Iam Worried!!!

Hello everyone...Ive been pretty depressed latey like it hit me all at once. Also Ive been having problems with dizziness and almost fainting spells. I went to my pcp this week and he gave me double Vit B12 , my b/p was very low. and my heart rate is low. For me that is not so good. He said I have some Malnutrion going on . I still cannot for the likes of me get it in my head to eat other things. Ive tried to eat other things and gradually im learning. Its just that I just as soon not eat. Iam never hungry. I guess my will power to have this done has really done its work double time. Please what ever you do follow the eating guidelines. If you feel like I do go meet with a counselor it does help...I need your prayers to help me through this. If you experience dizziness when you get up from sitting or walking , and this persists , please go see your doctor. Do not put this off. When I thought about having WLS I was so going to do this right. but I did not know that I would have a problem eating in general...I know I can eat , but its the thought of eating the wrong things even though I pick up Items at the store and look at its nutritional values. YES, Iam still eating my chicken soup and fat free pudding. But at least iam eating some. I know i can beat this. Ive come this far. I have lost so much weight in a short period of time. I did not eat this way to lose faster.Its just im scared to eat what everyone is eating now. I cannot get that out of my mind for the life of me. I watched a special on HBO about these four girls who were in a home for eating disorders and I sat there and almost cried because those girls were in there for the same reasons I am having. Everything they talked about hit home to me. I know i dont want to be like them. Just please say a prayer for me that God gives me the strength to go on and eat better. The foods Iam eating are the right foods, but Iam not eating enough of it. Thank you everyone . and God Bless........Craig Lee

Craig i will continue to pray for you . You have a lot of the battle won already by knowing that you need help. Also the dizzyness and weakness can be dehydration. It will make your b/p low and heart rate low too. How much are you getting in fluids a day? do you keep track of it? You need to make you a blackboard and daily write on there everything you eat and drink and if it isnt enough by 12 push push push yourself to do more. You can also use fitday.com to keep track and see where you are falling short. Love you and quit being sick. You had this surgery to be able to live so you need to get with it buddy. Like i said i will continue to keep you in my prayers. Love you Jan

Hey Craig, I was up your way for Easter and wished I'd had more time so I could have tracked you down. My sister said she saw you at Ponderosa and wouldn't have know it was you except for your trach. She couldn't believe how much you've lost. : ) As for the eating, have you tried the Southbeach bars? I love the high protein cereal bars, they are near the granola bars in the stores and my fav is the peanut butter kind and JIm loves the choc. There are a couple of other flavors too. I ask because this is something pretty good for you when you aren't up for having a meal. You can eat it slowly at your point in the journey and they are so yummy. It's 10 grams of protein I believe. There's also high protein soy crisps(looks like tiny rice cakes and come in many flavors). I buy a hunk of seasoned turkey breast meat and eat it with a bit of regular mild cheddar cheese and a few low carb crackers. That's my FAVORITE treat right now after I exercise. That turkey is the BEST quick source of protein I've found. and I just keep it inthe fridge and slice off a few peices.......mmmmmmmm!!! Sometimes the dizziness is also from not having a bal of protein and carbs. I get that way if I didn't get enough protein.....like when I had chips and salsa at a Mexican resturant then had no room for my chicken. A hour later I had LOW blood sugar, shakes, sweats, faintness....not fun! Prayers going up for you Craig, you CAN DO THIS!!! Listen to that little voice that says EAT, as you must stay healthy. I know you FEAR becoming what you were before, fear that the food will take over and you'll be obese again. Well, right now you are letting food be in control again, jsut in the opposite way. We'll always be food addicts and it's not easy to find that balance, but it's not impossible. I BELIEVE YOU CAN DO IT!!! If you aren't getting in ENOUGH nourishment, your body will KEEP everythig you put in it and even if you only eat 500 calories a day, amazingly you CAN gain weight, but if you can increase to 1000, (maybe more), of the right foods, you'll lose and most of all BE HEALTHY! Don't be afraid Craig......YOU are stronger than this!!!! You have so much faith in God, I know you'll succeed!!! Just trust Him and turn your fears over to Him. BIG HUG!!!!! Tami

Hi Craig Lee, I'll certainly be praying for you. Have you checked out Fitday.com to track what you're eating? I bought and downloaded their program to my computer (about $20 I think it was), so if my internet happened to be down, I can still log/track my food. I know that when I don't track my food, it's easy for me to either eat too much or not enough. Just seeing the numbers (protein, fat, carbs, calories, etc...) helps me to stay within my goal ranges. Do you attend any support groups? I really think that can also help you get out and meet with real-live people who know and understand your same issues. Sometimes, we just need a HUG! Traci

WOW CRAIG!! So sorry thats goin on with you,but honestly we are in the same boat.I too am having problems wanting to try other foods,like my meat intake,too scared to try especially after a few incidents a few times. I may be loosing alot of weight and such,but what good will that do If Im always weak and dizzy all the time,dont get me wrong,I wouldn't change this loosing weight for the world,I think the girls are right,we got to try other foods and stop being scared of the what if'sAnyways I will pray for you and maybe you can do the same for me as well good buddy,us men have to stick together on this lol.So you get better and take care of yourself and Godbless little buddy

Craig, I do know what you're talking about. I eat enough but sometimes I kind of panic and think "oh my gosh, I've eaten too much today". Then I just take a deep breath and write down everything I've eaten and realize I'm just fine. I think those of us who have spent most of our adult lives dieting and worrying about our weight have a problem eating and not feeling guilty about it. I am really careful to get enough protein in and I work constantly to drink enough. The drinking is hardest for me. If I think I haven't had enough protein I drink a protein drink at night. Those bars Tami mentioned are really good. I get them at Wal-Mart. Be sure you get the ones that say 140 calories on the box. They are not exactly a meal replacement but will help you get more food in and they are good for us. I think being afraid of eating is something we'll probably always have to work on. We are food addicts and we are so scared we'll fall "off the wagon". But, we have an awesome God and I know you want to feel better and God wants you to be healthy so put your fears in His hands and just live your life healthier for Him. I know you can do it. Hugs and love, Lana

Dear Craig, I am so sorry you are dealing with this. You have come so far and have done so well-and I WILL hold you up in prayer. With ALL of the obstacles you have overcome in the last several years-I KNOW you can overcome this one as well. I am glad that you have realized this may become a real problem and want to deal with it-that shows what kind of character you have-and that you do have the will AND the means to succeed. I wish we could all get together so we could all give you a big hug. Please hang in there and dont let the devil have a field day with you-the good Lord knows whats in your heart. God Bless you-Lots of prayers and love coming your way~ Love, Janet

Craig, You are in my prayers and I hope that you will get your appetite back. God Bless