WHATS HAPPENING THURSDAY

We really had some beautiful posts yesterday didn’t we. From the heart post.

Thank you all for feeling safe and loved enough to do that.

 

I worked last night and I had a really good day , ( or night ) I am really loving it actually.I have rediscovered a love for this that I thought was totally gone. Nursing that is. Our D.O.N. has it sit up to where you really do have time to do the things that you need and want to do for patients. It is really neat. Makes you rememeber why you became a nurse in the first place.

 

On the way home it was so foggy but the moon was bright and full , was really weird looking , looked like Halloween pictures. Didn’t see any witches flying around but did see several deer…Also saw a couple of coyotes  that may have been why I saw the one bunch of deer. Altho we see deer out here all the time, lots of them, day and night,. We had one come up on the back porch here while back. Don’t know what she was looking for but my outside dog must have been asleep lol

 

Wow there are lot of people getting their surgery dates , that is just so cool.  In Oct so far we have Geno on the 12^th, Amber on the 19^th, Julie Carver is having a hip replacement on the 22^nd and my Angelette , Sheila, is on the 26^th.  So everyone can mark these on their calendar. We have a full month and lots of bench polishing to do.

 

Well im not too wordy tonight it seems even tho im not sleepy. But I guess I will get to bed soon as I do the recap as I am taking the great grandbabies into walmart and buying them Halloween costumes tomorrow. Lol. They have them for babies one is a bee. Looks cute we will see. Also im buying me something to wear, I have to work on Halloween and they have these real cute flannel pants that have different Halloween designs on them and cute t. shirts that is what I will wear that night to work lol. An will have a new pair of p.js too.

 

NUTTI: So sorry about your friends daughter, I know that isnt easy to see. So did you find time and place to go get weighted? How much have you lost?

 

I sure wish you could have come to COF meeting and brought a sample of your tiny things you make. I know they are just beautiful. I saw some of the pictures. Amazing.

 

So you think you want another little girl just like the granddaughter you have. It wont happen that they will be alike never does. What ever the one is the other one wont be lol

 

That is really a wonderful way of putting it , about being cocooned in your fat and as you lose you are emerging. I really can see that and that is about the way it happened.

 

TAMMY: I know what you mean about your days off going fast and enjoying working once again. makes you feel like the world is alright again doesn’t it?

 

LOL they probably don’t function right you know, they have learned to depend on you .

Will pray for your little princess she sounds like my tiny great grand daughter. She has been runnig fever off and on too. We are thinking hers is teething but don’t know.

 

Tammy that is fantastic 130 pounds in four months is really a miracle isnt it? Wow!!!

If that didn’t make you change and feel better about yourself something is wrong with you. Lol. That is just so great/

Have you heard anything from Brenda since her surgery?

I was just thinking about her today.

Hope you two get to come back up in Oct. that will be awesome.

 

Yes our board is really growing and it is amazing there is always room for one more…I think it is really really great.

 

 

DEBBIE   D: lol I know the boys aren’t too pleased with having to learn all of these things but I know their future wife will bless you. Lol  that is really great that you don’t let them slide because they are boys. I only had one boy and 2 girls and I taught them all the same things. Now my son lives by himself and he said he sure was glad that I taught him all that stuff about how to do things.

 

Im glad that you are getting to go to water aerobics. I sure wish I could do that . Just not anything around here.

 

 

 

REBECCA: It didn’t rain in Cedarcreek either on Tuesday night. We got wind and lighting and thunder but no rain.

 

I think almost all doctors follow up is sort of fast and all. just weight you and ask is everything all right ? and bye bye. Lol

I told them that I think I will call in my weight the next time lol

 

You might want to try to increase your protein to help your body to lose weight more and try like craszy to get in at least 64 oz of water a day. Ok

I really love my protein shakes. I wish I could make you one of mine everyone that taste them love them. Is more a smoothie than a shake lol

Most days I drink 2 and sometimes 3 a day. That is like 90 grams of protein a day. With 3 of them.

