imposter...

Lori A.
on 3/30/08 1:04 am - Duluth, MN

Yesterday was morning coffee up here in Duluth; what a great group of folks and what fun to get together! We talked about a great number of things including how sizes have changed over the years. I mentioned the last time I was in 14s, I was 155 lbs... I'm in 14s now and 209. strange. So after coffee a few of us went next door to the mall and shopped. I stopped first and bought a book that I"ll review later (the body has a mind of it's own) and then started wandering through the mall. At a size 14 I can shop in just about every store there now. So off I went. This was a very strange adventure for me. I felt like a tourist in a foreign land... an imposter off on a cloak and daggar mission to find the golden fleece.... I went from store to store looking almost dazed, looking at the offerings... trying to decide if I had the gumption to grab something off the rack and actually go into a dressing room and try it on or would they grab me and laugh at me... or would I get that look that says "what the heck YOU doing in here.." My self image hasn't caught up with the weight loss at all so I still struggle to see myself not as that fat chick that is trying so hard to fit in and find pretty things to cover herself with but as someone who is coming down to a healthier weight and actually finding BONES! lol I made this 3 hour journey by myself... perhaps I should have been with someone... I learned something though... I've been yearning to shop in the "normal" shops... ah hell... they don't have anything I like either! heheh and I REFUSE to pay for jeans with holes in them!!! lol

Lori - bringing home *MY* form of sexy one day at a time!