Really upset...
And I want to grab something sweet and a lot of it. I want to eat something stimulating and a lot of it. I am trying to pull back, this void I feel is aching.
I have been out of a job since October 2009. I am a great novelist - I have 6 people who have read my novel and are wanting me to publi**** They are ages 20-55. I have a second one ready to edit and move forward in the series. I am very confident that this is my talent...but it does not bring in the weekly/monthly paycheck as our house needs.
Again today I heard "The position has been filled by another candidate that more closely fits our needs."
I have 15 years plus of administrative assistant/office management experience. I once owned my own business. I am extremely creative and will do this job, but greatly desire to do party planning/catering/hostessing. I am extremely good at that and have recently done a party for an acquaintance who said she wants me to use her as a reference. Theme parties are my specialty. Whether it is a tea with grandma that needs to be extra special or a party for 60 people...I've done it.
So...no money. Can't collect. Awesome talents (proven~ not trying to brag at all). I am creative and am not being used out there.
Self esteem issues are big here right now. I know in my head/and heart that I am not devoid of God's grace in this. I have lived out here for 8 years, but prior to that there were an additional 10 years of hearing the same responses as I tried to work and bring in money for the family.
Friends are going to college. My husband says that until we find a way to pay the bills that we owe that college will have to wait. So...
Eating to fill this void, not crying, just medicating is what I have been used to all these years. Now I am 90 plus pounds down, old habits are screaming at me, my muscle tone is nil and I just need lots of shoulders and a break!!!
I know this is really long, my lovelies. I don't know if words can fix this either unless it is...I have a job for you. I don't know. What I do know is...my son that is in the navy is due in 2 hours. I'm not dressed, the house is not picked up and I want to not hear him say "take any job" because even the 'any job' has turned me down.
I'm 46, fun, playful, smart, talented...won't somebody use me???
I have been out of a job since October 2009. I am a great novelist - I have 6 people who have read my novel and are wanting me to publi**** They are ages 20-55. I have a second one ready to edit and move forward in the series. I am very confident that this is my talent...but it does not bring in the weekly/monthly paycheck as our house needs.
Again today I heard "The position has been filled by another candidate that more closely fits our needs."
I have 15 years plus of administrative assistant/office management experience. I once owned my own business. I am extremely creative and will do this job, but greatly desire to do party planning/catering/hostessing. I am extremely good at that and have recently done a party for an acquaintance who said she wants me to use her as a reference. Theme parties are my specialty. Whether it is a tea with grandma that needs to be extra special or a party for 60 people...I've done it.
So...no money. Can't collect. Awesome talents (proven~ not trying to brag at all). I am creative and am not being used out there.
Self esteem issues are big here right now. I know in my head/and heart that I am not devoid of God's grace in this. I have lived out here for 8 years, but prior to that there were an additional 10 years of hearing the same responses as I tried to work and bring in money for the family.
Friends are going to college. My husband says that until we find a way to pay the bills that we owe that college will have to wait. So...
Eating to fill this void, not crying, just medicating is what I have been used to all these years. Now I am 90 plus pounds down, old habits are screaming at me, my muscle tone is nil and I just need lots of shoulders and a break!!!
I know this is really long, my lovelies. I don't know if words can fix this either unless it is...I have a job for you. I don't know. What I do know is...my son that is in the navy is due in 2 hours. I'm not dressed, the house is not picked up and I want to not hear him say "take any job" because even the 'any job' has turned me down.
I'm 46, fun, playful, smart, talented...won't somebody use me???
... 
... 
... 
...
Just don't give up! Something will come up . . . and now that you have lost the weight, there is more incentive to stay away from the crap food. Can you find another escape for a while? My emotional times are normally best dealt with by iPod and long walks [sometimes to a store so that I can see why the crap comfort food would be bad . . . trying on clothes makes me feel better post op]
There are, however, ways to get some "comfort" food or "crap" food in without ruining everything you've worked for if you ever reach a point where you absolutely can't say no to them. I would rather you had one of those then binging on regular crap food and feeling miserable or being detrimental to your progress! Right now I have 2 favorite treats [one is more DS friendly then anything, but you can get low fat ingredients].
