My Melancholy Baby

My Melancholy Baby

 

As mental health days go, this is not one of my better days.  Bits and pieces of Ella Fitzgerald’s recording of My Melancholy Baby keep running through my head.  In it are messages of both hope and fear.  Hope that things can look brighter and fear that they will not.  There is no particular cause that would explain the effect of my melancholy today, just the raw effect of it.  It is on days like this that I most desperately need the comfort of human touch and gentle words, yet I feel compelled to shut out the world, to hunker down and try to push all manner of self-critical thoughts from my head.  Walking outdoors usually takes the edge of that inexplicable sadness away, but today it is raining and all I managed to accomplish was to get wet and a bit cold.

 

In the past I would try to smother my inner discontent on days like this with large volumes of unhealthy foods.  After surgery, the maximum food volume I can consume is drastically smaller and I am more aware of making food choices, good and bad.  However, even healthy food choices are problematic when you try to keep yourself constantly full, which I have caught myself doing today.  The point of my post is to publicly confess that I am struggling today and, consequently, that I have not followed healthy eating rules.  I want to be accountable here among friends so that I can forgive myself for having a rough day and also be diligent about regaining my composure enough to get back on the healthy eating track.

 

RP

Reach out to family and friends....We all have these days.....

Music helps me get through bad days, and friends......

I hear ya on not eating healthy.......Tomorrow is a new day.......

Maybe try to figure out what's bothering you and talk to a friend or your counselor......

Don't beat yourself up, we all have these days, and for some reason the Holiday's really bring it out for me......Your a good man, hang in there, and try to figure out what's bugging you and work on it....

Kelly

 RP, I haven't had surgery yet - hopefully my 6 month required appointments with my NUT will give me a February date. But as I march deliberately toward the day, I find your posts to be most helpful. Even on melancholy days like this. I mean to tell you how valuable your thoughts - all of them - are to me. Thank you.

you are in my prayers. I understand those melancholy days. Have had them myself. Maybe I'll see you on the train tomorrow. Carol

I'm reading this late and hope that today is bringing you more comfort and ease.  I know those days and have them myself.  It's hard not to self medicate.  But reaching out here is just the right thing.  I always feel better when I make myself accountable, it's a cleansing of a sort and a new beginning.  So I hope you have forgiven yourself and woke up with a renewed sense of self.

Have a great day today RP!  Big hugs.

I say have some low fat, low sugar cocoa, it gives me inner peace lately 

Tess

RP....I am definitely in the same boat as you today....and many days especially during the holidays.

Keep posting here. Reach out to those that you can get support and comfort from. We all care about YOU!!!

Tomorrow is a new day....one baby step at a time sometimes is all we can do....you can get through this!

HUGS HUGS.....connie d

Thank you all for your kind, caring words and support.  I am happy to report that today is a better mental health day for me than yesterday was.

RP

 Good.

   Glad to hear it.