patch of the skull thingy to sew onto it. I will take pictures! They look so adorable-I mean, SCARY!!! Its not the pirates off of Pirates of the Carribean-just ordinary.... Trying to figure out how I could dress the dog up to go in the equasion (sp?). Any ideas? If it were dozer-Id make him a ship-LOL....but, this is Moll and she is tiny. 6#.

Sorry Im not addressing everyone individually-I just dont have that much time right now, but believe me-I have a list here of 3 days worth of notes for everyone. Im sorry. I just want you to know, for our new "losers" Bec, Renee and Lou-Im praying for you girls every time I think about you all day long. Love you guys! Its so nice to have had the pleasure to be with Renee and Lou on their rebirth days and Bec the day after. I sure feel blessed about that! For Lynette-she is newly post op too-hope she is having smooth sailing-worried because we havent seen her in awhile!!! For Susie and Jeanine-Girls-its ALMOST HERE...HANG IN THERE!!! For the person who posted that they are having remorse-Please pray for them. For Joe and his shot this morning-that it will work-they leave in 2 days for their biking trip-and for Jan and her kidney or bladder (sorry, cant remember which it was, Jan) that you will be ALL BETTER BEFORE you go!!! For Andy-that they do something for him today-praying for his total recovery!!! For Lanas daughter, Stacy and her gson, Adam-that whatever their situations are-that God will intercede and work his miracles. For Jeanine and her uncle that she is taking care of-that she also stays healthy herself. For Peggy-she is helping with a sick aunt-that everything there is okay. For Cor that she will get her approval! For Sheila-who is getting ready to have surgery on Weds for her broken bones from her accident-that she will have a safe surgery, speedy recovery and that something comes through financially to help her out while she is without an income (AGAIN!) For Sugars MIL and FIL-they are both having health issues-pray that the family has peace of mind and strength through this all and for Sherr and her health problems-that she will be okay until she gets to Columbia and gets her testing done! I hope I didnt forget anyone....I am praying a blanket prayer over the board if your not listed individually-its not cause I dont love ya and think of you often! I would really like to add my family to this list today. For all of us in this time of sorrow. Also-for my girls and their issues and also for Jon and his health. Megan is really sick again too-and ended up in the ER AGAIN! Then....if its not too much-for my broken butt thats not healing-IF I have to have surgery-that I will be healed before the holidays AND my new g-daughter makes her appearance. I could also use some strength emotionally right now. I appreciate it.

**Before I go-I have a ? and I would appreciate HONESTY here. Does it offend any of you when I ask for prayer or list the prayers that I am praying? I had a comment made to me in a PM stating that I shouldnt do that-because its like crying wolf to always be asking for prayer and that people are not going to take my prayer requests seriously, because they NEED to be important-like hers are, obviously. I was told, in so many words, that I should ONLY be stating the prayer requests WHEN they are REALLY important. IF a lot of you feel this way-I wont list them anymore. I have my list right here by the computer that I pray for several times a day-and I guess there are 2 options to think about here-IF I am offending a lot of you-then, I wont do it anymore-and thats okay-I am TOTALLY OKAY with that!!! I PROMISE.....BUT....IF Im NOT offending you-then I want to know too-then I know its just someone that doesnt share the same belief as I do. I just dont want to keep on posting the way I have been all this time-and find out that everyone was offended by it, but didnt state it. Thanks. Also-you can PM it to me-and I SWEAR I wont tell ANYONE!!!! PROMISE! I appreciate it. Well, I am getting off here now. I hope that you all have a good Monday-and A good week. Please tell someone today how much you love them, while the chance is still there!!! So-Im taking this chance to tell you all that you mean the world to me-and I love you guys-your my other family and I care deeply for you, whether I have met you face to face or not! Love, Janet