I fell off the wagon today

I ate junk for the 1st time in along time.....

It was a very stressful day today....Many of you may already know this if your my FB friend.....I was supporting a stranger on the suicide prevention site on FB, she ended up PMing me and said that she was going to kill herself tonight.....uhhh....I broke down and cried.....I only know her name, we aren't friends on FB, we just chatted today for the 1st time through a PM....I thought I could help her, I failed.....Or possibly failed.....I have not heard from her all afternoon, I pray that God heard my prayers.....

Junk food was my friend today.......1 fun size Hershey's bar, a handful of potato chips and cottage cheese, and about 7 Ritz mini cheese crackers.....And I ate that in a 1 hour period......

I still feel the urge to eat junk......Damn.....

 Kelly,

Be gentle on yourself and whatever you do, do NOT hold yourself accountable for someone else's mental health.

You don't know that this isn't some person that was just yanking your chain... Continue to pray for her and I'll pray for you!

Stephanie

p.s. boy I wish I could say my "cheats" were that tame... 

Don't feel responsible. I know it might not sound so pleasant, but once someone has it in their mind that they are going to kill themselves, there is very little anyone can do to stop it.

Don't beat yourself up over it.  I hope things go better!!! 

Don't forget too that the people *****ach out to others BEFORE attempting suicide are the ones who are the MOST likely to be able to be helped. 

Kelly,

You can't help everyone, but you sure have helped me and many others on OB Help. For every one that you can not help think of all the people here that you have helped and that you make feel soooo much better after reading your post.

Kelly, please subtract 1pcs fun size Hershey's bar next time you feel the urge to eat junk.......for all the support you have given me.

Thank you all for your support and kind words.....

She finally PM'd me tonight....She asked me to be her friend on FB....So I now have all her info in case I need to call the police in her area.....I chatted with her for 2  1/2 hours on FB, she is still suicidal, but told me she will call her doctor about her meds she's on, I think she needs them upped.....I told her maybe that's all it is.....Her anxiety is through the roof, so she agreed that she would call her doctor.....

I'm exhausted.....I just pray that God hears my prayers......I didn't call the police tonight, I hope I don't regret that.....It seemed like she was calmer at the end of our chat.....Because in the begining that's all she talked about was walking in the river or walking in front of a semi......Please say a prayer for Cari......Like I said, I don't know her at all, but I'm willing to help if I can.....I continue to tell her to call the suicide hotline......

2 of my male FB friends also friended her and chatted with her, THANK God for them, I wouldn't of been able to do it alone.....

Thanks again....And I didn't eat anymore junk today, I just had my soup for dinner......Love you all.....Kelly

Kelly....you are human....don't beat yourself up...just move on and do the best you can today!

Love and hugs....connie d

Kelly,

I know you are having a really stressful day today since Cari unfriended you on FB and you are not able to get a hold of her.  For the record, I think what you are doing with her is unbelievable and that you are an awesome person.  Please know that you have done everything that you should have done and if she does decide to go through with the suicide then there was nothing else you could have done.

Please know that I am thinking of you and praying for you and for Cari.

Samantha