9months: Brain is so confused with body

I was officially 9 months out on the 5th, but my brain is having issues with what the mirror says now, and it is so weird. Some days I think, wow I look great, some days I think OMG I am too big, I still try to shop in the Plus size clothes, and when I go to try on clothes, I always get a size or two too big. It is so weird! I went from a 12 skipped over the 10's and am now in a very loose 8. The skin is really starting to mess with me now. I have boob skin, but if I am sitting up, they are Shar Pei wrinkly. The skin on my tummy and legs is nasty as well, although the tummy is starting to go down slowly. I am .5 below my personal goal for what I wanted to weigh, and couldn't be happier with the acutal pounds gone. but dang, if I am gonna be "skinny" I want to look good. Just goes to show no matter how prepared you are for this surgery before hand, the reality is going to be hard. Sorry, just had to vent. I am still here checking on everyone, just not able to post my cheerleading as often as I would like to. Great job everyone, I am always thinking of you even if I don't post!!!!!

Nicole!!!!  It's soooo good to see you.  I will be 9 months on the 18th and I am totally with you!  Aside from the size 8's.  *S*  The skin I thought I would be able to deal with as I just wanted to be healthy.  I look at myself in the mirror and it's HORRIBLE!!!! Very frustrating.  Just know that you have done an amazing job and the feeling you are having are normal.  I knew others said they felt like this and it helps to know I'm normal (well, as normal as I can be).   Keep taking care of yourself! 

Pam,  Maybe we just have to get rid of mirrors?  You have done so amazing, and it has been so fun watching your progress since we are so close in dates!! And as far as normal, I have come to the conclusion that being "normal" is as abnormal as it gets!! Keep up the great work.

I just told somebody else about this book.  It's not a self help book, but it talks about your brain and has a whole chapter that talks about why your visual image of yourself may be different than the reality of how you look especially if you've lost weight quickly.  I haven't finished the book yet but it is very interesting so far. Here's a link to barnes and noble with the book info. http://search.barnesandnoble.com/Body-Has-a-Mind-of-Its-Own/ Sandra-Blakeslee/e/9781400064694/?itm=2 It won't give you some quick fix that will make you see yourself differently but finding out why it happens and knowing that it is normal has helped me a lot. Hope this helps.

Thank you for the link. I appreciate it.

Oh, Hon!  I soooo remember those feelings!  BUT you are only 9 months out, give you skin a little more time.  Use plenty of lotion, drink tons of water and exercise/tone the mucsle.  NO, it won't go all the way back.  Clothed I feel great, nakkid not so much.  But I have had many people, and I agree, that my skin isn't as bad as I thought it would be.  It took me a long time to get here.  Like you I had lost all my weight by 9/10 months.  BUT I kept "shrinking" in clothes size and my skin isn't the prettiest but it's ok.  Right now, it's a head game for you.  One that will get better!  Wanna feel better?  Look and study your before pics!!!  That always cheered me up.  WHat you are going thru is normal! (((((((HUGS)))))))

Thanks so much! You are such a great cheerleader and role model. Yep, clothes are my best friend, except bras. I CAN"T find a bra that fits at all. None of them work because either my boobs are so empty that the bra just gaps, or the skin is too plentiful so they ooze out the side! As far as pics, I carry them around with me. People at work have really been noticing the size difference. They are trying to tell me not to loose any more, blah blah blah. Thanks for giving me hope and reaffirming I am not the only one going through this!

Nicole, We were just talking about this at our support group the other night, and your not alone. I am 6 months out and the skin is hanging regardless of how much I exercise. And I could get in smaller jeans if I wanted to, but I don't like how the skin hangs over the top. I feel you pain, HUGS!

It sucks that we have to have this problem when we are doing so awsome with the pounds lost. I think I would be 20 pounds lighter without the skin so that is hard to deal with as well. Thanks for the support, and if I win the lottery, I think I will start up a fund for skin removal surgery for all post weight loss patients. (The only problem would be you have to play the lottery to win it)

Nikki....wow...good to hear from you again!!! I know exactly how you are feeling about the skin issue...UGH!! I am 6 1/2 months out....in a loose 6 now......I hate the skin!! I surely won't be struting around the beach anytime soon!! What happened to your Avatar??? Where are you??  I bet you look awesome...woot woot!!! You were pretty before you must be gorgeous now!!! I miss you....please stop by more often.....we need you!! Love ya....((((hugs)))) connie d