43 Days and counting

I guess if you have never been over weight you can not imagine the stigma that go with it.  I have over my life grown a very thick skin and am the first one to say I am fat or overweight because at this weight there is no hidding it.  I never say do I look fat in this?  Does my butt look big in this?  Cause I already know there is no clothing item that can make me look any different they I look and no matter what I wear my butt looks big.   Last night I was leaving WallMart with my 8 year old son.  I walked past the benches out front and gentlemen and I use the term losely, looked me up and down and said "Damn thats a big one".  Do they think because we are large we don't have ears to hear with?  Or feeling that can be hurt?  Are we less then human? I know the answers to all these questions, I just can't believe the nerve of some people.  Well I have 43 days and counting and each time I look in the mirror I say next year I won't look this way.  Next year I won't hurt this way.  Next year I won't feel this way.  Next year I won't be looked at with disgust and have to pretend I didn't hear what was said.   I will never not be someone's friend because of their size.  I will never make fun of someone because they are over weight.  I will never be one of those people.  I will not support the social stigmatism that goes along with people being over weight.   Just needed to vent.

Well said Bel.  You are a beautiful person inside and outside and if someone doesn't recognize that it is their problem, not yours. Hugs - can't wait for you to start the journey to health. Lana

I know exactly what you are talking about.  Just another acceptable prejudice..  It is so wrong, that people are like that.  Juding by someone's size or skin color is not acceptable under any cir****tances.   I am like you too, I keep say to my husband next year at this time.........Add your own goal. I just imagine what it is going to be like and can't wait.  It's taking so long to get here..   I have never really been thin.  I was 165 when I was in high school (after fat camp) & was still told by a teacher 1 time I couldn't be in the Choral Ensemble because I was too big. (?)  WTF?  I look at pictures of me now, and would love to be that weight again!  Maybe I just didn't have a good enough voice & she didn't want to tell me that LOL I loved your post.  Just 43 days!! Kerri

Hi Kerri,  I read your post and just wanted to say tell you that you are going to be surprise at where you will get with this journey. I posted today on the main boards some pics of me in a size small coat. I started out wearing a size 4-5x (418lbs) and most of those were mens clothing. Just know that you WILL be amazed at how far WLS can/will take you. Good luck and take care!

You know Belanna, I just think people DON'T think! They say these things and don't care to think how their words might affect someone else.  I have gotten quite the culture shock since having surgery. I guess either my head was burried way down deep in the sand or I was in denial. I didn't realize the way people truly view SMO/MO people. It really breaks my heart to hear some of the things people think or have said. Congrats to you and good luck on your up and coming surgery. Sending lots of positive vibes your way. Also my hope is that you have an uneventful surgery day and a very speedy recovery. ETA: You are very beautiful...I love your hair color and your smile could brighten a room!