6/18 Today I will...

Good Morning!  Today is a new day and I am thankful for that because last night was not such a good night for me.  I have to admit that I grazed all night and I know this was not a good thing to do.  I did manage to figure out why though and it is because my dinner was what I would normally have for a lunch and so I didn't feel satisfied.  Also I was stressing because my returned deposti from my last apartment was a lot less than I had expected (I had forgotten how much I paid last year).  But today is a new day and I will begin again so here goes.  Today I will...get in all 100 ounces of water, take vitamins when I get home, go and get labs drawn, be a mindful eater, go to yoga, no eating after 8:00 pm and get to bed a whole lot earlier.  Yesterday I...drink at least 100 ounces of water before 9:00 pm--nope I think I only got in 80 or so ounces, go to C2 yoga class at 6:30--didn't want to fight the Twins crowd and had some things I needed to get done, go to contact check up--yup I have to go in in another week to try a contact that is a slightly weaker power, be mindful of my eating--not so good, and get to bed a little earlier--I actually ended up going to bed later (I think due to the grazing all night). 

It's another beautiful day and I'm looking forward to enjoying it.  I, too, hope to have a better day than yesterday.  I was pushing myself all day to keep up with my plan, but my body just didn't want to cooperate.  It seems better today so hopefully that will help.  Today I will...1) drink at least 64oz. of water, 2) talk with surgery center about a few post-op questions including about moving to week 2 foods a day early since I'm so sick of milk and things mixed with milk, 3) continue to take all medications, vitamins, and supplements, 4) take 1-2 brief walks and walk around at least 1-2 stores with DH tonight.  Yesterday I...1) develop a schedule for eating, water consumption, vitamin taking and stick to it - nope, my insides protested all day and I eventually went back to clear liquids because I got tired of fighting with my body.  2) go for 2 different 30 minute walks to try to build up my stamina - I went for one walk that I thought would be "pushing" it but ended up being a bit more than I could handle.  Didn't recover from that walk and so it ended up being the only one.  3) make a grocery shopping list for tomorrow night since I start solids on Friday and have other plans for Thursday night (woo hoo!) - no set list yet, but some ideas and I'll continue to work this through today.  4) cave in and take a sleep aid tonight since I haven't been taking any pain meds during the day but am not sleeping restfully at night - took 2 Tylenol PM last night and BOY was this helpful!

From reading your day yesterday it looks like you are really trying to push yourself, I actually found it helpful to ease into things during the first two weeks after surgery and went for more frequent smaller walks during the day.  Remember with the restricted intake you don't have the same amount of energy going into your body, plus your body is working to adapt to and repair everything from surgery.  I think it is great that you are really working to get into a routine, but remember everything takes time.  I hope today goes better for you!

I'm so very happy that today is a new and beautiful day!!  The sun is shining and there are so many things to be thankful for!  I need strength to deal with the husband and our collapsing marriage.  I need his absolute negativism out of here so that I can start living again.  It's time. Today I WILL: - chart my food intake by editing this post throughout the day        *awake at 9am        *breakfast at 1030 on the way to the vet with sick puppy - 2/3 protein bar and coffee        *1130 - 20oz water        *2:00 - 1/2 mandarin chicken wendy's salad        *3:00 - water        *6:00 - 1 taco, 2 ole's        *8:00 - water        *   - drink water - take my evening vitamins at about 5-6pm - walk - contact a lawyer about the kids' house and my marriage Yesterday I: - eat NO fried food     Breakfast was a protein bar and then we ended up running to get puppies and I had about 4 bites of a subway wrap (didn't sit well)... and then some salt and vinegar chips (those went down ok) - I had 2 bites of a Dairy Queen hotdog and that didn't set well either so had a little kid's vanilla cone.  that went fine... - drink plenty of water     I did ok on this but as always, could do better. - vitamins especially the evening ones!!!     Went to bed and totally forgot again.  I'm going to take them earlier today - walk!!     Did this!

Lori~Good for you for realising that you do not need your husbands constant negativism.  I do hope that you are able to find yourself in a place of happiness and love again!  Yes it is so wonderful to have a new chance again today to accomplish what we set out to do.  I am certain that today will be a better day!  I think it is great that you are going to track your foods here.  I think I may go back to that as well, and just not be as concerned with the number of calories (I was becoming a bit obssessed) simply to hold myself accountable.  Have a great day and enjoy the warm sunshine!  Love & hugs! Nicole