I just saw pictures of me and I'm shocked

I saw pictures of me at my aunts wedding in Minneapolis 2 weeks ago and I'm floored. I looked horrible. I was huge, my whole body. I had a huge double chin, and my arms were giant and so was the rest of me. I wish someone would have told me I looked so bad. The pictures showed how thin my hair is - it was just gross. You could see my scalp in patches. I honestly thought I looked ok. People are right - you need to look at pictures to notice the difference. The 15 pounds I've put on have made big change. I'm very disappointed in myself. I guess this is another topic I'll have to bring up next week at therapy. But right now I look as bad as I feel. I didn't think I'd ever say that again.

You did not look bad!!!!  You looked fantastic!!!!  It may have been the lighting at the wedding but I didn't see any scalp patches!!!  I'm not kidding -- you looked fabulous!!! Don't be so hard on yourself!!!!  We are our own worst critic once the weight comes off.  We don't see the thin everyone else does -- your head is behind again!!!>>>>  REALLY!!!!! XXOO

Thanks! I guess I just didn't think I would ever feel fat again. Not a great feeling and brought back some old issues. Hugs, Farrah

I agree with Barb...we are our own worst critics.   You are right that you would feel better to take off that 15 lbs.......but the rest was probably the lighting or the way you were standing.  I'm not making excuses for you....we all are way too hard on ourselves.  Look how far you have come since surgery.  :O)

I agree with Barb also....  Look at how far you have come.  You are way to hard on yourself........  Hugs to you hun!!!!!!! 

(((Farrah))) Be kind to yourself right now. You are working through some things and you are getting back on track. Take pride in that and just keep putting one foot in front of the other. You can do this - I know you can!!! And since you are associating negative feelings when you look at that picture, do yourself a big favor & toss it out! Seriously. It is not going to do you any good by continuing to look at it right now. Many people have worn wigs and there are some that are absolutely wonderful for bariatric patients. If your hair is bothering you, there is a fix. I know there is also a spray that some have used that is like a scalp color. I cannot recall the name, but maybe this site can help you get started. http://www.onlyhairloss.com/glh/?source=google Again, be kind to yourself and know in your heart you are on the right path!

Honey I saw you and you were not those things you describe...this might be somthing to talk about with a therapist... you looked good when I saw you.. and I wouldnt just say it.   I wouldnt have posted anything if I agreed with what you saw. Hugs

Thanks Linda Anne.  I will definitely address with my therapist when I go to see her next week.  This process is just so HARD!