I cried the whole time....

I went to my sister's yesterday for another birthday celebration and I cried the whole time.  They had all the foods I loved and couldn't eat.  I was totally feeling sorry for myself and wondering what I had done to myself.  Tell me it gets better.  I'm really struggling this weekend.  Maybe it's just cause I'm sick of the liquids...I don't know.  I know that this is the path I have chosen and I know it's the right one but it doesn't make it any easier.... Robyn

OF COURSE it gets alot easier... honey your so new right now that that was just torture to you. Im not gonna go into all the psychological stuff, because its food's hold on us. Just take a momment and think... " I was crying my eyes out over food"

Seems kinda silly if you think about it... I promise that one day the event you go to will be way more important then whats on the table. Im not downplaying what you felt... I felt it almost everyone here has.  But you had this surgery to save your life...  Its just food..you have tasted it before..know all about it.    This too shall pass...  Youll be ok..  :) Linda

Hey Robyn.... It gets better.  ALOT better.  These first few weeks are tough while you're healing and on liquids.  You will eat real food again.  And you soon will start to see results on the scale.  That will be totally worth it. Hang in there and remember you won't be on liquids forever - soon you'll be eatiing again and feeling great....and melting!!!

Robyn- I, too, cried like this when I was on liquids.  My hubby and son went to Subway to get dinner and I was the lucky one who got to sit with it on her lap all the way home.  The smell from the bread jsut got to me.  I WANTED IT BADLY!!!!  We got home and I started bawling.....and crawled up in my bed.  My hubby came to find out what was wrong.  I told him and he felt sooooooooooooooooooo bad.  He said that that was the guiltiest he'd ever felt in his life.  I am only about three months out now, but looking back at that incident makes me feel a little silly.  I was that upset over a sub sandwich.....REALLY???  Yes, I was....but I survived and am down a hundred plus pounds since I started this journey.  That to me is SO MUCH bigger than that one little (footlong!) sandwich.   This too shall pass.....and you have made a decision for your health!  I hope you can look at it that way, rather than the few things you might miss along the way.   Keep your head up, you'll be off those liquids soon!  Jeanne

It really does get better GF!!!  Right now between the knock out drugs for the sugery, to the pain pills, to the hormone release as fat gives them up, you are soooo normal.  It can take up to 30 days to get all the drugs out of your system.   The food at the gathering is NOT food you can't have ever again.....You just can't have it right now.  You will eventually be able to have food again, you'll just have to make smaller and different choices.  It's funny how your mind set will change once you do start eating instead of drinking your food. Stay strong -- it does get soooo much better.  You'll start dropping the weight and not even want the food -- you'd rather see the scale go down than to eat it.  This will happen.

XXOO 

I agree with everyone's posts.  After my surgery I became severely depressed.  I had my doc up my antidepressent.  I told all my family and friends how much I regretted having the surgery and called my surgeon's office to ask if it could be undone.  I was a wreck.  But as soon as I was able to eat my first bite - scrambled egg - my attitude started to change.  I just desperately needed to chew, I needed some substance, I needed the meds to be out of my system, I needed to get some sleep, I needed to be pain-free.  It took maybe 6 weeks for me to start to feel less emotional and more "human" again. Hang in there.  You will get to eat again, you will enjoy food again, but not because you can eat 10,000 calories at a sitting, but because you will learn to savor every bite.  You will learn to be in control over your food, and not have food controlling you.  Perhaps when we get some sunshine that will help too! Hugs, Debi

Hi Robyn - Hang in there.  I know what you're going through.  I'm on Day 4 of my LD and two nights ago I did a lot of crying as well.  It's *so* hard to change our eating behaviors - especially at the beginning when we don't have too much else to comfort us.  I told myself that it was OK to cry it out - I know that I'm going through a grieving process and that it will work itself out in time.  I also try to remind myself that I don't know what, if anything, I'll *never* be able to eat again or even what I will really care if I don't eat it again. The celebrations are the hardest part.  I'm glad that I don't have anything like that to go to for the next few weeks.  I've already determined that while I am on this LD that I am going to avoid anything and everything food related.  I don't go to lunch with my co-workers, I try to stay busy with projects around the house and tell my husband to eat when I'm not around.  I know that I'm really fortunate in that I can avoid all of this stuff for several weeks or I would be doing a lot more crying.  For now though, I would try to avoid as much as you can until you feel stronger. 

Aw hon I swear it gets so much better.  You just had the surgery and of course it's all new right now.  This too will pass.  Before long, you will start to feel "normal" again.  Just give it time.  This is just the adjustment period, plus your pouch is healing so that is top priority.  And when you start FEELING healthier and seeing the results, you will be reminded why you did this and you'll be so grateful you did.   Hang in there! (((Hugs))) Michelle

Hi!  Everyine has said it all already!  I, too, was like you.  This is an aadjustment and it will get better!  Just hang in there! (((Hugs)))

Hi Robyn, I'm very sorry you're grieving the 'highs' previously obtained by former food choices.  I fortunately never experienced that, which I attribute to having establish a healthy rapport with my phychologist who I'd been seeing a year prior to my PCP even recommending WLS.  It was only when I'd mentioned pending WLS to my psychologist, did she say that WLS is her specialty!  I was so relieved, having had already established a professional relationship with her, and she knew enough about my general idiosyncracies to provide additional 'head' to food information I hadn't obtained more specific on my own or even from my surgeon's staff.  I had lap RNY two years ago July 25, and am eternally grateful for continued ongoing therapy with her, as each month there are new issues I've learned to nip in the bud.  IMHO, I believe each and every individual contemplating WLS establish a therapeutic rapport with a licensed psychologist who specializes in WLS.  I want to cite this, particularly for anyone seeing this post, who may be contemplating or in the beginnins phase of the process.  These surgical tools are not the 'end all be all', and we each (have) had our own emotional numbing from overeating plus making uninformed unhealthy dietary choices.  We're each individual 'works in progress', and it would be prudently advantageous to seek professional help in dealing with the gamut of emotions left un-numbed by previously turning to food.  Therapy, regular excercise, and especially attending support groups are healthy alternatives to dwelling on the food obsessions we've each felt during this amazing fantastic life-time journey.  I'm expressing this straight to the point and sincerely hope any person will be somewhat enlightened in a helpful matter toward self-healing both physically and emotionally. I wish the best of the best for you sweetie!  One thing that helped me during the full liquid phase was being creative with powder spices:  adding poultry seasoning to strained cream of chicken, celery, or mushroom soups:  tasted like Thanksgiving dressing! I bought a lot of Gerber 2nd phase baby foods:  added cinnamon to the applesauce, and tasted like apple pie!  Added nutmeg to the peaches--tasted like peach pie.  Additions for the vanilla CIB, included raspberry extract, or lemon, almond, or peppermint.  Here are some tasty suggestions to expand the palate, thus hopefully helping you not to feel deprivation of former favorite comfort foods.  Once you're able to eat scrambled eggs, try whisking in a titch of vanilla and Splenda, and it will taste like egg custard pudding.  Ahen you're allowed tuna, add any of the following:  garlic powder, celery seed, dry mustard, paprika, tumeric, and/or parsley.  This is long, although I'm merely trying to be positive and helpful.  All the best to you, hugs galore, Patti