7/02 Today I will....

Well, today did not start off on a good note for me as I am not sure if I forgot to set or turned off without my alarm without actually waking up, but I woke up at 6:35, which is normally about the time I am getting dressed after having gotten mostly ready, so I had to boogie to get myself ready for work this morning, luckily I managed to get ready and get here in time, but forgot all of my vitamins and pills.  So, I will take my vitamins when I get home tonight, but will have to chalk today up as an oops day with my pills (can't take them after 3 pm because they are stimulating and I wouldn't be able to sleep).   Last night I started talking with another guy *****sponded to my profile and we really seemed to hit it off.  He made me laugh, which I think is a good thing because laughter is a key part of life, and we seemed to have several things in common.  Tonight is my date with another guy I met so we will see how that goes.  I am keeping myself open to dating different people, because I learned what can happen when you just settle for the first person who pays attention to you (7 years of unhappiness).  Well, enough chatter, I had best set some goals for the day.  Today I will...drink at least 100 ounces of water/CL (but more water), exercise (depending on the heat I am not sure if I will go out for a run or stay in and do a dvd), be mindful of what and how fast I am eating (noticed yesterday that I was just mindlessly shoveling food into my mouth, not a good thing), remain self-confident while out on date (do not become a "shrinking violet"), finish packing for the weekend, and get to bed by/before midnight.  Yesterday I...get in at least 100 oz of water/CL--nope only got in about 80 oz, make wise food choices--not such a good day yesterday, exercise (not sure what depending on the weather it maybe something inside)--nope after going to follow-up appt for contacts, getting oil changed, picking up presciption & new shoes it was time for dinner and then it was too late, journal my food--not so good, only tracked the first half of they day, go to my check up for my contacts--yup, have to go back again as my dr is going to try a brand new contact for my left eye that is the same material as the one for my right eye, pick up prescription refill--yup, almost forgot again, but I did get it,do laundary--yup, needed to wash new outfit for tonight and some clothes for this weekend, and be in bed by or before midnight--nope ended up in bed around 12:30 or so, but then woke up every hour for the first 3 hours so that may be why I overslept.

GOOD morning!  Looks to be another wonderful day out there.  The dogs will let me know when I let them in  lol  They had me up at 6 again.  Sure hope they learn to sleep in later next week or I'm going to be one tired clerk...  Hope everyone has a great hump day - actually past that for many with the holiday on Friday!! Stay cool!! Nicole - we can play it by ear, that works just fine.  With Hinckley only a bit over an hour away I can jet down with a couple hours notice  :) Today I WILL: - liquids     * 20oz coffee     * 18oz CL     * 20oz coffee     * 18oz CL     * 18oz water - make good food choices and track them     * 1/4C Broccoli cheese soup
    * small piece watermelon
    * 1x1" piece carrot cake
    * 1/4C orange chicken
    * 1 bite canteloupe
    * 1/2 slice bread
    * 3 SF chocolates     * 1/2 chicken wing     * 3 pieces fried cauliflower     * 1 cream cheese wonton     * 1 piece S&S chicken     * 1/4C fried rice... maybe... not that much     * 1/4C subgum - Vitamins!!     AM: check     PM: check - exercise STEPS     Mon = 6901
    Tues = 8415
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    Sun Yesterday I: - drink my liquids     damn near drowned!!  lol     * 20 oz coffee     * 18oz CL     * 20 oz coffee     * 18oz CL
    * 18oz CL     * 32oz half strength CL     * 32oz water     * 8oz coffee     * 8oz CL                 48oz coffee
                32oz plain water
                94oz CL

- make good food choices and track them here     * south beach meal bar
    * small amount of steak
    * some mixed vegys
    * 2 small pieces fish
    * 1 SF toffee
    * handful of potato chips
    * popsicle
- exercise (notice I didn't say walk??  lol)     actually I did manage to go for a walk  lol  was a good thing too as we were out running around trying to get the boat set and then Brett's truck blew an axle...  That kid is a motorized jinx... STEPS     Mon = 6901
    Tues = 8415
    Wed
    Thurs
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    Sun
- Vitamins
    AM: check!     PM: check!
- do something I really enjoy!     I fell asleep in the sun - went down to work to say hi and get my badge so I'm official again - took out my beads and made some stitch markers - watched 2 episodes of SG-1 and knit on the baby blanket!

