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(used to think it took a special kind of stupid to forget to eat!)
But this far out, as others have already said, I can eat pretty much anything. Certain foods will often cause me to get stuck (pork is NOT my friend, unless it's extremely moist - dripping in juice or BBQ sauce of some sort!), but I've never dumped very much. Unless, of course, you count detestably stinky GAS as dumping...?
Just take advantage of this opportunity to realize how well you can do with very little fuel in your tank! It does get more difficult - but maintaining IS do-able! My body seems to be happy at about 150-160 pounds lost, I've stayed in that range for about 4 years. Some days I'm fluffier than others, but my tool is always there to help me.
Imperfect does not = unsuccessful
If I'm ever in the position to afford plastics, he'd be my first call.
Imperfect does not = unsuccessful
But if'n you ever want to hook up for a cuppa or a ****tail, shoot me a message on FB! We can meet somewhere inbetween Canada and Iowa!
Imperfect does not = unsuccessful
SW/276 CW 150 GW 185
9 Years out.
Hang in there--for inspiration, look at your own avatar--NEVER GIVE UP! You can do it!
We should still plan for that group bike ride. It sounds like you are the one who has been consistently biking, so you should be our fearless leader!! Any ideas of a good non-intimidating ride that we could do as a group? I have a flat front tire on my bike, but that is fixable.
Anybody else up for a bike ride? Everyone welcome!!
Also, who all is doing the Running from/with the Law run?
I had my RNY in December 2007. My highest weight was 328, and on the day of surgery it was 319. I lost the weight fast and adjusted to the new diet and lifestyle easily (aside from the exercise, I didn't work out once). By January 2010 my weight reached its lowest at 162 --- a grand total loss of 166 pounds. But being a new mom, having my husband and I both out of work and living with my parents brought about a whole new world of stress and depression for me. I was able to maintain my weight for most of 2010 at around 180, but that didn't last the following year after my husband decided to join the Navy.
The experiences of his boot camp, A-School, and first deployment proved to be just too much for me emotionally. I found myself alone in a 1 bedroom apartment with no car, no TV, no friends, no family and nothing to do for months. The stress, anxiety, and depression proved to be more than I could handle and I ended up being hospitalized twice in less than a year's time at a psychiatric hospital. My only comfort was food - and I ate.
As of this past Sunday I weighed 259 -- up almost 100 pounds from my lowest -- and I am miserable. Things have settled down for me emotionally, but the scars have remained from the past 2 years. I have completely isolated myself... aside from the socialization I receive from my husband and my daughter, I don't get out of the house -- at all -- and I have no friends within 2000 miles. Physically, aside from housework, I do nothing. I sit on the couch all day watching TV, always too tired and exhausted to do anything... including playing with my daughter. I'm back to hurting, having aches and pains, should I do too much of anything, having difficulty breathing when climbing the steps to our apartment, my heart pounding by the time I walk out to the mailbox and back.
Diet wise, I can eat anything now that I did pre-surgery... except in smaller quantities. My biggest problem is that it feels like the food passes through my stomach quickly, and within 30 minutes after a meal I feel like I am starving again. I'm never full, never satisfied... so I am always grazing, looking to make that hunger go away.
I'm at a loss as what to do. What should I be eating? How often? And how much? When it comes to exercise what should I do? What should be my goals?.....and all in all... how can I be happy again?
I'm stuck --- and confused.
Someone please help.
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve my best.
-Marilyn Monroe
I have never been more "down" on my self and my handling of my journey. I bicycled 50+ miles this week, but it did not make up for the 6 days of snacking I did when I helped my friend move. So I have regained 25% of my total wls weigh loss. I am up 6 pounds over the past 10 days and it looks like 2x the work to lose it than gain it........
Deb challenged me to stop eating nuts, I am doing that, but it is only the tip of what I need to change. I really have some challenges ahead.
Worst of all, I couldn't run this morning because I couldn't find my running shoes. I rescued my running clothes from the dresser before they shoved it into a corner where I can't access any of my clothes, but I forgot about the shoes. Have no idea where they are.
Ah well, this too shall pass. One problem is that I have a tendency to give myself the "you deserve a treat" talk: you probably know that one. You've suffered X Y or Z, so you should be able to eat a scone. (Did that yesterday.) You're dealing with X, Y or Z, so you shouldn't have to work out. (Did that, too.) I have to keep reminding myself that a few hardships do not entitle me to relax on the rest!!
Anyway, I found my scale this morning!! That was a triumph. So here goes, not too bad, considering...
Starting weight: 298.4
Last week: 137.5
This week: 139.4
Gain of 2.1 lbs this week
Just added back what I was down last week. I can live with that, as long as I can shake this entitlement attitude. C'mon peeps, help me kick it into gear!!
This surgery saved my life and also changed it, but for the better. Hang in there!
If there's a protein bar that works for you, try to carry one with you. You may have to do some trial and error, so buy single bars, not boxes full, until you find something that works. I just threw away about 8 boxes of various, (now stale) protein bars! There are also those single servings of soup that you could throw in a purse--there's usually a microwave around somewhere, and lots of them are designed so you can drink the soup.
It really will get better!
