Sorry....been MIA

Sorry I've been gone so long.  Part has been dealing with the new job, part has been dealing with my son and his issues.  Part has been pure frustration with me.  I ran out of my water pill  for blood pressure and decided not to refill it as my blood pressure is good.  Well that jacked up my weight 5 lbs and it wouldn't go away for weeks it stayed at that weight.  So, I got mad, ate some cookies.  Some M&M's, etc.  Ate my protein but was snacking.  Figured well, this is it....whatever!  GRRRRR The scale has finally started to move the last couple of days and that has helped my attitude a little bit.  Also yesterday was my 1 year nosmoke iversary.  I can't believe it's been a whole year!  WOW And I don't miss it.  That's God!   It will be 9 months on the 18th and I hate my body.  I'm glad I feel so good physically, but emotionally to look at this mass of skin hanging....YUCK!  I hate it.  I always thought I wouldn't care as long as I was healthy, cause I had no one to please.  I'm alone, who cares right!? Well, surprise...I do.  I'm happy I've lost so much weight, but I didn't think I would feel this way. Oh well...time to pull up my big girl panties and get over it.   Gotta get to work.  Have a GREAT day all!  Thanks for listening to me whine. I do miss you all!

(((((((((PAM))))))))) Oh, HON!! I understand!  HAPPY NO SMOKEY!!!!  WHat an accomplishment you have done!  Part of what you are feeling is the stress you have been under AND the weather AND oh so normal!!  WHen we start this journey, we seen the pics of folds of skin and yet all we could think about is that "IF" we would be skinny we'd be happy.  Well, in one sense we are and in the other we didn't fully realize that hanging skin would drag us down.  It's there, it reminds us of our obesity thus ALL the reasons we became obese.  BUT right now just focus on what an awesome job you have done.  Look back over the past 9 months!  LOOK at the pics!  Put that chin up and be proud!  YOU HAVE DONE AWESOME.......and might I add YOU ARE AWESOME!!

That's just it....it's silly.   I didn't care if I got skinny.  I just wanted the pain gone and wanted to be healthy.  I've acheived that.  But boy oh boy does the hanging skin ever drag me down.  Sheesh.  Oh well.  I'll get over it.  It's part of the journey.  The surgeon said I would need plastic surgery before I had the RNY and I thought....nah.  I can live with it.  LOL  Thanks for being you Sandie!  You are SOOOO appreciated!

Your in my prayers.  I am so proud of your weight loss!  I know it has to stink with the extra skin, I am not there yet, but can only imagine.  And a year without smoking!!!  yippeeeeee.  I was a smoker for many years, still want a dumb stinky ciggy.  You should be very proud of that!  Hang in there! 

Thank you so much!  I appreciate the prayers.  I am very proud of the weight loss and the no smoking.  That's something I never dreamed I could live without.  Feels great not to want them. And ..... CONGRATS on your surgery on Monday!  Enjoy the ride!

Pam....WOW....what a blast from the past!! You really are still here!!  Great to see you this morning. A Big Congratulations on the nosmokiversary...that is awesome!!! I never smoked but I know plenty that are struggling to stop. Good for you for making it a whole year....you should be proud of yourself for that!! I know how you feel about the skin......I am pretty discusssed myself. I don't have a lot but what I do have I really hate!! I never thought I would want PS but I sure do now!! I don't know if I will ever be able to afford it though...waawaaaa!! I need a Sugar Daddy!!! I am still dealing with my grandson Nic's cancer issues. Having a rough time of it right now. They leave for New York today. For the first time Nic is really scared. I just went down and spent a few days with him. He confided in me about a lot of feelings...so sad!! Hope your new job is going well. Sorry to hear your son is still struggling as well as you. I will send up a prayer for the both of you. Take care sweetie and know you are missed!! Hugs and love.....connie d

Oh honey....I'm so sorry to hear Nic is having a hard time with this.  They are going to New York for treatments?  I will lift that guy in my prayers and ask the Lord for peace and comfort to overflow on him.  For all of the family as well.  That has to be SO nerve wracking to have him going so far away.   It's great you were able to get down there to spend some time with him before they left.  I'm sure you can't even imagine how much that meant to him.  I can't even imagine what feeling that Nic is dealing with.  I know he's gone through this stuff before, but it's still got to be scary.   I will continue to pray for a full remission! 

Thank you Pam....your thoughts and prayers mean the world to me and my family as well. Yes, they will be at the Sloan Kettering Cancer Center in New York. The treatments will be something entirely different. Something that they only do at that Cancer Center. This is to be a one year treatment.....2 weeks in NY one at home...you can only  imagine the expense this will be for my daughter and her family. The treatments are painful and the side effects aren't good. That is what Nic is afraid of more then anything. We are all afraid for him. Thank goodness the Lord is at our side!! Nice chatting with you...hugs....connie d

Happy smokeless anniversary!  Glad to see you on here, but it was much nicer to see you on Saturday.   I'm also happy to hear that the scale is moving for you again. That must make things a little better for you.  Are you going to be able to make it to Saturday's coffee in NB? Hope so...sounds like there is going to be quite a crew there.  Take care, and if you need some time away, give me a call, I can probably handle some time away as well!

Hey Laurie!  It was GREAT to see you Saturday!  I need to vent...sorry.  I will be at North Branch, I saw you'll be coming later.  Have fun at rehearsal.   See you tomorrow and thanks for the happy smokeless anniversary.  *S*