Wow!  Great job on the liquids yesterday and a good thing too with as warm as it was!  Also keep up the great work with your steps, you are doing a good job.   I used to watch SG-1 a lot, but haven't in a long time and now it is so messed up I can't get back into the storyline!  I hope you have a great day and keep on a chuggin' that liquid on warm days like today!

I hate when I over sleep!  It screws up your schedule for the entire day it seems!  Hope yours goes good and things settle down ok!! I'm looking forward to the report on your date!  I hope you have a great time and get to chatter and laugh and enjoy each other!  It's nice to have a couple different guys interested!  Good for you!! I too settled for the first thing that came along... my first husband I was so boggled by... I was 14 when we met and he was 23.  ok, I have no clue why my folks let me go out with him.  He was an alcoholic and abusive.  He died 10 years into our marriage because of the booze.  Roger is my second hubby and between the two is the better.  We both basically quit drinking although will have a couple here and there (he has more than a couple "when allowed") I still think I'm better off single right now though.  I met Roger when I was divorcing from Bruce right before he died.  I went back to college and he was that dark glasses bad boy back in the corner...  Why am I attracted to bad boys???  lol    Anyhow, he was nice to me and we hooked up.  Been "interesting" ever since  :) where did that come from??  lol Be careful in this heat.  I know just walking I'm extra thirsty!  ok need to go let dogs in before the yorkie barks herself hoarse!  HEY!  maybe she'd shut up then!!  lol *hugs*

Lori~Yeah, I settled for the first person I ever went out on a date with (I was in college--never dated in HS) and in a time in my life when I had no clue who I was let alone what was good for me.  That turned into 7 years of being controlled and mentally/verbally abused and kept from my family because my ex-had me basically brainwashed to think that they did not love me.  So, I am planning on taking things slow, getting to really know anyone before I commit to any type of relationship and dating more than just one person so I can choose who I might want to pursue a relationship with rather than settling.  This whole attention from multiple guys is mind blowing sometimes, because growing up I was the teenager who cried and cried because I never got a date let alone a real dance at school dances (boys danced with me based on "dares" or to make fun).  I think that my life is like a whole new story now though as I have good mental health (for the first time since I was an adolescent), self-confidence and physical health/activity.  My day has settled down a little bit already, although I still feel a bit off.  Oh, well back to work I go...hey at least today is like Thursday for me!

Nicole..you are my hero. I am so afraid to go dating... or try online dating. Maybe once I hit 200lbs...lol. You are my hero and you are rocking your life!

Thank you Elena!  I did not actually feel really comforatable about dating until just recently.  I think part of my excitement and courage comes from realizing that I wasted the first 27 years of my life and I feel like I am playing catch up in a way.  I am a bit nervous about this whole dating thing that is starting to happen in my life, but I think I would be a fool if I weren't.  That and I have only ever gone out on 3 dates in all 29 years of my life and 1 I threw away 7 years of my life being with, the other 2 were so random and I was so unstable that they really don't count.   I am glad that I can be an inspiration to you, you my dear are doing absolutely wonderful with this tool.  Keep on a working it and as you melt away the confidence grows sort of without you even knowing until someone points it out to you (at least that is how it happended for me).   Love & Hugs!  Nicole

Yep it's me I'm back.......Since my nurse appt. I've been on track.....It was a little rocky on vacation but kept focused as good as possible........... Today I will:                                         Yesterday I did: Drink 60-80 oz.                                      80 oz. Eat 3 meals, protein 1st                          Did this 80g. protein Be mindfull of what I eat                        only had 1 snack, granola bar walk/jog on treadmill twice                      did once but weeded my veegie garden It's good to be back in control....... Love & Hugs, Kelly

WoooHooo!  Look at you go!  Way to get back on the trail and keep on a goin'!  Glad to have you back and hear that weeding the garden is actually a pretty good exercise!

*big grin* Welcome back!!  I'm so happy that your nurse was able to help you out and get you back on the path  :)  That is great!! How was vacation?? *hugs*