Friday 7/11 Today I will....

Is all I have to say is TGIF!  This has been a long week and I am excited for the weekend as I get to show off at a bbq/reunion for my college theatre department.  Only 3 of the people there know I had the surgery, but none of them have seen me.  I look a lot better than I ever did in college even though I weight just a little less than I did back then.  Any way, here we go for the day.  Today I will....get in 100 ounces of water/CL, stick to meal plan, do some upper body weight training, go grocery shopping, do laundry, prepare food for tomorrow, elevate & ice ankle, and to bed before midnight.  Yesterday I... get in at least 100 ounces of water/CL--I think I just barely eeked by, eat only what is on my meal plan today--I did add an extra snack because I stayed up so late I got hungry, but I made a good choice and stayed within my limits, go to doctor's appointment (hopefully nothing major is wrong w/my ankle/foot)--nope, but talked to PA on the phone, exercise (if unable to run will do pilates dvd)--did pilates dvd, work on knitting or painting tonight to keep me occupied (with anything other than food)--made some good progress on a dish towel!, do laundry--nope rested my ankle, and get to bed before midnight--almost again, but in my defense I was waiting to see if Musa would call when he got off work at 11:00 pm.

Good morning everyone, sorry I don't post on here all the time...... Today I will:                            Yesterday I did: Drink 80 oz.                                     80oz. Eat 3 meals, protein 1st                     Yep did this and lost 1 pound Be mindfull of what I eat                   Yep, protein baby........ Walk/bike 2 times                             I walked outside between rain drops Hot tea in the morning really get's me going........I'm down another pound.....yay.... I'm setting small goals of 5 pounds, rather than look at the 18 I want to loose. My goal is to loose 5 pounds this month, I want to weigh 145 by July 31st. I'll  keep you posted...... Have a wonderful day everyone.....I'm meeting my very good friend Diane for dinner tonight. Yay...........

Morning Kel! What type of tea are you drinking??  And wtg getting back on track!!! Have fun with Di tonight... give each other hugs from me!  lol

Lori, Well it's not decaff.....It's just good old Lipton tea bags. I drink 3 cups every morning before I eat breakfast, so it fills me up a bit, plus makes me pee......... Kelly

I felt like a failure yesterday.  *sigh*  My eating was out of control... I think... ah hell I KNOW, part of it is I was approved the time to go to my 30th reunion and I'm scared ****less!  I was the whale in high school... voted the girl most likely to....  I turned to sex to make the guys like me...  I've gained so much self confidence but these old ghosts are coming back to haunt in DROVES! I'm scared of the crowds... I'm scared of looking like a fool when I can't remember anyones name... I'm scared of being approached like we were in school I'm afraid of what I'll do if I am.. gawds I"m a basket case...  ARGH!!! TGIF!  I can take a piece of the weekend to reflect and try to get back on track...  gotta call the shrink today too!!!  lol Today I WILL! - drink liquids     *20oz coffee     *20oz coffee - eat right and track my intake     * Pure Protein bar     * - vitamins     AM: check
    PM: - exercise Steps:     Mon - 14119     Tues - 16189     Wed - 13789     Thurs - 9029     Fri -     Sat -     Sun - Yesterday I: - drink liquids     *20oz coffee     *20oz coffee     * more coffee and about 3-18oz CLs - eat right and track my intake     * let's not go there... yesterday was a wash...  We took Mikey (the grandson) out to eat for his 6th birthday.  I had ice cream and carrot cake and cherry crisp...  an ice cream cone on the way to work... a piece of chocolate at work (didn't even think about it, just popped it in my mouth!) I was so damn disgusted at myself all night!  I felt out of control though. - vitamins     AM: check
    PM: check - exercise     not much - I didn't make even 10k steps as I missed my walk.  as soon as I"m done here I"m going to high tail it out to the road.  I felt like crap and was stiff all day too!

Lori~Big Hugs!!!  Remember today is a new day and what happened yesterday is in the past learn from it (which it sounds like you already have) and move on.  I agree that all of the stress about going to your class reunion could definitely throw you into a tailspin.  I think it is a good thing to go see your therapist, perhaps he/she could help you talk through some of this so it becomes less overwhelming.  I had my 10 year last year I was worried, and it didn't go that well,  HOWEVER this year I went out to the beer garden and socialized away with people I saw.  I have a feeling that you are such a different person now that you will do wonderful!  I think you will blow them all away with your hot new body! I hope you have a better day today!

Yes, I have to move on...  and WILL!  That's going to be my POWER WORD!!  lol ok off to walk and then to pay for the animal spays and pick up a little gift for the grand daughter... then off to work!  I'm going to bring a notebook and make a list of GOOD FOODS that I can reach for.  Also have to make some phone calls.  It'll be a good day!!! Stay comfy down there...  It's freezing up here!  i've got jeans and a sweater on!!  BRR!! *hugs*

Lori, Don't beat yourself up.......We all have those days.......Plus instead of a cone we used to eat the whole pint......... Looks like your back on track today.......Enjoy your walk...... Kelly

be careful on that ankle hun!!! Have fun at your reunion!  You are going to blow them away!!! *hugs*

Thank you!  I am trying to stay off it as much as possible, if only I had a printer at my desk so I didn't have to hobble up and down the aisle so much!