starting to panic

It's setting in....the panic.  I'm nervous about making the right decision.  I am worried that something is going to happen to me in there and my kids won't have me anymore. I wonder if  I am being selfish by having this elective surgery.  I do qualify for it but I don't have any major health concerns, as of yet, that would make surgery a necessity at this point.  I'm sure this is normal but I am a bit scared.  I'm also concerned about loosing my last three pounds in the next week.  I'm okay, just needed to voice my concerns to someone who understands.  Thanks for reading.

We all go through these emotions.  This is a very huge choice to make yourself healthy again.  You need to do what you need to do for you.  I was so scared and even when they were bringing me into the O.R. I was wondering what door to run out of, but this is the best gift ever a healthier me.  I would not trade it for anything.  I only wish I would of done it sooner than what I did.  You will have days of being scared and just remember it is normal.........  You will do just fine...........

hugs to you

Thanks for reminding me that this is normal.  I will giggle on the way to the O.R. because now that you said that I will totally be looking for the exits too.  Thanks, Marsha.

You are having all the normal emotions......I however stopped thinking about it and decided to enjoy every step of the way before my surgery!   Your kids will have many many more wonderful memories with you because you will feel so much better!    It is just amazing!  So enjoy the whole process.....the three pounds wil come off.    Ask some others from your group how they did that.  I went to PN so I had to do the 10 day LD...that really made the pounds fall......:O)

Thanks.

Elective surgery is not an accurate description, nor is it a fair mindset for yourself.  

Where will your life be if you continue on the curve of an unhealthy BMI, diet and unsucessful weight management?  You can choose to make the lifestyle changes, enabled by the surgery, and begin to live again; or you can very easily predict where your life will wind up without making the changes.

You're not being selfish, unless you choose to do nothing--because it's believed to be lower risk.  It is selfish for us to not take an active choice with a measured risk.  I took the risk to live for my kids.

I believe the data show that the risk of surgery going wrong (resulting in mortality), is far lower than the risk of mortality caused by morbidity.

I love life. I love how I feel.  The journey of learning, diet, exercize and the success that the surgery has allowed me to achieve has saved my life.

You are correct that I am on a slippery slope heading towards a decline in health.  There is a reason I am doing this and I just have to focus on that.  Thanks for the words of wisdom.
Christine

It's so funny that  you posted this tonight.  Tonight after work I was talking to my Mom on the phone while I was shopping for all my vitamins, iron, calcium, tylenol, etc.... and I was telling her I'm a little nervous.  After shopping, I was driving home and wondered how you and Lisa M. were feeling about your upcoming surgeries and how things are going. 
So I totally understand you feeling a bit freaked out.  I'm not really afraid that something will happen to me in surgery.  I feel like I researched doctors thoroughly, and feel that we are in good hands.  What I am scared for is the pain after surgery and for the intense hunger I'm sure to feel before my band gives me restriction (aka: bandster hell).  I'm struggling right now with the whole "last meal" syndrome and am scared I'm going to gain weight before next week.  I don't really feel like I am having second thoughts....I have proven to myself that if I don't have the surgery I am destined to becoming more obese.  So I have no doubts that this is what I need to do....it's just a little scary.
Remember.......deep cleansing breaths.  
Maybe I'll see you in the halls next week! 

Take Care!
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It's a great feeling to know that I'm not alone.   Don't worry about the pain.  I'll for sure see you in the halls.