Update on me....

For those of you interested.... Dr has now doubled my AD.  And even tho I had pnemonia 2 weeks ago I haven't been able to quit smoking....although I did for the 10 days that it took me to recover...only to start again.  She won't give me Chantix yet.     And she is rechecking my thyroid again.  And I go back in 4 weeks again....I wonder if this depression will ever get better.  And I've gained again...she thinks because of the depression.  Exercise will help that.  But I can't get a membership until the 23rd of the month because of finances.   I am being reffered to an endocrinologist for blood sugars.  They are all over the board.   My ex is fighting the child support issue.  We go to court in JULY. My daughter has strep again, which means she will have her tonsils removed as soon as I get that refferal.  I mean after school is out.   Well....hopefully the medication will help....I'll be back when I feel up to it....BUT on a positive note....things at our new home (we've been here since Dec) are going well...we have a few really good friends now.  And they have been wonderful in helping me being a single mom and all.  I am blessed to have such great new neighbors now that I have met them.  It is hard to get neighbors that will hold up to my dear Sandie. NOT looking for any sympathy here, just wanted to update you all.  I do watch the boards, just don't reply due to my current situation. I wish you all well....and hope to return with a better outlook on my life and my future.

Lots of hugs to you Paula!

Looking at what you have going on I can understand why you have depression. You have a lot of things going on in your life. Cut yourself some slack. Having very recently being there myself I understand how hard it is. It will get better in time. The first thing you have to do is be good to yourself. I believe everything happens for a reason, sometimes it is not always clear what that reason is, but in time you will see it. You will come out a stronger person on the other side. I have. I am going to add you to my friends list, if you ever need a sounding board for whats going on pm me, I will answer. You will be in my thoughts and prayers

Paula, You have a LOT going on right now.  Being a single parent is tough - I know.  I've been one since 1990 - 18 years now.  And I'm sure there are others on the board as well.  Feel free to pick my brain any time!  What little I have left, is yours for the taking!  Having your blood sugars off kilter can cause depression too.  So once they get you regulated as far as blood sugars and thyroid, hopefully that will help with the depression.  Don't beat yourself up over a few pounds - keep posting.  We're here for you.  Please let us know how you are doing and how things are going for you! HUGS, Debi

Paula~I am sorry to hear that things are not getting any better in your life.  I know right now it feels like the depression will never go away, but there is a medication or combination of medications that will work for you!  It took them almost 4 years to get mine figured out.  Your doctor is right the depression could very likely be causining your weight gain because it slows down your whole body, including your metabolism.  I know that the exercise will also help with your depression because it creates endorphines that make you feel good.  If you can't get a gym membership maybe try going for a walk, even if it is just around the block at least you got up and moved and got some fresh air and sunshine (depending on the day) as well.  I will keep you in my prayers and I do hope your doctor is able to find the right AD for you.  Love & Hugs!  Nicole

It just makes me crazy all the tests they have to run to get something right!   Try this, try that, back again, another copay. All that stuff can make anyone depressed.  Hang in there sweetie summer is apon us and the days are sunny and beautiful. ((((((((HUGS)))))))

Paula....I hope the meds help. I will be keeping you in my prayers! (((((((((PAULA))))))))) Huge hugs........connie d

(((((((((((((((Paula)))))))))))))))))))  So sorry to hear things are going so crappy right now.  Keep your head up hon, it WILL get better.  I'm glad they are taking a look at why your blood sugars are bouncing all over the place, once they figure that out and get the cause treated that will most likely help the depression.  Sorry to hear Tyrannasaurus EX is being an a**....is he not being made to pay anything until then?  Aren't the courts wonderful?!  GRRRR As far as the exercise is concerned.  Now that the weather is finally getting better, start walking, that will help more than you could imagine.   Then once you have the funds join a gym or something.  But to just be out moving will lift your spirits.   Hope to see you soon darlin...you better be at the next NB Coffee!  Gotta get my Paula hug in...it's been too long!

Paula ~~ so sorry you aren't up to par yet.  Hopefully you will be returning to your chipper self real soon!!! XXOO

Thank you all!!  And thank you to Brandy, who didn't post, but I did have a great talk with her.  As she starts her journey, I may be "refining" mine.  Seriously Brandy, for sure walking and stuff would be great!  And I am so sorry I didn't mention my OTHER great old neighbor Brandy in the first post.  But you are so close to me still, and we still see or talk a couple times a week SO you are still my neighbor. LOL  just a few miles away.