Back Home and Feeling Blue

Well I got home Sunday afternoon- mostly slept between the benadryl and rements of the anesthetic. (Benadryl because it turns out I can add percocet to my long list of allergies)  So I am also fighting a rash, a bit itchy but the benadryl helps, mostly just very red and hot.

Surgery went well, still some pain on the right side where my gallbladder was but pain for the most part is bearable.  Just uncomfortable when the gassy pains catch me.

I am just feeling kind of blue and sorry for myself- I so want to get over this funk- nothing tastes good so I seem to be forcing myself to drink.  And it is not even funny to dream about food- come on- give me a break here!

What I find hard to deal with and don't get me wrong I am very very appreciative- but the well wishers that are bringing FOOD for my husband and kids.  It is great, I know he is picking up some of the stuff I usually do so it is a nice jesture- but Dayumn- do they realize how good that food smells and I just want to hide and cry!!!!  LOL- after one bout of tears I decided I couldn't waste the fluids as I am afraid of getting dehydrated so what's a girl to do.....

I know I will overcome this and as things improve it will all be worth it- but right now- I am thinking..... What the heck have I done?!

Congrats on a successful surgery. Belive me, the blues will go away. I'm sorry you have to deal with well wishers bringing your husband food. I'm sure that is tough. You can do this!!! Just be strong and drink your fluids!

Hugs,

Lori

****HUGS!!**** What have you done??  you have just given yourself another go at life! I too had the weepies after surgery and I think it's pretty normal.  You are in mourning.  Think about it...  one of the things that used to give you comfort is now gone.  this is a GOOD thing!  but still hard and you will need to take the time to work through it.  It's one of the demons that each of us faces. Congrats and welcome to the loser's bench!  Come join us of the saggy bottoms and flappy arms  :)  life is so damn good here!!!  oh!!  bring weights!  it's a WORKOUT bench after all  :) *more hugs*

 I have been the KING of feeling down and blue.  I have been miserable for many years. Just in the last 2 or 3 months since my weight loss has become obvious and my mobility ahs increased my mood has become better than it has in years.  My daughter came to visit me last week and asked my wife..who is that man..it looks like dad, but he is sooo happy. Life WILL get better..Believe it.

Cheri Lynn, Woo Hoo!!  Welcome to the losers bench. You can do this....hang in there. It will get easier with time.

Cheri~Sounds like you are having a rough start on your journey.  I am sorry to hear that you had to find out the hard way that you are allergic to Percocet, are you able to take any liquid Tylenol to help ease the pain?  I remember my first couple of weeks after surgery being at my parent's house and my mom would cook all these wonderful meals and all I could do was look at them and smell them and then eat my yogurt or pudding or drink my fluids.  Your taste buds also change after surgery, don't ask me how/why but they seem to change quite a bit, so it will take some adjusting to find what tastes good and is good for you now.  Take heart and know that things will get better.  If you feel up to it try and get outside for a short walk today that might help you feel a little better, or put in a favorite movie and just relax and let yourself heal.  Let me know if you need anything! Love & Hugs, Nicole

Just keep telling yourself - "This, too, shall pass".  It will.  Maybe sooner, maybe later, but it will pass.  As your body is flushing fat, it's also flushing all the hormones stored in the fat - so the weepies is totally normal!  Try to look at it as a sign that the fat IS flushing from your system!  Like me & hair loss - it's a sign that I'm losing!!!  Oh, I don't LIKE it, but when the hair loss slowed down significantly, I actually found myself  WORRYING that I wasn't losing as much as I was before!!!  (talk about messed up??)   It's all good, in the big picture.  There are people here who had some serious post-op issues - and DID reach a point where they would say  "I'd do it all again, even IF I had to go through the bad again, too!" Your day will come.  And I've got first dibs on a big ol'  "I TOLD YA SO!!!"  (Just ask Angela  )

I too had the "what have I done" feelings. They do fade, the weight falls off, and you life will be yours again!

(((((CheriLynn))))) I too had the weepies due to smells of food made for the kids also!!  Hang in there, it gets better and easier! Hugs!

Cheri, I went through the exact same thing my first 2 weeks. It was very hard not eating the food that smelled so good.........What I ended up doing at supper time was go walk on the treadmill while my family ate. Then I didn't smell the food and I was getting in my exercise. Then I started seeing the pounds melt off.........And I was so glad I did this.......It will get better, hang in there. If you need anything let me know. Kelly