starting to panic

I had the exact same thoughts & emotions as you, right before my surgery 6 weeks ago.  It is completely normal.  We are entering the 'unknown', starting a new life.  I just had to take a bit to really get all my emotions out, voice what was really on my mind with my husband (my worries & fears) and then I made peace with decision.  I knew what I was doing was going to be good for me & was the right decision for me, but I definitely had my moments where I 'freaked out' a bit.

I never regret my decision even for a moment.  The results & how I am living & eating now are so different.  I am off my high blood pressure meds and my back pain is less.  I feel lighter on my feet & have much more energy & motivation to workout now then I did before.  It is the best decision I've made in a long time; putting myself 1st so that I could be a better person for everyone in my life.

And don't worry about those last few pounds; I weighed in at 3 lbs. above my goal weight loss (of 15 lbs.) and with eating a couple days of around 900-1000 calories plus the 1 day of the liquid diet I got down those 3 lbs. plus an additional 6 (I lost 6 lbs. just doing the 1 day of the liquid diet).  So, I know you'll lose those few extra pounds you want to get off by your surgery...no problem!

Good luck with your surgery next week!!! 

Thanks for the encouragement!  I can't wait to be on the other side!

You ARE being selfish... and that's a GOOD THING. One thing I realized after having surgery is that I didn't nearly give myself as much care as I did for everyone else. I put myself on the back burner. Now that I am treating myself "selfishly"... I am healthier and am much more able to care for others even MORE! So GO FOR IT!

You are right.  I just need a little more practice at being selfish!

Everyone has given you good thoughts - I'd be much more concerned about someone heading into this surgery WITHOUT any fears or concerns!  To have them is much more normal.

You said "... but I don't have any major health concerns, as of yet, that would make surgery a necessity at this point".   Why wait until you do?  To continue to live as an obese person is a virtual guarantee that you WILL have major health concerns down the road.  Consider it a blessing that you have this opportunity to head them off at the pass by losing the weight BEFORE those health concerns bite you in the ass!

You'll be fine.  We ALL understand.  And we'll all be here cheering you on as you shrink!

I love that word...shrink!  Thanks Darla!

I also did not have any comorbities at the time of my surgery.. but my weight alone (5'1" and 242 lbs at my highest) clearly put my BMI in morbid obesity range and my health at risk.

If you didn't qualify for the surgery, your surgeon wouldn't be doing it.. at least I hope not!

I didn't see it as an elective surgery... I knew the near future road would include obesity related health conditions and serious risks to my health. My blood sugar was creeping up and up. I had tried to lose weight with no sucess for 12+ years....  I knew it was a necessity to prolong my life and turn things around from this point going forward. I needed medical intervention to do what I needed to do... I knew I no longer could do it on my own... And thats exactly what my surgeon said, we're giving you this tool to use for a new healthy life.

Think of it as your doctor giving you a tool to use to get healthy... And that you are going to change your life and lifestyle for the better for your kids.  You can be their new role model of how to eat and exercise and life a healthy lifestyle...  You can be the one who makes the biggest impact in their lives to prevent them from becoming obese and not living a healthy lifestyle.

Hope that helps!

I'd do my RNY over again no question... I'm almost 70lbs down at 6 1/2 months out...

 

I went through the same thing right before my surgery.  The morning I left my daughter to go to the hospital I cried the entire way because I was so scared I wouldn't see her again.  Now that I am on the other side of the surgery, I THANK GOD that I had it done.  I'm just over 2 months out and I"m feeling great and even with the restrictions of my pouch, I still feel that this was the right decision for me.

It's time to start being selfish because if you don't then you for sure won't be around for your kids because your weight will make sure of that.

Good Luck!  I know you will do great!  You won't give yourself the option to do anything other than that!

Thanks to everyone!  I am feeling better and know that these last 4 days will fly by and the worry will be over!  Happy New Year to everyone!  It's going to be my year this year and I'm pretty darn excited.