Coming Clean - long

I posted this to my profile this morning but I felt it was "raw" enough to share with all of you. I don't need a butt kicking (already did that myself) and I don't need encouragement. I just need you to keep praying because my appeal gets sent to BCBS tomorrow and I want to hear the words "You're approved" from them after this appeal! Thanks everyone. I adore each of you! xoxo - Amy In January 2008, I was so focused on doing everything right before surgery and as the months went on, I felt I was doing pretty well. But this past month has just not been good. I have not been following my NUT's plan and I have gone back to carb laden meals, snacking, drinking caffeine, etc. And the worst part is I have no excuses. Sure, I could make up as many as I want, but why? It will not get me anywhere. So, I admitted getting off track to my sweet friend Linda Anne (who I met on OH btw) and she put me back on track. She helped me realize that my pre surgery eating habits will dictate what I will deal with after surgery, so I need to get back on track now before I get too out of hand. I really appreciate having a post op to talk to about this because I know she is speaking from experience.

So last night, I hung out with some DS surgery friends and found out how to eat like a post op DS'er. That was really, really helpful. It also helped that it was almost like a support group meeting because we sat and talked about surgery and living with your DS after surgery. They all answered my questions and eased my fears. I came away from there knowing that no matter what BCBS comes back with after my appeal, that I still know I've picked the right surgery for me and I will keep fighting.

This morning I woke up and my oldest son said "mom, I'll get dressed and you can make my breakfast". LMAO! He is typically not demanding so I just chuckled and said "well, what can I make for the King this morning?" His answer was bacon and eggs. I love this boy! He's loves protein and I just pray it continues so he never has the weight problems I've had. So he had his breakfast and I started my day off with a Cappucino Delight SlimFast shake and 3 all natural sausage links. So far so good!

I wrote out an index card for this week. It says "You're on a mission to save your life. Take it one meal at a time. No snacks. Your surgery day is coming."
I've got it up on my fridge and on my pantry door. I also have one in my purse so I can take it to work with me tomorrow.

Cutting the carbs again & cutting the caffeine back out! I can do this.

Amy, I'm praying for your appeal to go through......And good for you for getting your eating habits back on track.....It will make it easier once you have the surgery.....  Kelly

Thanks Kel! Can't wait to see you on Friday evening!!!

Amy, Sorry, I won't be there Friday, I'll be in Florida.......I get to see Randy Wednesday though..... See you in July......Kelly

You will be just fine..... I know it and believe in you !!!!!!!!!!! Much love to you

Amy, You know we are all here rootin' for you and just holding our breath so we can scream in joy when the "APPROVED" stamp comes back! My prayers and positive thoughts going up!

Awww, Lori, thank you SO much!!!

Amy, I'm so proud of you for getting yourself back on track!  It's so easy to get off track, pre-op and post-op.  And so hard to get back on track.  So, good for you! Let us know the answer.  You know you have a LOT of prayers being said for you!  Find comfort in the fact that you are well loved. Debi

Debi - thank you. I will definitely keep the board posted on that appeal. Technically they have until 7/7 to turn it around, but I'm hoping to know within a week. Lots of positive thinking, right?!