MIA - Long Time!!
As I sit here I am almost nervous about putting into words what I have been trying to ignore for so long!
First off let me just say that even though I am on facebook, I can not post WLS stuff as alot of people on Face book, I would prefer did not know I had surgery.... Just me, and not implying anyone else... Just my preference...
I don't know what I am hoping to gain from posting this out here, perhaps it will help someone else or perhaps someone would have some words of advise for me? I am open to anything! I guess I just need a little support!
So I come here, yes I read posts and forgive me for not posting back, but alot of times I am at work and my 'free' time is pretty limited!
I am about 39 months out and although I have not made it to goal, my lowest being 175ish, has crept back up a few pounds, not sure on the exact but I bet its closer to 15 pound regain. I have had alot of issues, but I have done alot of things that I am proud of. I need to focus on those positives and will continue to instead of getting all upset with myself because my size 12 jeans don't fit as good as they used to or for that matter, I am not any smaller than a 12!! EVER in my Life have I been that small!!
So now the positives:
I have stayed QUIT SMOKING for 3 and half years!
I am an active member at the gym and go at least 15 times in the month. (insurance incentive)
I have been going to the gym for over a year now and feel great! (Most of the time before work, so at 5:15AM I am at the gym getting started! )
My arms have a nice shape to them and I owe it to the weight training I have been doing.
My Cholesterol and Triglycerides are NORMAL! For the first time in my life!!
I feel healthy! I no longer wheeze and I hardly ever get sick anymore!
So why do I beat up on myself?
I see the bad habits creeping up again. Although I have managed to maintain the same weight for almost 2 years, only fluctuating 2-5 pounds... its not goal and I feel like a failure. I have 'MAINTAINED' the same weight and I still over all have lost over 80 pounds and have kept it off....
The goal I set was 160 and my doctor said 170 was more realistic for me. Oh and that's another issue I am having, I have been so afraid to go back to see the surgeon! I know he will yell at me, and I just do not want to go thru that again!! In fact, other than my 1 year, I have not been back to see him... SO I have been carrying this 'disappointment around with me for along time.
Some of the bad habits that are creeping back up are:
over eating, not listening to my pouch when it really is full! Pushing more and more food at a sitting...
Not limiting my alcohol intake as I should.
Snacking in between meals too much!
Sweet tooth is coming back, breads and candies are no longer afraid of the 'just one bite' (over and over)
See where I am going here, I am out of control and I know I can get back to where I should be. I am afraid that if I go one like I have been I may just be 260 pounds again!!! Yikes, I hate that number!!
Well, thanks for listening and I promise not to be so absent like I have been!
CarolN
First off let me just say that even though I am on facebook, I can not post WLS stuff as alot of people on Face book, I would prefer did not know I had surgery.... Just me, and not implying anyone else... Just my preference...
I don't know what I am hoping to gain from posting this out here, perhaps it will help someone else or perhaps someone would have some words of advise for me? I am open to anything! I guess I just need a little support!
So I come here, yes I read posts and forgive me for not posting back, but alot of times I am at work and my 'free' time is pretty limited!
I am about 39 months out and although I have not made it to goal, my lowest being 175ish, has crept back up a few pounds, not sure on the exact but I bet its closer to 15 pound regain. I have had alot of issues, but I have done alot of things that I am proud of. I need to focus on those positives and will continue to instead of getting all upset with myself because my size 12 jeans don't fit as good as they used to or for that matter, I am not any smaller than a 12!! EVER in my Life have I been that small!!
So now the positives:
I have stayed QUIT SMOKING for 3 and half years!
I am an active member at the gym and go at least 15 times in the month. (insurance incentive)
I have been going to the gym for over a year now and feel great! (Most of the time before work, so at 5:15AM I am at the gym getting started! )
My arms have a nice shape to them and I owe it to the weight training I have been doing.
My Cholesterol and Triglycerides are NORMAL! For the first time in my life!!
I feel healthy! I no longer wheeze and I hardly ever get sick anymore!
So why do I beat up on myself?
I see the bad habits creeping up again. Although I have managed to maintain the same weight for almost 2 years, only fluctuating 2-5 pounds... its not goal and I feel like a failure. I have 'MAINTAINED' the same weight and I still over all have lost over 80 pounds and have kept it off....
The goal I set was 160 and my doctor said 170 was more realistic for me. Oh and that's another issue I am having, I have been so afraid to go back to see the surgeon! I know he will yell at me, and I just do not want to go thru that again!! In fact, other than my 1 year, I have not been back to see him... SO I have been carrying this 'disappointment around with me for along time.
Some of the bad habits that are creeping back up are:
over eating, not listening to my pouch when it really is full! Pushing more and more food at a sitting...
Not limiting my alcohol intake as I should.
Snacking in between meals too much!
Sweet tooth is coming back, breads and candies are no longer afraid of the 'just one bite' (over and over)
See where I am going here, I am out of control and I know I can get back to where I should be. I am afraid that if I go one like I have been I may just be 260 pounds again!!! Yikes, I hate that number!!
Well, thanks for listening and I promise not to be so absent like I have been!
CarolN
'Live Simply. Love Generously. Care Deeply. Speak Kindly. Leave the rest to God!
'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'
Hi Carol...so nice to see you post. YOU do not need to feel like a disappointment. Good grief...you are doing great and looking awesome...very healthy!!
I too didn't go see Dr. Glass for my 3 year check up that was Aug 29....however I did make an appointment for October 29 and I will keep it. I know he will have plenty to say to me as I am up 26 pounds now....nothing to be happy about. I am eating some sweets. Way more food then I should be...those portions just seem to get a little bigger all the time. Time for me to STOP it now!! I need to face the music!!
