One step forward, two steps back.

More than likely I will need to go see an endocrinologist about the low sugar episodes.   I can't go on Chantix yet.  As my depression isn't under control, she's afraid I'll get too down and suicidal.  So I'm now trying Effexor XR.  In the mean time I'm supposed to keep trying patches and gum.  And she put me on an inhaler because of my wheezing from smoking. Mike's dad is going into hospice/assisted living tomorrow after his chemo.  So we'll see how that goes.  His health is declining fast. One good thing.....I got my child support papers.....I'm going to start seeing some $$ come my way in May.  Thank goodness.  That will make things a little easier, and maybe take away one reason for my depression....just have to work on the other 99 of them..LOL I apologize for not posting much lately, but I am reading once in a while, I just am having a hard time dealing with life right now.

I think your doctor is smart to wait until your depression is under control before starting you on a major quit smoking medication.  I understand the frustration of trying to find the right combo of meds to help, it took them almost 4 years to find the right combo for me.  Something to keep in mind is what type of meds they are trying.  For me, and this is just from my experience not medical advise, it took them putting me on a combination of 2 antidepressants that work on all 3 chemicals that affect depression (serotonin, norepenephrine and dopamine sp?).  I do hope that the sunshine comes back into your life and that you are able to enjoy it again.  Sending you lots of hugs and support! 

PS if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to PM me and I would be more than happy to lend an ear or shoulder or whatever you need!

That is good information.  I think the Dr was a little.....perplexed when she was trying to find something for me.  I've been on Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Prozac, Celexa....I think that is all.... but we'll see.  I hope this works.  I thought it was but when we were talking, she said I wasn't where she wanted me to be, the Celexa took the edge off, but I was still having extreme episodes and she doesn't want that to happen.

I am currently on Wellbutrin and Remeron.  I had tried Zoloft, Prozac, Effexor, Cymbalta, EmSam (MAOI patch), and ECT (electro convulsive therapy) each worked for a brief period and then the symptoms would return.  I was also struggeling with Borderline Personality Disorder, which made my depression more dificult to treat.  I have luckily recovered from the BPD and life is so much better and I am down from 6 meds to 2.  I will pray that you and your doctor can find the right med(s) for you!

Paula, You are really going through alot.........I hope soon things take a turn for the better. At least you recongised your issues and are trying to handle them one at a time. I went through depression when I lost my daughter at 21 weeks pregnant, it's a hard thing to go through. No one seems to understand until there depressed themselves. Many times I felt like life wasn't worth living, and I have to say, I'm glad I'm here, I'm glad I got help. If you ever need to talk PM me, I can give you my phone number. I have a good ear. I read your posts and wish I could help somehow. I'll keep you in my thoughts & prayers. Take care, Kelly

Thank you so much Kelly.  I know what you mean....I have times when if it weren't for my kids....life wouldn't be worth it.  I'm trying....one day at a time. I couldn't imagin losing my daughter, that must have been horrible.  But on the flip side I always say what doesn't kill me makes me stronger....and I've almost been there.  I try not to think of myself as a victim, but someone told me not so long ago, that I was acting like one, so that is hard to deal with.  I always thought that my past horrors didn't affect me as much as apparently others see them.

I am never one good with words but I'm thinking of you and hope you pull throught this.

Quite alright.  Thank you for your thoughts and hope for me.

Pauls....sorry to hear you are struggling so much right now. I am glad things are getting somewhat better. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs, connie d

Sorry that you are having troubles dear!  GLad that you are getting some help!  My hopes and prayers are that things work out for you and that you may gain better health! HUGS!