You will get there soon on your goal of not being afraid of what others say. The new self confidence in your ability to lose and to do things shoulds start appearing soon.

Hang on the fun is just starting.

 

Oh and I love sharing with all of you , thank you for posting on here for me .

 

 

JANET: You know I think an awfully lot of us more or less have the same backgrounds. I know we all feel like we had this horrible things in our past , done to us and about us an all but most of us can relate.and yeah I think a lot of us, wont say all but I think a lot of us got fat as a sort of protection. Sort of like an insulation to protect us from outside stuff. Maybe to make ourselves unattractive to the other sex so there would be any sexual abuse, which we know doesn’t keep it from happening but we think so in the back of our minds .

I know what you are saying about praying for God to take you. I did that too,. I was so tired of sitting and not being able to do things. I could remember what it was like to be able to do things and to be slim and happy and to have it all taken away was a hard pill to swallow.

I don’t know but can imagine how awful it must have felt to you at the size you were. And I know you don’t see it yet but you will soon Im sure , that you aren’t anywhere near that girl anymore. You are so darn cute and getting cuteer everytime I see you.

You need to put up a new picture so everyone can see what you look like now. I cant imagine going from where you were to where you are now , it is amazing.

Iam really anxious to read your book when you get it done. Is is about your whole life of just about the weight loss surgery?

 

Hey you should feel pretty cause you sure are. Very very pretty.

 

No Joes health problems will never be solved more than likely, we just have to deal with them as they come up. He has too many things that lead to other things that will continue to be. Like the hip that was crushed in the wreck, one day he will have to have that replace again. and the teeth, the back and the other bones that were broken they all hurt him a lot. Sometimes more than others. We are just trying to learn to live with it all .

 

I am going to try and come to your next sale on the 5^th. No telling what I will find and will pick up the A.C. from Melissa then too.

 

I sure hope you can get something done for your back anything to help it some till your medicare kicks in.

 

 

MELISSA: Oh my goodness sweetie, I cant believe all of that stuff. Be sure and get a really good lawyer not some joker .  After they read all th material you have they should take the case on contingency.

Oh my Lord , surely they didn’t do all of that without telling someone. That is horrible.

 

I will be praying that you can get justice on this matter and that they get what they deserve. FAT and WhINEY huh? I hope he remembers that later on. Lol

Love you keep your chin up

 

 

BEV: I will certainly be praying for your niece. Is such a shame that sometimes young people have things wrong with them that we cant explain.

Be sure and keep us posted about your niece, Delana.

 

 

BOBBY JO: lol you sound like me after I had surgery, I was fine as rain. Didn’t have any pain pills after they took the pain pump off of me the next morning I never had anything else for pain. I slept in my bed the night I got home from the hospital and the next night I slept on my stomach all night long.

 

As you lose weight I hope you regain all the love and trust you have had taken away from you. Is your daughter more trusting now since you have gotten away from all of that?

 

I hope that one day we can meet and know each other in even a better way than we do now. Itsnt amazing how much all of us have in common , ever tho we are also so different?

You made me laugh about the little boy at the doctors office. Lol Sometimes that is the way I feel about some of the people that work in places lol. I just want to go take them by the hand and show them how to work. Lol

Yes most of the wanting food in the early part is head hunger not real hunger. If someone told you you could have something or the other believe me you wouldn’t be able to eat it. I know. I tried and made myself so sick lol I found out real quick that it wasn’t real hunger.

So don’t do like I did. It isnt worth it.

 

Wow almost 30 pounds since starting the liquid diet that is really neat …keep up the good work.

 

SHANNON :  I know what you mean about learning to accept compliments. I was so use to not hearing them to hearing them all the ttime now. It is sort of overwhelming isnt it.

I know exactly what you mean.

Have fun this coming week end in KC.

 

 

JULIA: oh wow you are feeling well enough to go back to work at the hospital? That is amazing. . We will then have an insider there for anyone that has surgery there. That will be great.

Maybe when you get started to work again you can come sometime to one of our support meetings down here. That would be amazing.

