feelin down

I have been eating like a pig....... I am so sad....... I just don't know what to do.  My uncle had a stroke yesterday, they took him off all meds except his liquid morphine.  My dad talked to the nurse today and she thought by friday..... My dad is staying with him th whole time.  You guys there is so much crap going on that I haven't mentioned.... some of it is the people taking care of him are using him and there a bunch of  fricken losers....We can't get rid of them because my uncle wants them there I don't think he is aware of there crap.  I discovered some things while I was there and from the second they said Hi to me I couldn't stand em.... WTF...... Anyways my dad is so sad and he is there by himself and I feel so bad I can't be there for them both.  The sadder I get the more I fricken eat...WTF...... Anyways I went and got my haircut tonight 8 inches taken off it is so cute I will update my avie soon......Just needed to vent or let my saddness out or what ever  Thanks guys for all the prayers you guys are the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hugs Marsha 

Hey sweetie-sorry to hear about your uncle.  Food is your drug/coping tool right now-but it is gonna make you get caught in a vicious cycle.  try to do something else-bubble bath, book, craft, walk......talk on the phone.  Make a list of things you dream of.  This will pass, things WILL get better.  You don't need the food!!  good for you for getting a haircut-get a pic up.
hopefully you can get to coffee this weekend and gather some hugs-
til then, take care and love yourself!
~lynn

I am so sorry. It is horrible when there is drama during someone's terminal illness. I have been there -- my best friend was dying from cancer and her divorced parents fought during the whole thing... and one did not allow the other to come to the funeral...

My advice (from experience) is only that... you need to stop thinking about all the F-ers and think ONLY about your uncle. He is the one who needs your undivided healing prayers so that he goes peacefully and surrounded at least by ONE good person.

Keep your mind on him and help your dad keep his mind on his brother. Nothing else matters.

Wow, I'm sorry. I imagine it's really difficult knowing some of his caregivers are not having his best interest at heart and are taking advantage. That's just the lowest of low when people do that to people who are gravely ill.

On a positive note, you sound really UP about your hair, can't wait to see a new picture. Just try to be conscious of when you're eating to comfort yourself, and try to comfort yourself in another way. Lately I've been putting a teeny dab of a fragerance I like under my nose and deep breathing for a few minutes. It's nuts how relaxing it can be.

Keep venting, the more you hold in (if you're like me) the more you'll eat when you're not hungry. Will be thinking of you.

I am thinking of you and saying prayers Marsha!  This is just such hard stuff!    Don't be hard on yourself for eating. Your tool won't let you eat too much.  Just get through the days.  Take deep breaths.  Take good care of you girlie!

Hey Hon!  Just wanted to let you know that you are in my thoughts and prayers!  I am sending you extra warm loving hugs! 

Stress sucks Do you have a therapist? If not, this would be a fantastic chance to get one. Make sure you rely on friends and family - maybe they can get you out of the house to distract you. Can you make a coffee group?

I'm sorry about your uncle.

I know you are going through a rough patch right now. And hope your Uncle finds peace soon. Sending lots of love and hugs your way!