*I feel like crap*

For those of you who know me-I have had some issues with my parents. My mom hasnt been feeling good for quite some time-and I am always telling her its from her nerves or that she is too stressed out. ALWAYS....well, she had her cat scan this morning-and they found a tumor in her stomach and her blood cell count isnt good. I did not act like it was something bad-told her to stay positive-but at the same time-I was losing it! I worked at the Cancer Institute at Freeman Hospital for 3 years and I know that this is probably a bad sign of things to come. I am feeling like crap because I discounted the things she complained about-and havent spent much time with her because of her always being sick or complaining about one thing or another-and NOW I feel like I am the WORST daughter in the world. I am feeling so beyond low-its not even funny. I love my mom and cant imagine my life without her in it-and dont understand-anyhow-IF you are reading this, PLEASE SAY A PRAYER FOR DONNA...I appreciate it more than I could ever say! Thanks, Janet

Janet Your mom will be inmy prayers. Dont tear yourself down to much. First off it isnt like she hasnt complained of things before and they've been in her head. And you have had alot of things on your plate coming at you all at once. Donna know that you love her very much. Please let her know I am thinking of her and if there is anything I can do. To give me a call I am there in a heart beat!!!! Love ya sis Mel

Hi Janet; Been there done that.....Just be there for her now and know that the good Lord knows what has always been in your heart. He knows you have always loved her. Tell your mom what you have told us...that you love her and can't imagine life without her....NOW! Never have regrets. You and your mom are in my prayers!!! Love heals all!!! Hugs; Barbara in Freeman

You and your Mom are in my prayers. You know that she will need lots of support now, so look ahead and be there for her. You can't change the past, so make it a priority to be by her side now. She will love you for that, and make you and her closer. I sat with my dying father and we shared some pretty wonderful moments and stories with eachother. It brought us that much closer, and my memories of him are eeeven more special because of that time we shared. Make the best of the time you have left together. Again, I will say a special prayer for both of you. Here's a big hug for you, Tara.

Ohhhh Angel....you know you can't sit down and feel sorry for what you could've done. You have a chance to start anew. Your mom knows that you love her with all your heart. God has forgiven you and now it's time for you to forgive yourself. Everyone knows that you have had a lot going on and when you are stressed you can't be there for anyone else like you want. God is allowing you two to be there for one another and to make the most out of that time. Stay encouraged and I will continue to pray...

Oh Janet I am so very sorry that you are having to deal with this with everything else going on. I want to let you know that I am sending you an email in the morning. I am so tired I cant see to type. I just seen this when I was closing down computer and had to let you know that you and your mom will be in my bedtime Prayers. Hang in there and know your family here is lifting you up in prayers! Love, Susn

Hey Sis...I am so sorry to hear about your mom....I will be praying for you both....And as everyone said....Stop beating yourself up....Things like that does happen....I know what it is to have a hyper-c in your family.....Sometimes you can't keep from feeling that way when you hear things over and over and over......Did you make it over to her house to give her that big hug??????? This same thing happened to me and my sister with my mom....She did have some heart attacks but several times we rushed her 80miles to cape in her van because she would not go in an ambulance..I drove 90 miles an hour every place it was possible to get there and it would be nothing or she was feeling ok 2 hours latter.....Well it happened one night...I kept my mouth shut but I was so pee-ohed I could not see straight cause I had to get out in the middle of the night and drive like that....So we get there and I got her admitted and I told them if they needed me I'd be outside smoking!!!!! Cause we couldn't smoke in the van cause we had her oxygen on.....Well me and my sis stood out there and smoked a couple then decided we might ought to go in and see how things were going.....The dang room was so full we couldn't get in....She was having a major heart attack!!!!!!! Me and my sister both almost past out!!!! The whole time we were out there smoking all we did was complain about being tired of all these late night runs and yada yada yada .....And here she is in there fighting for her life!!!!!! Of course we never told her about it..but now we never gripe at all no matter what time she calls us and needs to go to the hospital!!!! Now the important thing is to forgive yourself and go on...She will need you know if she is going to go thru something terrible....May God Bless you all and I will be praying he lays his hand on your mother and heals her from what ever it may be that they find out for sure!!!!! Love ya ....Tammy ~ ammy

Janet, Be positive. My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer last year, and they decided to do a scan of her stomach since she had been having some somach problems. We found out that she had renal cancer. My Aunt Joyce died 20 years ago from renal cancer. So you can imagine how we feel. It has been one year and she is doing great. I would have never thought she would have made it since she had the cancer in her kidney, so keep looking on the bright side. If God can do it for my mom, He can do it for your mother too. You are in my prayers. Elisa PS I know what you are saying about feeling like being a bad daughter. I felt like the scum of the earth. I told my mom how much she meant to me and that I felt like I had not been a good daughter to her, and she smiled and reassured me that I was still the apple of her eye. I pray that God not only gives your mother a complete healing, but that he also touches you with His strength and peace, helping you all through this ordeal.

Janet, I think most of us have been where you are right now. Keep a positive outlook and know I'll be praying for you and your mom. You are such a wonderful person that I can't imaging her ever being upset with you, or at least for long. Hugs and love, Lana