 

Well everyone I am going to get this posted since it is now after 1am and I need to get into bed. Will see you all tomorrow. Love you all and good night

 

 

HUGS AND BLESSINGS

JAN

 

 

 

 

Hi Jan and all, Boy while reading all the post today I could totally relate. It is amazing that we all have the same feelings, but before I found this board I thought noone else could possibly feel like I do. It is almost reasuring to know that these feelings are normal. I just can't wait to have this surgery so I can feel good about myself again.  Well now my pcp has moved my appt for Oct 3 to Oct 10. Oh well all in good time. I do have my pulmonary function test on Oct 10 when I go see my pcp and his nurse said they will schedule my stress test and sleep study and let me know when it is when I go on the 10th..so getting things done.  I told them I would like to have it done by the 23rd when I go back to Columbia. I  have decided to have them done at Fitzgibbon where I used to work, my friend is in scheduling and she will get me in soon. My friends at work are all excited that I am going to have this surgery and they will do anything to help me. I have one friend there that had the surgery about 3 yrs ago and she has lost 135 lbs and she weighs 135 lbs now. The doc also called in my script for Chantix. I can't start that til Oct 2. Have to wait on my check since insurance doesn't pay for it.   My grandson will be here today and we just got a dense fog warning. Hope it doesn't delay his plane. My sil will have to go to KC to pick him up so hope he doesn't have any trouble getting up there. Its about 2 hrs from Sedalia to the airport. Well guess I will get off here and try and get some sleep, I am having an awful time sleeping lately. My prayers are going out to everyone that needs them.  God Bless and have a good day..

Good Morning all....hehehe yeah Jan he was a little boy.. sounded all of twelve and acted like it too...yesterday was a freakin roller coaster of emotions for me I was crying and wondering why the $^%&$^ I had this surgery ( which I didnt really understand why I felt this way since there is no pain and such for me ) then I would be fine and then 5 minutes later someone turned on the water works again and I couldnt stop crying poor Jen Livs2laff was on the phone with me and I just boooo hooooed to her......yesterday was the hardest of all the days I have had so far since the whole beginning of this even worse then the waiting....tomorrow 8 am they remove my drain..which is uncomfortable as heck when you try to move certain ways lol and its hard not to move those ways lol....our church has brought dinner every night since I returned home from the hospital...tomorrow we go on the great sugar free search apparently people in his area are all to good to drink sugar free anything unless it is soda so we are going to go to sams and walmart and then the resturant supply for davinci syrups tomrrow while in columbia .... even though i live so close to Columbia Its so easy to drive 2 minutes to the store here lol but can not always do that now ... anyway you all ahve a great day  Bobbie Jo

Good morning everyone, sorry I have not been on much, I have not been feeling good, I went to the doctor yesterday for blood work, and got my B shot that helped because I was late getting it. I have been sorta depressed and edgy, maybe because it is fall of the year and winter is creeping up on us..  I want to say good luck to all having surgery this mo.      I always like reading all the posts, you know we are all really close Sisters and Bros.because we have so many of the same problems, but praise be to God we have a life now and dont have to stay home bound, I was getting where I didnt want to go anywhere, it was a chore just to get up ready for church, now I am also wanting to get a job 2 or 3 days aweek. I have a dear frind that has her appointment with Dr.H the 28th of nov.  He sure is a busy doc. and a great one.. everyone have a nice day...love ya all...vesta

Good morning Missouri, Sorry I have been MIA, but work is killing me....between working all the extra hours and running Dalton to all his activities I bearly have time to sit for more then 5 minutes.  I did not go and take the second job because I don't really think I could handle it right now....My job now is keeping me pretty loaded with hours.... I go to the doctor on Monday and hopefully he can give me some good answers....I am in so much pain that I can hardly stand it....I am going to make him draw every blood test imaginable... Melissa, sorry that you are going through so much HE!!....If there is anything I can help you with please feel free to call me....I will try my darnedest to help... To everyone else I sure hope that all of you are doing well...I miss ya guys something terrible....

