Feeling odd today.........
This weekend I brought the final load of clothes that are too big to Consignment. It was the oddest thing. I carried them in and gave them a final look and went out in the car and cried. It was sad, the only person I have known for many years wore those clothes and I suddenly felt lost. Some days I don't recognize the person in the mirror but I certainly could relate to the person that wore those larger clothes. I never let my life be controlled by the size I was and never felt I missed out on job opportunities or friendships because of my size but there was a final closure to the person that wore those clothes. She was gone in body but not in my mind. I love the new person I have become but don't really recognize her yet. Bought some size 4's this weekend and I certainly don't know that person. I thought as the size went down the realization of the new person would begin, but I guess where the head is involved it takes a lot longer.
Bonnie
Bonnie
Wow Bonnie, what a thought provoking post. I bet that was really hard to do. Everything takes time and I bet, given some time, you will feel more comfortable with the new you.
I have to think about this for a while...it made me sad.
I have to think about this for a while...it made me sad.
~ SANDY ~ 5'9" HW 291/SW 274/GW 174/CW 155
Starting BMI 40.4 Extremly Obese ~ Current BMI 22.8 Normal
Oh Bonnie I can so relate to you!! Only difference is it was when I cut the last of my fine, straggly hair off a few weeks back. It was the last of my hair left before surgery that was a little longer. Now I have short hair~ as you can see in my avatar and before surgery my hair was to the middle of my back. I cut it and cried after~ all I could think about was the "old" me was gone forever and this new me is here and I don't know her at all. All Iknow is I hope my brain catches up with all of this soon! I haven't gotten rid of my clothes yet just because I want to have a garage sale. But I am sure that will also effect me!
Kristi
Kristi
Oh Bonnie....I am sooooo glad you posted this!!
I feel exactly the same way. I am so glad to be thin but I do morn the other part of me. It is hard to believe and adjust to all this.
Will our heads ever get this straight??
I was so happy at a size 4.....now my 3's are too big and I had to buy some 0's (jrs). What next...girls department?? That is kind of scary.
My weight is maintaining but I am still losing inches.
When you get this figured out let me know...LOL.
Hugs, connie d
I feel exactly the same way. I am so glad to be thin but I do morn the other part of me. It is hard to believe and adjust to all this.
Will our heads ever get this straight??
I was so happy at a size 4.....now my 3's are too big and I had to buy some 0's (jrs). What next...girls department?? That is kind of scary.
My weight is maintaining but I am still losing inches.
When you get this figured out let me know...LOL.
Hugs, connie d
Hey Bonnie... thanks for that post... it was truely thought-provoking.
I am starting to feel the same way and it's such a scary feeling for me.
I am starting to feel the same way and it's such a scary feeling for me.
Bonnie, you are doing an INCREDIBLE job with your WLS!!! I get the whole losing your former self mentality. When that's the only YOU you've known, it's pretty scary! But you are still Bonnie, just smaller, healthier, and happier! It's all good!
I mean, just think how much less wind drag you create when you're out on the BIKE??!! WOO HOO!!!!! IT'S ALL GOOD, BABY!!!
Come to MG Saturday so I can see if I can lift you up - I KNOW I'll never be a 4 - hell, I'll be doin' my giddy happy dance when I can squeeze my ass into 14's!!!
I mean, just think how much less wind drag you create when you're out on the BIKE??!! WOO HOO!!!!! IT'S ALL GOOD, BABY!!!
Come to MG Saturday so I can see if I can lift you up - I KNOW I'll never be a 4 - hell, I'll be doin' my giddy happy dance when I can squeeze my ass into 14's!!!
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