You are doing a great job with your exercising...I am not...another thing to get back too. I can't afford the gym but there are things I can do.
Don't be so hard on yourself. You really do look great and have succeeded in so many ways!! Congrats on those successes!
Love you much....hugs...connie d
I too didn't go see Dr. Glass for my 3 year check up that was Aug 29....however I did make an appointment for October 29 and I will keep it. I know he will have plenty to say to me as I am up 26 pounds now....nothing to be happy about. I am eating some sweets. Way more food then I should be...those portions just seem to get a little bigger all the time. Time for me to STOP it now!! I need to face the music!!
You are doing a great job with your exercising...I am not...another thing to get back too. I can't afford the gym but there are things I can do.
Don't be so hard on yourself. You really do look great and have succeeded in so many ways!! Congrats on those successes!
Love you much....hugs...connie d
Thanks Connie!!
I think it is just time to accept I will never be a size 8 or even a 4!!!! Be happy with what I have done, I guess... And I am... don't get me wrong.... Just afraid that I may get out of control again!!!
Your support is so important to me!!!
Luv ya,,,,
Carol
I think it is just time to accept I will never be a size 8 or even a 4!!!! Be happy with what I have done, I guess... And I am... don't get me wrong.... Just afraid that I may get out of control again!!!
Your support is so important to me!!!
Luv ya,,,,
Carol
'Live Simply. Love Generously. Care Deeply. Speak Kindly. Leave the rest to God!
'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'
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on 10/18/10 3:40 am - Clear Lake, MN
on 10/18/10 3:40 am - Clear Lake, MN
Carol,
There are so many of us that struggle with re-gain, it's really overwhelming.....And that's what I love about this site, Facebook and my WLS friends, Were always there to listen and help support.....
My advice is to get into the nurse and Dr. Glass......I know it's hard, I too went and saw Dr. Baker late for my 2 year, but it really was the best thing for me to do......And for so long I did well....Just lately I fell off the wagon again, but slowly getting back on track....Life happens, throws us curve balls to deal with, and if your anything like me, you let food feed the sadness or anger, etc.....
I will say though, that you look great, healthy, and dang you are awesome with working out.....So please do pat yourself on the back for that......
Hang in there gorgeous......We all know what to eat, it's finding that inner willfulness that's the hard part......
I'm always here for you.....And heck, I've really been thinking about starting my own WLS support group in St. Cloud or Becker area, for those of us that are struggling, or need some support, etc.....
Love you.....Now call the Doctor.....
Kel
There are so many of us that struggle with re-gain, it's really overwhelming.....And that's what I love about this site, Facebook and my WLS friends, Were always there to listen and help support.....
My advice is to get into the nurse and Dr. Glass......I know it's hard, I too went and saw Dr. Baker late for my 2 year, but it really was the best thing for me to do......And for so long I did well....Just lately I fell off the wagon again, but slowly getting back on track....Life happens, throws us curve balls to deal with, and if your anything like me, you let food feed the sadness or anger, etc.....
I will say though, that you look great, healthy, and dang you are awesome with working out.....So please do pat yourself on the back for that......
Hang in there gorgeous......We all know what to eat, it's finding that inner willfulness that's the hard part......
I'm always here for you.....And heck, I've really been thinking about starting my own WLS support group in St. Cloud or Becker area, for those of us that are struggling, or need some support, etc.....
Love you.....Now call the Doctor.....
Kel
Wow, Ronda...Thanks so much for posting!! Your strength alone is so amazing!!!! I am so happy for you and to be able to watch you going thru your journey!! 2 weeks!! So exciting, I would love to go back to the beginning again !!! LOL!!
I think your right, I need to be more mindful and go back to the basics! I really can come up with alot of things I have forgotten to do and really have not been getting in enough protein lately!!!
(((HUGS)))
Carol
I think your right, I need to be more mindful and go back to the basics! I really can come up with alot of things I have forgotten to do and really have not been getting in enough protein lately!!!
(((HUGS)))
Carol
'Live Simply. Love Generously. Care Deeply. Speak Kindly. Leave the rest to God!
'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'
Carol,
Great to see your post. I have not been on here in ages either! I have had alot of issues with my internet connection and kind of gave up on it. Doing facebook from my cell phone.
Proud of you for seeing your bad habits coming back and doing something about it before it gets out of hand. Scary isnt it? I find myself doing some of the old things on occassion also. It's just getting them back in control before they come normal ways of life again. I got in the bad habit of eating bread/toast every day. Not eating my protein first and not drinking enough water.
You look beautiful and you sure have done a wonderful job...congrats on the no smoking and going to the gym as often as you do..huge accomplishments.
Sure would be nice to get St Cloud coffee going again. I miss you beautiful ladies.
Natalie
Great to see your post. I have not been on here in ages either! I have had alot of issues with my internet connection and kind of gave up on it. Doing facebook from my cell phone.
Proud of you for seeing your bad habits coming back and doing something about it before it gets out of hand. Scary isnt it? I find myself doing some of the old things on occassion also. It's just getting them back in control before they come normal ways of life again. I got in the bad habit of eating bread/toast every day. Not eating my protein first and not drinking enough water.
You look beautiful and you sure have done a wonderful job...congrats on the no smoking and going to the gym as often as you do..huge accomplishments.
Sure would be nice to get St Cloud coffee going again. I miss you beautiful ladies.
Natalie
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