Sudden Motivation
For the past 4 months I have seriously been losing and gaining the saem 5 pounds...
Part of me is happy because I think my mind needed some time to catch up to the fact that I lost 130 pounds! That is pretty huge for me. Wearing a 1X shirt is amazing when previously it was a 4X, being able to where a mens XL shirt is awesome, who would have thought! Even people who have known me most of my life, have never seen me at this current weight. I finally am able to look in the mirrow and see that I have lost a lot of weight. Previously, I knew I lost the weight, but I just didn't "see" it when I looked in the mirror.
Part of me is frustrated because I know want to lose more, but have just not had the motivation to do so. I even did a weight loss challenge at work and lost some, but not the 7% I needed to to not have to pay $50. I just don't think I was ready to put the work in. I am happy where I am at, but know I can do more.
So I was sitting here tonight and I told my husband that I think I am ready...ready to start losing again. It suddenly felt right to me, like it was the time for me to get it together and start using my tool again. It felt good!
Ideally, I want to lost another 45 pounds or so. Even though my PCP thinks I could lose another 100 pounds, I think my goal will be 225ish. I am sorry, but 167 is not going to work for me!
Anyway, I just felt like sharing because it feels good to be at a point where I am physically and mentally ready to "get back to work".
Part of me is happy because I think my mind needed some time to catch up to the fact that I lost 130 pounds! That is pretty huge for me. Wearing a 1X shirt is amazing when previously it was a 4X, being able to where a mens XL shirt is awesome, who would have thought! Even people who have known me most of my life, have never seen me at this current weight. I finally am able to look in the mirrow and see that I have lost a lot of weight. Previously, I knew I lost the weight, but I just didn't "see" it when I looked in the mirror.
Part of me is frustrated because I know want to lose more, but have just not had the motivation to do so. I even did a weight loss challenge at work and lost some, but not the 7% I needed to to not have to pay $50. I just don't think I was ready to put the work in. I am happy where I am at, but know I can do more.
So I was sitting here tonight and I told my husband that I think I am ready...ready to start losing again. It suddenly felt right to me, like it was the time for me to get it together and start using my tool again. It felt good!
Ideally, I want to lost another 45 pounds or so. Even though my PCP thinks I could lose another 100 pounds, I think my goal will be 225ish. I am sorry, but 167 is not going to work for me!
Anyway, I just felt like sharing because it feels good to be at a point where I am physically and mentally ready to "get back to work".
~Rose
Lap-RNY 4/2/08
397/373/267/<250
HW/SW/CW/GW
~~~130 POUNDS LOST AND GONE FOREVER~~~
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