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Well, off and on for the last few months I've had bingeing episodes, not too bad, but they have concerned me.  Last night was the worst.  I had a really BAD day and even worse night.  I tried calling a friend, went for a walk, read a book, tried everything to not binge.  It did not work.  I ate until I dumped, rode out the dump, then ate more.  The only thing that stopped it was 2 tylenol PMs to put me to sleep.

I need to be accountable.  I've been saying that for a while, but haven't done my part.  So, here I am doing my part - I'm confessing that my eating disorder is back with a vengeance.  But the difference is, this time I have tools to help me and I am going to use them.  I don't want to go back to who I was before.

Thanks for letting me vent and confess...

 Hi!  Gee, I don't know if I'll be any help.  I'm still in the beginning of my nutritionist's visits in the second of six months before I even have surgery.  I know I was struggling right off the bat.  There was chocolate ice cream in the frig and I obsessed about it all day yesterday. I finally gave in last night and had a huge bowl with half and half on it.  After I was all done, I  realized what the answer was for me.  Into the sink went the rest of the gallon.  I ran it under ho****er till it all melted and went down the drain.  Next, I threw all the chips and and dip in the trash.  I used to think "out of sight" was out of mind.  Not so!  I feel better now and a whole lot wiser.  Hope this helps!  Coco

The fact that you are recognizing it, confessing and posting here is a really good step!  I agree with Coco, the only way I can stop from obsessing over some foods is to get them away from me--running water on them, throwing them in the garbage (and taking the garbage out of the house), feeding them to the dog, whatever it takes.  Sometimes I need to leave the house and go do something that keeps my mind off of food.  Sounds like you tried some of that.

Hang in there--you have conquered this before and you have the power to conquer it again!  You can do it!!

Thank you.  It just scares me to see the scale head up instead of down.  I'm feeling better today.  I've been off school for a couple of weeks and that has not helped.  Classes start back up on Wed and I'll be gone 5 days a week, so that will help.

Thank you

Debi...you aren't alone...I am struggling with that big time!!

I am hoping to get it back in control when I move back to MN on the 21st. I won't have all this wonderful cooking and extra carbs around. I have been so stressed out for months now. My depression has been so bad too. I need a change and I am the one that needs to make it!

Once I get settled in MN we can maybe help each other be more accountable. Lets think about that okay.

HUGS....connie d

Connie,
I understand what you are feeling.  My situation may be different, but I am having a lot of the same issues.  Please contact me when you get settled...

I'm praying for a safe return for you...good weather, safe travel.

Hugs to you too,
Debi