God bless to each and everyone of you and your families... Rachael

Good morning OH peeps!   My niece was moved out of ICU late last night she is glad to be able to have a phone in her new room but worried that she won't get the care and attention that she got in ICU.  I think she is worried that if she got another blood clot that they wouldn't find it in time since they don't check on her as often.  I took the night off last night and didn't go to the hospital I was so exhausted I didn't have the energy or the strength to go up there I am hoping that I get back from Manhattan in time this evening to go up and visit her? If all goes well today I am planning on going to water aerobics in the morning with Debbie.  It seems like it's been a while since I have gotten to go and I miss it.  Didn't ever think I would miss exercising but I do and I think I feel better after I have gone to class.   I can't believe it I only have 19 more days before I get to go to my first appt. with Dr. H I'm so excited and anxious I just hope all goes well and I get my surgery date before the end of the year.  I would like to start the new year out on my new journey!   I have to call Dena and see if my Dr. sent in the letter of medical clearence and that my records get sent to Dr. H before my appt. date.  I want Dr. H to have everything he needs when I go there, I don't want him to have to wait for anything.   Well, I hope everyone is having a wonderful day it's really nice outside here!  Take care and God bless. Bev~

I'm so excited, I just got word from Dena at Dr. H's office and she did receive a letter of medical clearence and some records from my PCP so I guess I'm good to go for my appt. on the 17th?  I can't wait to get my surgery date I just hope it happens before the end of the year! Bev~

Going to have to change my ticker again.  I am now down 86 pounds...

Walked outside and my jeans fell down - talk about a wow moment..   No one saw me that I know of. So many things have changed since my surgery.   Now if I can get all my co-pays paid off. Shannon 

 

Hello Missouri... After yesterdays emotion filled posts, and a video I watched today on youtube I am having an emotional day.  It is amazing how many people in this world have been put through the pain and sorrow many of us have gone through. I posted a video about this subject on youtube if anyone wants to check it out. You can access it through my profile. Anyway from this, I had an epiphany today though. Maybe it this is obvious to others, but I realised that I am have not changed how I deal with things all that much from when I was a teenager.  I just changed vices. The video I saw today took me back to when I was 13. It could have been me if there was youtube when I that age. I was suicidal, full of emotional scars, self hating, felt like I was unimportant and unloved, i cut myself and didn't know why, and I just wanted the pain to go away. And the only thing that save me from myself was God.  He showed me that I was loved by Him no matter how foster homes I lived in. He showed me No matter who hurt me, sexually or physically, He would never hurt me.  He could turn this broken, abused shell of a person into someone whole, clean, and beautiful. And I stopped listening to the lies for a while. But as I look back, I see that I transfered all that negitive to my love affair with food. I didn't completely trust God to take care of me. To do what He said he would. I have been that way until recently.  Not that changes my relationship with Him, He still loved me and I Him, and has cleansed me, and made me new. I just never believed it completely. But now, after my surgery, I can't deal with things the same way. I can't go eat a whole box of cookies to feel better and stuff the emotions. Today, I had to turn to God to comfort me. And He did. Making the video helped me get it off my chest, to feel again and not stuff it, but God carried it for me today. So that I didn't feel like I was drowning and that things were hopeless.  And God will use this. Just as He uses me.  Maybe He will use me to help that girl in the video. I think I am sopposed to email her. But I have to wait for His words to come, not just me talking from the emotions I feel right now.  I am sorry for the rambling, I guess it was my turn to just vent.  God bless you all!! I will post again soon. Hugs and Prayers, Rebecca