Faux cheesecake:
2 packets cream cheese [grab the light stuff if you are nonDS to cut on fat intake]
1 container cool whip [again go with light rather then regular if nonDS]
1/2 cup splenda
topping [I've found that using 1/2 strawberry per serving works best carbwise]
Now mix the cream cheese, cool whip, and splenda until its all pretty and whipped. I always make these as tarts so I can cut back on the carb content in the crust. I use 1 nilla wafer in the bottom of the cupcake foil then fill it with the faux cheesecake and top with 1/2 small strawberry.
By my calculations this comes out to ~7-10g carbs depending on if I cut the nilla wafer or not. It makes 16 small cheesecake tarts and they are super yum.
Beyer's Carb Smart ice cream shake
1.5 scoops Nectar Caribbean Cooler protein powder [~35g]
2-3 strawberries
1 serving [1/2 cup] carb smart ice cream
These 2 recipes are how I kill the carb monster and avoid falling back to crap foods. Good luck and I hope things get better for you!
There are, however, ways to get some "comfort" food or "crap" food in without ruining everything you've worked for if you ever reach a point where you absolutely can't say no to them. I would rather you had one of those then binging on regular crap food and feeling miserable or being detrimental to your progress! Right now I have 2 favorite treats [one is more DS friendly then anything, but you can get low fat ingredients].
Faux cheesecake:
2 packets cream cheese [grab the light stuff if you are nonDS to cut on fat intake]
1 container cool whip [again go with light rather then regular if nonDS]
1/2 cup splenda
topping [I've found that using 1/2 strawberry per serving works best carbwise]
Now mix the cream cheese, cool whip, and splenda until its all pretty and whipped. I always make these as tarts so I can cut back on the carb content in the crust. I use 1 nilla wafer in the bottom of the cupcake foil then fill it with the faux cheesecake and top with 1/2 small strawberry.
By my calculations this comes out to ~7-10g carbs depending on if I cut the nilla wafer or not. It makes 16 small cheesecake tarts and they are super yum.
Beyer's Carb Smart ice cream shake
1.5 scoops Nectar Caribbean Cooler protein powder [~35g]
2-3 strawberries
1 serving [1/2 cup] carb smart ice cream
These 2 recipes are how I kill the carb monster and avoid falling back to crap foods. Good luck and I hope things get better for you!
Live out loud! How many people's lives have you touched recently? Pay it forward
(deactivated member)
on 10/1/10 3:35 am - Clear Lake, MN
on 10/1/10 3:35 am - Clear Lake, MN
Tere,
First off, Big hugs......The employment job hunt sucks right now and has for 2 years.....Employers are being so picky right now......Heck the cashier job I applied for they wanted you to have a 4 year degree, for cashier! grrrrrr.....
I know what you mean about wanting food, sweets....Been there and I did do that....Trust me, not worth the 20 pound weight gain.....Now I've been slowly taking it back off, and still no job......
Get dressed, pick up the house and give that Son of yours a great big hug......
Hopefully word of mouth will help you get a party to plan for.....Hang in there, I know it's tough, but eating will only add to your worries....
If you ever want to hook up during the week for coffee or whatever, let me know.....I stay home all day and am bored stiff....
Kelly
First off, Big hugs......The employment job hunt sucks right now and has for 2 years.....Employers are being so picky right now......Heck the cashier job I applied for they wanted you to have a 4 year degree, for cashier! grrrrrr.....
I know what you mean about wanting food, sweets....Been there and I did do that....Trust me, not worth the 20 pound weight gain.....Now I've been slowly taking it back off, and still no job......
Get dressed, pick up the house and give that Son of yours a great big hug......
Hopefully word of mouth will help you get a party to plan for.....Hang in there, I know it's tough, but eating will only add to your worries....
If you ever want to hook up during the week for coffee or whatever, let me know.....I stay home all day and am bored stiff....
Kelly
I was laid of nearly two years ago (and still am yet no longer collecting u/e benes) and some of what you say resonates with me, but the one thing I have not done, is let food have a hold on me. I just will not succumb to that devil. I also have not self-medicated nor turned to alcohol. I know my worth and it is not worth those prices.
