I am still here

Sorry I haven't posted in a while but I'm still around just don't feel like getting on the computer much these days. After 3 weeks of running a temp. I'm finally fever free!  I am getting better but it's going really slowly.  I find that when I try to go out and do the least little thing such as an errand or something I get really weak, tired and sometimes sick to my stomach.  Not sure what that's all about other then it could be my anemia?  I know I'm not getting in all my protein, fluids and vitamins but I'm doing the best that I can.  I'm working on these things and hope that it gets easier? I'm almost 4 weeks out (as of Monday) and I can't believe I don't feel any better then I do but I know I had a few complications and maybe this is to be expected?  I have lost 27lbs since my surgery and 42 all together but when people see me they say I look sick!  Well, I guess I am? I still feel a little buyers remorse and that's another reason I haven't posted much over the last 4 weeks.  I get depressed when I see things that I want to eat and know that I can't have them or when people around me can eat my favorite foods and I can't.  I'm bored with what I am able to eat and therefore because of that I don't get enough food in during the day cause I'm so bored with stage 2.  On the 21st I can go to stage 3 but that's not much better.  I find myself often saying "I wish I would have never had this surgery" maybe I won't always feel that way but for now I do.  The weight loss is good but I put myself at great risk and suffered things that I was never told could happen.  I thought I researched this to the T but I guess I didn't?  I know that because I'm still recovering it's probably normal that I feel this way and I'm sure as time goes by I will feel better about my decision. I just wanted to let you all know that I'm still around just trying to feel better.  Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers during my journey I truly appreciate you all.... Bev

Hey Bev; I think most all of us go through the "What the heck was I thinking" time. It does pass and you will get used to what you can and can't eat.  Give it some time. Hang in there, you are doing great.

Bev; Trust me, we've all been there.  I also had second thoughts about the surgery, watching people eat things that I could or should no longer eat.  Then, one day, someone on this list had a quote in their message that I lean on when things get rough. NOTHING TASTES AS GOOD AS BEING THIN FEELS. Remember that, there are somo food items you have to give up or at least restrict the amount you eat.  But when you have to get new clothes because nothing fits anymore, it'll all be worth the trouble!  Hang in there!  You're doing fantastic! Patty

I'm sorry your still fighting the depression thing with the surgery, you might want to see about getting something to take for a while that can give you some relief with that for the post op depression and you can get that with any surgery.  I just want to remind you that everyone has buyers remorse no matter what surgery you have it comes with it.  I hope it passes very quickly for you and try and stay busy if not in body in mind.  I think I crocheted 5 baby blankets my first yr out from surgery.  I really need to take the time now to try and finish one I have been working on and make my new grandbaby boy that is coming in June a blanket.  I may have to call in sick for a week to get caught up.  Well keep us posted and I hope to hear your feeling better soon. Marylin 314/180/150

I am so glad you are feeling a little better, i think the depression will pass as you start to feel better..  I guess I am lucky that not being able to eat the foods doesnt really bother me, at least not yet, in my head I know that I will be able to eat part of a cheeseburger again someday, but i need to try and make the most of this time period to lose the most with the surgery..  food will come back later just in smaller quantities... I am so glad you are over the fever and on the mend, just try not to focus on what you can't have now..   Look at how much better you will feel and how much more active you will be.. it WILL be worth it.. blessings cindy

Bev, I'm going through the same thing.  I keep telling myself that this is only temporary.  I will be able to eat again. Angela