3 month update!!!!

My gosh!  There's so much to say on my 3 month anniversary of my surgery.  Today, I really want to start with the good stuff because I'm very, very happy about the good stuff.

I know I've been losing a lot of inches.  I can't seem to keep up with the new clothing sizes - everytime I dig around in my "small" clothes it seems that something new fits.  And when I put on my current clothes I find myself pulling my pants up all day or seeing myself in a mirror and wondering what I was thinking putting on something that big.

For my 3 month update I took all of my measurements again.  I haven't taken the full set since the night before my surgery.  Overall, I've lost over 26" of fat!  I've lost 4 inches on my bust (I think maybe that is more saggy boobs than anything), almost 7" on my waist, 6 1/2" off my hips, and 2" around me neck.  I've also lost at least a couple of inches of each of my thighs and arms (arms are really hard to tell because my bat wings are going to be gi-normous!)

As I have mentioned to many before, I put my scale away on 8/25 after I *finally* went down to 399 pounds.  I was so frustrated because I weighed 430 on the day of my surgery and it took me 2 1/2 months to lose 30 friggin pounds.  I was so angry and mad that I had to make a commitment to put the scale away and focus on the positive aspects of my life.  And I kept that commitment.  Today, as promised, I got out my scale to weigh myself.  I was expecting based on my previous experience to still be in the 390s but I was hopinig for the 380s.  Drum roll please - my weight this morning was 365!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
While I was not paying attention to my weight loss - I became a member of the century club!  Exactly.  On my 3 month anniversary I have officially lost 100 pounds!!!!!!  I cried.  What everyone said was true - the weight loss starts slow and when it starts it goes like crazy - I've lost another 30+ pounds in less than 3 weeks.  My advice to every other frustrated soul, put your scale away.

Last happy news - I have had *no* physical complications from surgery.  I rarely vomit, nothing has gotten stuck, no other complications.  A little Vitamin D deficiency but that just adds another supplement to my life, nothing major.

On the flip side - I am really struggling with depression since the surgery.  I cry a lot, feel alone and hopeless, get angry, have trouble sleeping, and have no desire to eat or drink or take care of myself.  It is *all* hormonal as a result of the weight loss.  My life has never been better and so the fact that I feel so cruddy is all related to the excess hormones being released as my body loses the pounds.

I have hit the phase of my weight loss where very few things taste good and I rarely want to eat.  I indulge in that desire to not eat too often and I think that has probably contributed to my weight loss as of the last few weeks.  I do my best every day to make the best choices that I can for protein, but a lot of proteins make my stomach spasm and I often end up crying my way through the meal because I get so frustrated that I have to fight my body to do the right thing.  My favorite foods right now are salads with deli meat and cheese in them, tacos and fajitas (especially with sour cream to help the meat go down easier), chili, and carbs (I adore RF cheez-its and baked potato chips and pretzels).  So, as you can see, I really need to work on improving my diet.  Right now, honestly, I'm struggling so much with the depression that I am just happy to eat any foods.  Like I said, I try to make the best choices that I can every day and they're honestly pretty good choices in the end, but there will be room for improvement once I get my emotions under control.

I'm a lot more active than I used to be.  I posted about most of my activity gains in my 10 week post op so I won't repeat them again.  I will need to add a more formal exercise routine to my life - also once I get my emotions under control.

I should mention - I do have an appointment for some medication treatment for the depression in mid-October.  I've been against antidepressants since having bad experiences with them as an adolescent but my life has become extremely difficult with this depression so I'm going to take one until my weight stabilizes.  I cannot live like this.  Hopefully the Dr. will have a cancellation before my appointment because I am only willing to see him since he specializes in mental health issues with post-op WLS people.

First of all WOW you are doing great!!!!!!!
Congrats on the 100lbs.
On the depression note I'm glad you are seeking help! This to shall pass.

Congrats!  You have done an awesome job!  With regards to the carbs, my new therapist told me that carbs a like a natural anti-depressant, which could explain why you gravitate towards them right now.  I do hope you can get in before mid-October, but at least you have the appointment made and I commend you for that.  Hopefully you will have a better experience with the antidepressants this time since very few antidepressants are approved for use in teens and children that could explain the negative reaction you had earlier in your life.  Keep up the great work and I would say you have  earned a reward (maybe a massage, facial, etc) for reaching the Century Club.  Please also feel free to PM me if ever you need to talk!  Love & Hugs!  Nicole

You are doing a TREMENDOUS job!  It is SO helpful to put the evil scale away - you don't get obsessed with it, and when you DO get on it?  YEE-HAW!!!! 

I'm glad that you recognize the depression as being related to the weight/fat/hormone loss you are going through.  It IS chemical, so there should be no shame in finding a chemical remedy until you stabilize. 

CONGRATULATIONS on your loss!  I hope to meet you at some get-together in the future!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!
You are doing a fantastic job.

Congratulations!!! Your doing an amazing job!   Try and give those antidepresants another chance.  I know I had some bad experiences on a few of the medications I tried but once they found the right one things got so much better.     I'm also struggling with my adoration of Cheez-ITS!!!!  They seem to go down to easy and are so yummy but oh so not good for us. 

CONGRATULATIONS on losing so many inches and lbs.!  Joining the CENTURY club at 3 months out is awesome!

Also- I'm glad that you realize that you do need help to get depression under control. Life will be so much more enjoyable when you're not under that black cloud all the time!

Take care, and keep up the great job!

((HUGS))
**SUE**

Thanks everyone!  I'm so excited today by my progress.  I bought cat food yesterday and it was a 17.5 lb. bag.  At the time I remember thinking, I've lost 3, maybe 4 of these.  Now, I step on the scale today and it's really closer to 6!!!  Every time I go to the pet food store I get a cart because the bag is too heavy for me to lug from the back to the front of the store- it really hits home to think that 3 months ago I had nearly 6 of those bags permanently attached to my body.

I'm still in shock - I weighed myself 3 times this morning to make sure that the scale was being honest.  I just can't believe that I weigh 100 pounds less than I did 4 months ago (my starting weight was before my 3 week liquid diet).

I really appreciate all of the support that I have gotten on this board.  I know that I need to start getting to these coffees - I am just *so* not a morning person and I am really sensitve about how much I weigh (even now) although it is getting better.

I met a friend for lunch today and we hugged.  It feels different hugging someone when you have 100lbs. less on your body.  It's cool.  Maybe I will hug more people. 

Congrats on your successful 4 months!! I love that you started with the positive, and actually the depression is also positive because you recognize it and are doing something about it!

         

First, congratulations on losing 100 lbs, that' so great! I hope you get the help you need for the depression, sucks waiting around to see the dr and then waiting a few weeks for the RX to kick in. You'll feel better soon though and you'll be flyin' even higher than you are right now. Again, way to go on the 100lbs, that's a HUGE milestone.