I got my date...

I haven't posted in awhile, maybe i thought this wasn't going to happen. I still feel like I might jinx it, my last surgeons appt is Oct 11 and Surgery is Oct 23 unless they postpone for some reason.  I have a nasty sinus infection and now is not a good time for that..    I am scared now, not terribly, but enough to keep me edgy.  Anxious,  I don't want something to happen and me leave my daughter to grow up alone.  I am stingy I guess.  Does everyone go through this as badly, yes, there is a part of me that is truly happy, but i put my affairs in order at the bank last week and feel like i need to write goodbye letters just in case.  I never want to  leave anything unsaid I guess.  I have never seen anyone write something like that on here...  just curious I guess.  I know it is all in God's Hands. CIndy

It will be here before you know it Cindy!!  No, you're not the first person to ever write that here, many have, actually.  It's normal.   You're right, it is all in God's hands; but have faith that God will see you through this and you will wake up on the losing side of this surgery and will live to see your daughter grow up!!!  This surgery is an amazing journey.   Stay with the support - it will help you stay on track. I"ll be praying for you. Traci Traci

Cindy things will be ok, if it makes you feel better and better prepared  go ahead and write the letters to your daughter and to other loved ones, get things in order in case. A lot of people have done this especially the ones that are single mothers and such.  I felt like to me it was a win-win situation, If i died on the operating table I knew where i was going and i would have a new body and if i made it thru the surgery i would soon have a new body so felt like i didnt have anything to lose. But i am older than you and have no little ones that i am raising so i can understand how you feel. Just know that God does have you in the palm of his hand and cares for you so much.  You are not alone ever. It isnt abnormal to feel like you do either.

We are waiting for you at the losers bench. 

Hay Cindy, Now thats what I am talking about . Glad to see this post. Like I told you, you have a Great Surgeon ! Talk to you soon. God Bless,

I have had a lot of surgeries before too, and was always scared, but not enough to prepare things or want to write letters.  I want to Thank ALL of you for being here for me..  I surely need it right now. Cindy

Hi Cindy,     Thought I'd put in my two cents. I haven't had the surgery yet,but I've had 6 other surgeries (tonsils,appendix,c-section,tubal ligation,tumor removal(neck) and wrist surgery).I was scared at every one of them until in the room the anesthesiologist gave me the "****tail" and I could've cared less where they were taking me. It's totally natural to be scared.I did a little preparing "just in case too". It's a smart thing to do and shows how much you care for the little ones.God will take care of you and things will be OK.                                                                Connie