Four Month Update

Having kind of a weepy day.  It was very frustrating to get on the scale to weigh in today (I do this every two weeks) and the scale did not move.

This past month I lost 4 pounds.  I have worked out, gotten in my protein, water and exercise - and my vitamins.

On a non-scale note, I did drop 2 pants sizes.  I was able to hike the foothills of a mountain and not feel like I was going to die.  I fit in an airplane seat and had 5 inches of seatbelt left over.  Men are opening doors for me and looking me in the eye and smiling more.

Overall I have lost 51 pounds and 51.5 inches.  If you had said to me 5 months ago that at 4 months that is where I would be, I would have been ecstatic.

So why do I feel like crying?  Why do I keep questioning "Other people have lost 80 pounds by now.. what is wrong with ME?" or hearing the doubting voices say "What if this is all you lose?  Your window of opportunity is closing fast, you better try harder!"  The worse voice of all is "What if you fail this too?"

Deep down, I KNOW I should be ecstatic with this loss.. and I am so grateful for every ounce..  How do I quit doubting that this surgery is going to work?   Did any of you have that problem?

Weepy?  Me too = PMS! You?

You're doing great, and your rational self knows this. It's going to suck anytime you stall and you already know this is going to happen again at some point, cause it just does.  I bet you'll have a brighter outlook in a few days, or after the scale moves, whichever comes first.   

Oh yes.. the PMS monster is raging...   Big time.

I guess I can't expect to be rational right now.. LOL   

My brother told me he lost an average of 10 pounds a month.  But it kept up after the "window" closed.  It took him a year and a half to lose his 150 pounds - but he did it.   That was 5 years ago and he still looks and feels GREAT.  He is my inspiration.

BREATHE! Throw the damned scale away. It's pure evil.

You either lose weight or inches. NOT both. At 4 months out you're nowhere near the closing of the window of opportunity.

When you lose all this weight, estrogen is being spewed into your body from the fat where it was stored. No wonder you're so emotional! 

It will get better, I swear!

BIG HUGS!

Try not the get too down everyone loses their weight at different stages. It seemed to be forever before I started to notice any changes and before I knew it I skip a size or 2 in there. You are doing just fine and stay away from the scale it's evil.((((((HUGS)))))

"I have worked out, gotten in my protein, water and exercise - and my vitamins."

You DO realize that muscle weighs more than fat, right?  From what you said, I'm gonna suggest that you have gained muscle while losing fat.  That right there would explain the scale not moving while your body has shrunk 2 sizes, right?

There is NOTHING WRONG with losing slowly!  Your skin may benefit from it moreso than those who lose at a more rapid rate! 

As long as the numbers are going in the right direction, BE HAPPY!!! 

Thank you for all the wonderful support.  I do KNOW all of these things, it's just hard to be logical when being so emotional.. LOL

It's a good thing I'm single, because a man would think I was psycho right around now..

Thank you ladies for all of your pearls of wisdom.  Most days I feel much stronger than this. 

At lunch a co-worker took me shopping and I bought a really cute leopard print cardigan.  Size XL.   I feel like a million bucks in it.. That helped improve my mood quite a bit!

Have a wonderful weekend

Stephanie

Are you still going to have PMS tomorrow?   Am I safe if I come to coffee? 

Okay, after having met you - you have such a positive outlook and healthy self attitude, I am surprised by this. But, we all have our days!

Quit questioning your progress. Every body is different. And every metabolism is different. You are most likely losing inches right now, and not necessarily pounds. How many times have we heard you never lose both at the same time? Did you take your measurements so you can see how those numbers are going down?

I think we all doubt if the surgery is working or going to work in the first couple of months - I never had buyer's remorse so to say, but many do. For me, it came months later when I got stuck in a 7 weeks stall. Then I thought "oh great, that's it? I'm done?" - well, low & behold, that wasn't the case.

But, what you need to do in the meantime is keep eating your protein first, drinking your liquids, and taking your vits/supps. And the exercise is helping, but remember, you may also be gaining muscles mass and muscle weighs more than fat. Just put it all in perspective.

Look at how healthy you are getting!!!

Hugs!