I'm thankful for.....

I am thankful for the compassion of all the wonderful people on this board. This has been a really rough month for obvious reasons. I am horribly ashamed to admit (because I have always been extremely rational and grateful for life) that I thought about ending it all a lot during the last month... but thanks to all the wonderful people here and from all over ObesityHelp (as well as my psychologist of course)... I realized that those thoughts are normal for a while after something like this.

I am so thankful for everyone *****ached out and

--Messaged, PMed, Facebooked me, even if they had never talked to me before
--Sent me cards in the mail
--E-mailed me poems and quotes that truly carried me from one day to another
--Took my late night phone calls and texts
--Talked with me for hours and listened to me cry
--Offered to let me come visit and get away
--Told me their stories of loss and grief

I was raised to deal with things on my own (culture thing I guess) so reaching out for help and ACCEPTING help has been really hard. I feel ashamed sometimes but without the help that I have received and CONTINUE to receive from all of you... I don't think I will get through this. I have learned lots of lessons this year and one of them is that being helped is extremely humbling.

I knew I could reach out, though, because we all have a common struggle among us and we're not just sympathetic.... we're empathetic.

Thank you all and I love you all very much!

Things will get better as time passes, but we'll be here for you until that time and beyond.  You are an amazing young woman and we all want you to be happy. 

Hugs and blessings

Wanda

Oh, Elena.  You should never be ashamed of your feelings.  They are yours to own, work through, revise, share and celebrate.   I've seen you reach out and lift up so many on this site, and it surely must be gratifying for you to know that so many are willing to do the same for you.  I know how hard it is to deal with loss, especially an unexpected one, but you ARE dealing, with grace and strength you probably didn't even know you had.

Blessings this holiday season to you and to all with heavy hearts.

Tuna

I would echo those message, Elena.  I'm proud of you for being able to accept the help and support.  THAT is a show of strength in itself.   Keep on... you are so worth it!

Hoping that each new day brings peace, understanding and acceptance into your life...you've gone through a LOT in the past month, more than most could cope with, so be proud of your acheivements!

p.s. You know you are my 'knee boot hero', I looked at that photo of you in your boots when you posted about it and BAM...I discovered a new goal that I had been harboring for years...the desire to wear some kickarse sexy knee high boots...and you are my inspiration!