Good Morning Jan and OH Peeps~   My puter is acting up AGAIN, so Mel is posting this for me. I am dropping BOTH computers off today and my ex-BIL said he should have the desk top back to me by this weekend. YAY. Thank goodness. I have online ads out and such and would like to be able to keep an eye on those things. Thats for sure. By the way-THANK YOU MEL for posting all that and doing my puter stuff for me, when I cant. I love you so much!!!   So-this hunting thing Mike does-its a lot of work for ME...Not sure if I am liking that all that much-LOL....Now he has ME making the jerky too! You have to cure it, season it, put it in the tube, get it ready and it takes 2 1/2 hrs to make ONE batch....then the process starts over... It has to cure and season for 24 hrs. We cure and season enough for like 5-7 batches at a time-but holy crap, its so time consuming and a lot of clean up work-and then, its ALL GONE in 5 minutes!!!! The meat places get over $10 a # for it, so I guess we are saving money, but if I got paid for making it, it sure would be cheaper for him to buy it-LOL.... He has me helping him process the meat, wrap it and so on as well....its not too bad once he is done butchering it, but I WILL NO****ch that process, dont want to-couldnt. I would vomit. Im okay once all the meat is in the big container and such-but not before.   So-Im doing the jerky and am going to get some laundry done today. Mike is taking the boys fishing tomorrow after work. Our boys and SIL, Aaron. None of them know it yet. They are gonna be so excited. I guess it will depend on the weather too. I will have the house to MYSELF, until Steph gets off work, that is-and I will have to go to town and pick up Megan from her job as well....but I am going to start Mikes blanket tomorrow while they are gone and I am really excited about that!! I am also making Steph some cool stuff and something for Mel, but I cant post that, cause of course, she will read it and know-LOL...Its all really neat stuff though and I got to show Mel Mike and Stephs things.   The back is still hurting so bad I cant hardly stand to breath. I am soooo tired of this. I know I would have to literally die to feel better. It wouldnt be so bad IF I could get some relief-even if for a half hr or so between pain! I havent since I got a couple of hours after the emergency room shots. I cant keep going back there to get shots-cant afford that. Would love to have some of that stuff at home though! So, I got about 3-4 hrs of relief, and that was it. Too bad I slept through it. Please say you will all write to me if and when I end up in the looney bin because of this freaking pain!   Well, I saw that Mel posted yesterday-CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT SH*T? I got to see all the medical records, and I am telling you one thing-out of doing that type of work for over 13 years, I have NEVER seen a doctor write ON A CHART page-FAT & WHINEY...NEVER!!! YOU CANT DO THAT! There were so many contradictions and false info in there-and their stories didnt coorespond...right there in the same records, same doc, there is different stories. The one doc says he repaired the hernia AND how many sutures he used-BUT, he doesnt have it listed for insurance as a procedure OR description-that IS ALWAYS sent to the insurance companies-ALWAYS, EVEN if they dont get paid for it. There were so many things. She STILL has a cyst on her left ovary and they say, during testing-that its there and that her uterus is gone!! GONE! Thats what made me sick. I got the dry heaves while she was texting me what the records said. I cant freaking believe it.YES, she has a GOOD ATTNY...The BEST in this area-and Freeman Hospital quivers when they hear his name-because HE ALWAYS WINS and he WINS A LOT! He doesnt kiss their butts and he doesnt care if they golf with him or not-LOL...You know how that goes-the politics of all the crap. All I know is that the GYN surgeon IS AWFUL-I NEVER Liked him and now I know why! I wouldnt let him lance a boil off my ass! They robbed her of several months of her life-pain and suffering, trauma and now she is on medication due to the mental aspect of all she has been through. I think I would have strangled them if they would have let this go-this is huge and those doctors SHOULD have to answer for their negligence AND they shouldnt write those awful things on someones chart.I just hope that this PREVENTS this awful crap from happening to someone else-as Im sure it has-but a lot of people dont think they can do anything about it-so they let it go. Im glad that there was a temp in the office yesterday-or Mel would have never gotten that page of the records-because the regular girl told her NO she couldnt pick them up yesterday and Mel went anyway-and the temp made copies of the whole chart-HEHE!!!  