Tell me again, why did I want kids? ...lol

Good Morning all.... I pray that everyone is doing good and is ready for Christmas! I see a lot weight being lost on here and I'm very happy for all of you....keep it going! Hubby got vaca. days okay'd for the 12th (my assessment appt.) and for the 26th and 27th for my surgery. He is off the 28th and 29th. He says he could work those last 2 days for overtime but he is going to keep them just in case I need a help in the days following surgery...these days are all in January just in case no one saw my post about my surgery dates. I have a bunch of pictures on my profile if you would like to see pics of the family. Jan, I added more last night. I'm glad you like em, cause I can't give em back...lol ...the family, not the pics! Thank you Andrew, it seems like I have been waiting years...lol I guess in a way I have, I started doing research on wls about 5 years ago. I pray things get better too. Just a note to everyone...I have been on here, lurking but not feeling like writing until today. Know that if you asked for prayer, it was done, if you had questions they were ones I couldn't answer, if you needed someone to lean on, I'm sorry I couldn't be there, all things happening good and bad I saw...everyone has been in my thoughts! I just want everyone to know, I care but haven't been up to par lately! Please don't be offended, hurt or think I don't care because I do. I think about all of you, daily! I care and love all of you and wish I could be their to hold your hand or be shoulder for you to lean on but I have been doing a little leaning of my own. It's a good thing that God is strong! Our middle son came over yesterday to visit me, that was a first.....it's usually him, the hubby and I. We had a nice one on one. I think he is finally growing up and wanting to put all his "uglies" behind him. I'm glad, it was a long time coming! He has been left at the altar for many years now. For those of you that don't know, he is my hubby's son, from his second marriage. The boy's mother abandoned him at her sister's house when he was 6 months old after leaving David (my now hubby) when the boy was only 3 months old. David got this son back when the boy was a year old and then I met David and the boy when he was 16 months old. David and I have been together 24 years and have raised him as well as our other children as "ours"...there were no "halves" or "steps" in our family. Roy, our middle son and I had a very strong bond for many years....so much so that God gave us matching tatooes...lol Seriously tho, right after the hubby and I got together, Roy and I both starting growing a small brown spot, almost like a freckle on the inside of our right hand, on the palm, just below the thumb. When Roy got older and he got into he "uglies stage" the spots would fade, when things got better, they would darken. Roy always said, it was his way of knowing who his "real" mom was. As for our youngest son, the one down in Springfield. He called yesterday...it was funny. He called Roy, while Roy was here but he didn't know that Roy was here talking with me and Roy has his cell phone turned up so loud that I could hear the younger boy over the phone like he was in the room with us. Last we heard, his phone had been shut off due to a very high unpaid bill so we're praying that he has found work, not another school loan! Anyway, the last contact anyone had from him was an email he sent to me, more or less, writing me off.....not wanting anything more to do with me because of my (his) behavior! He is the one in (possibly) a bunch of trouble and is being left at the altar right now! He went to Springfield, following a call to be in the ministry, met a girl and is running a muck. Anyway, he was asking Roy to be a reference for a car he is trying to get. I'm thinking, he has a car, the one my hubby co-signed for and the boy still owes approx. $2000 on. Roy, said he would and nothing more was said. Later, the hubby got home and we went out to get something to eat and rent some movies. While doing so the youngest boy, Jason called the hubbys cell phone, he was driving so he handed the phone to me. I laughed and told David who it was and he laughed. I was the last person Jason would want to talk to right then. Hubby says he would of loved to of seen the look on that boy's face when he heard it was me on the other end. When I answered the boy's voice went weak and he started studdering, he finally got ahold of himself and said nothing but "Do you guys have the title to my car?" At the moment, we couldn't think if we did or not but David said that IF we did, it would be in our safe. Jason, I guess was thinking we were home, wanted us to go look and see. I told him we would when we got home but that we were out and busy at the moment. He was like, call me when you get home so I know and said that he was trying to get a car. I asked about the one he had, he said that he found a dealer that would take his car and trade for another, that the dealer would pay off his old car loan, which means David's name would be taken off the title. That would be a "good" thing! Problem is, that Jason is wanting the title sent down there to him without us being there...would that mean he would be signing his Dad's name again? David and I talked about Jason and the situation before we were going to call him back. We got home and Jason already had the house phone ringing and had already left a message on our machine! Man, when that boy wants something, he wants it now! The phone conversation between David and Jason went well...the only problem was when David said that he would bring the title down and they would both go to the dealer to make sure David's name was to be removed off all paperwork. Jason kept naming days that he could get together with the dealer, they just happened to all be days that Jason thought his Dad worked but......because it is Christmas, David has almost the whole week off! So, David told Jason to name a day and he would be down there to help him get this all worked out. Jason said okay, that he was cleaning his car out and when he was done, he would call the dealer, get something set up and would be calling us back in a hour or so...lol That was around 5:00pm last night. The question we ask now is...was it legit or another problem for us (him)? It's in God's Hands!! It's sad if he is trying to pull something but we are praying that he is doing the right thing, not whats right for him. David and I laughed because all Jason's life he has come to me about everything, no matter what, it was always MOM, never DAD! When he calls home, he always calls my cell phone first, then the house phone, NEVER Dad's phone! Yesterday when that call came in on Dad's cell and nothing was on mine, we knew the last voice he wanted to heard was the first one he got! The Good Lord does have a sense of humor!! Love & Prayers to All, Deb M

Hi Debbie: You are right God does have a since of humor...that's why we have kids! I understand about the kids running a muck...been there with mine but, with the grace of god and unconditional love there is hope. I didn't see mind grow up until he was 36. He is a fine man now who takes care of his family and we are very proud of him. Hang in there and it will work out. Just keep your faith. Missed you last week...wish you could have worked it out but everything for a reason. Hope to meet you soon. Hugs; Barbara Scott