Have you reached out to unemployed support groups or joined any networking groups? There are plenty and it keeps your head in the game. Do you have your name/resume in with any temp or employment agencies?
And if you are ready to publish, do you have a publisher to work with? A family friend of our's has published four books this past year and her sales are starting to soar as her name becomes more and more familiar with the awesome content she writes. It is hard work and a lot of effort on her part, but it is taking her down the right path.
Also, for bills like mortgages and such, the banks are pretty willing to work with you. Lots of info to provide initially, but they will work with you.
Stay true to who you know you are and keep pressing on. Don't let your cir****tances define you.
Have you reached out to unemployed support groups or joined any networking groups? There are plenty and it keeps your head in the game. Do you have your name/resume in with any temp or employment agencies?
And if you are ready to publish, do you have a publisher to work with? A family friend of our's has published four books this past year and her sales are starting to soar as her name becomes more and more familiar with the awesome content she writes. It is hard work and a lot of effort on her part, but it is taking her down the right path.
Also, for bills like mortgages and such, the banks are pretty willing to work with you. Lots of info to provide initially, but they will work with you.
Stay true to who you know you are and keep pressing on. Don't let your cir****tances define you.
Kitzy, Kelly and Diamond Girl,
Well, I put on my hat, sweatshirt and got the dog ready, went out for about an hour's walk and made it home in time to shower and vaccume/tidy up.
Oh and I had an 8 oz cup of skim milk before I went out.
So, this unemployment thing is tough, huh?? The goodies you offered, Kitzy, sound yummy! Kelly - where do you live- it might be nice to go for a walk or something. Diamond Girl, you are very encouraging and yes we are working with the banks. ugh. No publisher yet :/ but will be looking for an agent within the month I presume. Maybe the genre I write (Christian Historical Fiction) they will publish??
Kelly - the party planning I'm taking to Craigs List I think. We'll see. I want to work on a portfolio and that would be an inexpensive way for folks to have the help and me to get the names I need.
I will give him a big hug, Kelly. They have traveled through the night (by car) and will be eating and hitting the showers when they arrive I've been told. So maybe I won't hug him for too long - (pew!)
Thank you for replying all. . .I surely do appreciate it more than you know.
Well, I put on my hat, sweatshirt and got the dog ready, went out for about an hour's walk and made it home in time to shower and vaccume/tidy up.
Oh and I had an 8 oz cup of skim milk before I went out.
So, this unemployment thing is tough, huh?? The goodies you offered, Kitzy, sound yummy! Kelly - where do you live- it might be nice to go for a walk or something. Diamond Girl, you are very encouraging and yes we are working with the banks. ugh. No publisher yet :/ but will be looking for an agent within the month I presume. Maybe the genre I write (Christian Historical Fiction) they will publish??
Kelly - the party planning I'm taking to Craigs List I think. We'll see. I want to work on a portfolio and that would be an inexpensive way for folks to have the help and me to get the names I need.
I will give him a big hug, Kelly. They have traveled through the night (by car) and will be eating and hitting the showers when they arrive I've been told. So maybe I won't hug him for too long - (pew!)
Thank you for replying all. . .I surely do appreciate it more than you know.
... ... ... ...
(deactivated member)
on 10/1/10 5:34 am - Clear Lake, MN
on 10/1/10 5:34 am - Clear Lake, MN
Tere,
I live up by Becker, but would be willing to meet you half way somewhere....We could walk, talk, window shop, whatever......
Maple Grove has alot to offer, or I can meet up anywhere....
You going to Eagan coffee tomorrow?
I live up by Becker, but would be willing to meet you half way somewhere....We could walk, talk, window shop, whatever......
Maple Grove has alot to offer, or I can meet up anywhere....
You going to Eagan coffee tomorrow?
Apply at my job. You can possibly work from home (if that works for you) as a inbound customer service rep. I can explain more if you are coming to our meeting tomorrow morning. Go to www.timecommunications.biz and follow the links. I am currently on leave but can put in a good word. Right now I don't think we have other positions open but it better than doing nothing right?
Racine
Racine
Most Active
Recent Topics