Im glad I went to so many visits and testings with her AND was there when the surgeon talked to us after BOTH surgeries (the GYN)....I can testify to the B.S. we were told and how Terry was dismissed when he tried to question this or that. Ok enough of that. I feel my blood boiling over it all over again!   Well, we killed the biggest trantula out here yet-JUST like the ones you see in the glass at the zoo or pet store. Mike said we should have taken it to the woods-BUT...didnt think about it really-was just thinking I didnt want to try and catch it-YUCK.....it dropped from the ceiling of the porch and landed on Darrel and it freaked him out!!! Its still on the porch, Im afraid to touch it-even though I know its dead-its so big and hairy-IM SCARED!!! I told Mike he better move it when he gets home from work OR NO MORE HUNTING!! I bet it gets moved!   **Jan-thanks for the compliments, for saying Im cute. I appreciate that. Its hard to hear when you dont believe it yourself-but I appreciate you for always being so kind to me. I can tell you one thing, I would rather die than to EVER be the old Janet again-back pain and all-I didnt have ANY life before-at least now I do and emotionally, I feel like a new person......   The book-well, its mostly about the journey, but it does start out when I was a child and started noticing that I wasnt like the other kids. I have been big since school started. It doesnt go into my WHOLE life story, but it does refer back to some things that may have caused me to have low self esteem, and yes, to gain weight to "protect" myself from other people hurting me, but you know what? I hurt MYSELF worse than anyone else could have hurt me. I was self destructive, and didnt deal with a lot of things. Its much better to deal with them-I know now, but when I was growing up-you didnt talk about sexual abuse, or physical or mental even-you just didnt. It was never heard of-OR advertised on TV or school.... Anyway, I want to have it finished by the spring. Pray it all goes well!   **Nutti-I know what I was gonna say yesterday-I will be praying for your friends daughter. I know we talked about it before. That poor thing, to be such a prisoner in life is not fun-we know that, dont we?  So-I will keep all of you in my prayers. If you need to talk-call me.  Would love to see your new tattoo and what its gonna look like!! Talk to you soon. Love ya, and keep up the good work.   **Bobbie Jo-Im so glad you feel safe enough here to get in here and post about your past. This is a safe place and people do care. Life is like a fairy tale now-I dont get abuse of any kind anymore-and havent since my first marriage broke up. Mike doesnt ever even say anything that could hurt my feelings. Its so wonderful. I always say he was my reward for having such a crappy life until I met and married him!!!  Also-on the emotions, they do run high and low for awhile. I did that too-I would be fine and then cry, be fine and cry. WOW-it was such a rollercoaster ride-and no one would have to do anything and I would just start crying. The doc said it was the hormonal inbalance due to the rapid weight loss since hormones store fat. It DOES get better. Promise!! Just take it easy and Im sure Jen understands, so dont get down-it will all work out-and we are ALL here for each other, so if you need us-post!   **Julia-I will be praying you get your job. Congrats. Im so happy for you-that you feel well enough to go back to work now-how awesome is that?  Please keep us posted. We have missed ya. Havent seen you much since the reunion. Hope everything else is going ok. We love ya.   **Bev-we had severe fog here this morning. I couldnt even see the pool area (6 ft from porch****il about an hour ago. It was BAD....I will be praying for your grandson and your daughter for travelers mercy. Have a good time with them!! I will also keep you in prayer for all your tests to get done. Maybe you can have his nurse write up the orders OR make the calls for the tests and you wouldnt have to wait to get in and see him? Thats what my PCP did-I just called them and told them the tests that I needed and she called me back with the test and times etc-the only one I scheduled myself was the sleep study and nutritionist-only because I had to reschedule-Susan did the rest for me-so maybe call and see if they can order them without you going in-that would speed it up a bit if they will do that. Talk to you soon!   **Tammy-thanks for the email. I will respond when I have my puter back-ok? Its too hard to try to do it with this one. Take care and I am praying for you. The job will get easier. Your doing great and I love you. Keep your chin up-and whatever you decide to do-Im here for you. Hope to see you next month!  Have you heard from Brenda?   **TO everyone else. I think about you and pray for you each day. I hope everything works out and if your having surgery, you are in my prayers-any and all problems anyone has as well. Take it easy and as always-your in my thoughts and prayers. Love, Janet