Need Some Input, PUHLEEZE!!!!

Okay....it's true confession time!!!!  I've not only not LOST any weight in longer than I care to think about, I've actually let myself gain back about 30 pounds.  I'm MORTIFIED that I've done that!!!  I'm ANGRY at myself for slipping back in to the old habits.  And I'm totally pissed that I can not seem to get back on track!!!!!  I KNOW that I have to get back to eating the way I'm supposed to.  And I KNOW that I have to get back to exercising.  But I can't seem to get back there.  Any help, suggestions, or butt-chewing would be greatly appreciated!!!  I guess the biggest thing I need is ideas on how to get back on track and stay there!!! Thanks bunches!!!

connie

Connie... You have taken the biggest step in indentifying the fact that you have slid back into old habits.  I would wager that the next step would be to write down those bad habits that are spelling disaster (not to mention adding pounds!) and then figure out how to work things out to remove them.   For me I make a habit of getting my protein in.  It is first.  Always and forever and it shall remain that way.  If I have any "room" left over then I will eat other things although I always try to make good choices as well.  My worry has and always will be carbs.  I am insulin resistant and I also battle hypoglycemia.  Bad carbs are a dreaded no no for me.  They might beckon and temp me but they spell disaster.  I end up all bloaty and blah feeling and then I usually spike and crash with my sugar. If you would like to share what your normal daily routine is like eating, when you eat, what you eat, etc. and what type of activity you do regularly I'm sure that those here on the Mo. board will be more than happy to help you out!   Best wishes and hang in there!  You have indeed taken the first step! Elizabeth a.k.a.  Pixielf~*

Connie,  I am just fianally rolling around to have my surgery....But I have had to work my butt off to get to this point....I even made changes I thougth I'd never see my self make!!!!!  I CAN NOT say what I will or will not do later on down the road. But the one thing I will be promising myself is to work hard to not gain any weight back and if I do I promise myself I will get back on tract and not let it take control of me again..... I do not know how much you weighed when you started but I started at 474!!! Girl...I was getting abour ready for a wheel chair and a personal care taker!!! I never want to be in that shape again.  I know no matter what weight you started at you had to have struggled in the beginning of the all this... There are so many changes to adjust too....Surely you don't want to let it go and have to start over again way down the road again!!!!! I would be jumping for joy if all I had to loose was 30 lbs or so!!!!!! Do you know what you have started doing to let the 30lbs slip back on?? You munching too much? Using sugar again? Eating too much or too much of things you should not eat alot of???  Maybe you should start a good diary and see how it turns out.... you may see right off the bat where your problem is... If you can't get motivated to exercise, then maybe you could ask a friend or a close family memeber to do it with you.????  I am sure there will be others post....They will probably be ones that have had surgery already and maybe they will have better advice and be more motivating!!!  I wish you all the best at getting the weight back under control....Will keep you in my prayers.....Hugs...Tammy H.

Connie, You've done wonderfully.  Now, bend over so I can kick your BUTT!!!  Not really.  All of us here are food addicts and we do understand how very hard it is to get the weight off and to keep it off!!! You know in your heart what you're doing wrong but writing it down, what you're eating and when, might help you get started back down the road to success.  Every day can be a new beginning for all of us, so climb back on the wagon and go.  Rid your house of things you shouldn't be eating - just throw them away or give them away or whatever, and don't buy stuff you shouldn't have.  That's been the biggest change and help for me. I'll pray for your success and I'll believe in your ability to make these changes. Hugs and love, Lana

Hi Connie, First, let me say I give you a lot of credit for posting and being honest and identifying you need help before it got any further. I have a few suggestions and then maybe a little advice. First-do you have someone-a spouse, friend, relative, children-just someone who will hold you accountable for what you eat? I am asking because when I had to do star****ching what I ate etc pre-op, Blondie and I would email each other a list of what we put in our mouths the day before-even if we messed up-we were honest and then just supported each other, gave encouragement and once in awhile a good ass chewing about how bad we wanted the surgery AND if the food tasted good enough to chance not getting our date....things like that. Do you have someone who is willing to go for walks with you or join a excercise class or just come to your house and work out with you? Do you attend any sort of support group? OK-if not-there is the best ever in Springfield-just down the road from Bass Pro and we would LOVE to have you-and I KNOW you would FIND the support, encouragement and accountability there. I live in Diamond, so its about 1 1/2 hour drive for me too-but I am telling you-its worth it-and a lot of our group emails one another  and would definitely help you and NOT judge you-thats the best part about it-please consider coming to our June meeting-I believe its the 25th?  I will have to look that up-its the Circle of Friends group that you see posted~ Now-the advice....Start a diary-get some good, healthy snacks in your house. DO not graze....Maybe start doing a protein shake 2 times a day and eating a sensible meal too-excercise, EVEN if its just 15 minutes a day to walk or something-its a start and when the weight starts coming back off-you will see it works. Dont be pissed at yourself, turn it around-pat yourself on the back for the weight you have lost-for the wisdom to come and post and be brutally honest about your weight gain and for your courage to ask for help-I think that shows that you really do want to get back on track and stop this before it destroys everything you have worked for! ~~~Butt chewing~~~LOL Last-Connie-remember how you felt before surgery? How miserable you were? How hard you worked with your tool to get the weight off? How happy you were when you had WOW moments? How much your life changed? YOU HAVE TO get back on track OR everything you have busted your butt for-well, its going to get flushed down the toilet. You can do 30# and once you get back on track-you can even lose more IF you  need to-but you MUST be dedicated-to yourself and everything you have been through, to take those steps and get back on track. WE can help you with support, with suggestions, with our love and understanding, and even with accountability-but Connie has to take that first step and say-NO MORE...I worked my butt off, I put my life on the line for this-and this is what I wanted-I knew it was going to be a lifelong commitment-and I am willing to get back on track and work towards my goal.....I KNOW that excercising, taking vitamins, doing protein and always watching what you eat, how much-how many carbs etc-I KNOW its not fun-but I know you dont want to blow it all, because you worked way too hard!~I will do anything I can to help you~and I would love to see you start attending our support group, if you dont have one yet-or even if you do-come and meet us....maybe someone else that lives close to you wouldnt mind sharing a ride or splitting the price of gas?  Good luck honey and just remember all you have been through-stop beating yourself up and use that energy to get back on track-you CAN DO IT!!!  Keep us posted please. All my love and prayers, Janet