Maybe I'm bipolar???

Boy I had a crappy night and a crappy day so far.  I am finally breaking down and going to see a therapist....just have to call one....and that is my goal for today!  I was feeling really good with the medication my PCP put me on.  But today and yesterday...Was a struggle to say the LEAST.   Needless to say....I didn't last long on the no smoking, but when I see her on the 7th, I'm gonna get a script for chantix.   I just don't understand!  I can't help feeling so upbeat one day then like life would be better without me the next...I don't know..... I just wanted to post to let you know I failed again with the no smoking thing.  If it weren't for my friend bob here on OH, I don't know how I would have made it thru last night.  I'm scared that I'm gonna end up hospitalized for being crazy.  Then loose my kids after I fought to get full custody of them! 

I am sorry to hear that you are having such a difficult time.  I can relate I went through an emotional rollercoaster for about 9 or 10 years and only got help in the last 4.  Please keep yourself safe and if you do start to have unsafe feelings call a help line in Minnesota you can call 1/800/273/8255 or 1/800/784/2433.  I am glad that you have realized you need additional help and are seeking out a therapist I would also reccomend looking into going to a psychiatrist as well as they will be able to help find meds that will help with all of the emotions.  I will pray that things get better for you and that you are able to get some good help. 

Thank you Nicole!  I'm know that I would never do anything to jeapordize my kids.  I could or never be sucidal, but I do wonder....what if's.... you know.  Thank you for the numbers.....Bob, my good friend from OH here, told me about Parents without Parnters and they have a location here in MN....I'm gonna check them out too.

Darn it Paula, I thought that up one minute and down another was just normal!!!  I've had that too lately and just chalk it up to cabin fever, being sick of winter, added stress at work, my thyroid incident,and the price of gas!!! Hang in there sweety, I'll pray for you! Edi

 I wi**** was normal.  Definately cabin fever here too, but it has to be more than that.  I've never felt like I couldn't deal like this.   Thanks Edi!!!   BTW  My second thyroid test was normal.

Paula, So sorry to hear your going through a rough time right now. Seeking out a therapist is the best thing to do. My friend took Chantix and has been smoke free for 6 months, she was a smoker for 25 years, It did have a side effect for her, nauseousness. But in the end she said it was worth it. The smell of smoke makes her sick. Hang in there.....Kelly

Thanks Kelly!  I've heard a lot of good things about Chantix.  I hope it works...I haven't been able to get ahold of a therapist yet today.  But I'm gonna keep trying.

Paula...I am sorry you are having such a difficult time right now. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. You aren't crazy....you are just depressed....it will get better with the help of a therapist. Good luck to you! Hugs, connie d

Thanks Connie!  I just need to find a good therapist.  I know many of you have good ones....but I've been to so many I find it VERY hard to believe they work.

I think what seperates crazy people from normal is their inability to recognize when they need help, and to ask for it. No sweetie, you are definatly not crazy. You just need to find the right meds and you will feel like your self again. Many, amny people have the same issue!