Please say some prayers
Lori,
You are loved - by me, and many others here on OH and elsewhere in your life. All I can offer you are prayers for strength to get through this painful time, and peace to accept that your mother will end up in a place WAY better than she's in now. I hope you can be there with her to give her YOUR peace and strength. I know that being with my dad when he passed was quite probably THE most precious moment in my life, even more than giving birth to my kids. I will never forget it.
Sending hugs your way...
Imperfect does not = unsuccessful