Weird Feelings

Yes I am going to start to journal.  Maybe this will be a good way to get things vented out and joys written down as I go through this. Thank you!

Nita, Nita, Nita, We all I think have had these emotions and ya know what it is normal.  I even to the second they took me in was wondering if this was the right thing to do and I was just scared.....This is the best thing I could have ever done for myself.  Sometimes we fall off and have to get right back on and it takes time  I am hoping all the best for you sweets and call me if you need to chat.....Remember you are totally normal!!!!!!!  to give up food that we have had so close to us for comfort is hard to let go but you can do it I am here for you and you are doing so dang good now and i am so proud of you.....take care sweets and call me if you need anything!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love ya marsha

Yes I know you had these emotions.  Thank you for being here if I need a shoulder.  It means alot.  I have seen how happy you are.  You are a great inspiration.  I think I was just in a funk yesterday.  Today I was on the phone complaining why my psych report hadn't been sent to the doc yet after 3 months. 

KEEP ON EM GIRLIE DON'T GIVE UP.....I WOULD CALL AND SE WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON....hANG TOUGH AND i AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YA......

Before the surgery I had to be put on ativan for anxiety and after the surgery I kept questioning my decision.  I think a lot of it had to do with the unknown, the fear, and afterwards the meds and the anesthesia (spelling??).  But now I am so happy I did it.  I'm healthy-no more diabetes meds, no more shots, no more cpap. This is such a personal decision for each of us.  You do need to know that you are doing the right thing, or you need to postpone.  Over the last 3 years I jumped through the hoops then postponed 2 times.  I needed to know I had truly tried everything and this was a last resort for me. Take your time, you will make the right decision. Debi

Yes I totally agree that it is the fear of the unkown.  But all of you on here have helped me with that.  I know everyone is different but I can relate to so much of what is being said or done on here.   I know I am doing it for the right reasons.  I do not want to die young, I don't want to have my husband push me around in a wheel chair because I can't move on my own.  I have tried every diet out there and I am going to do this with vegenace.

Anita~ditto what the others said. I find myself doing that on a regular basis. One minute I am totally gung ho and the next I am thinking am I nuts?! Keep coming here, reading about others sucesses and struggles has helped me to know what we are going through is normal. I told my boss last week when I asked for the time off and that really made it seem real for me so I know what you are feeling. Hang in there girlie!

I totally agree with you.  I am gung ho and then I am thinking did I fall out of a tree.  I know I am doing this for the right reasons.  My boss is so supportive of me doing it.  All she said is, "I dont' know what I am going to do without you when you are out."  Which made me feel really good.  Have you told alot of people at work?  I finally told the people that work for me.  I think a few of suspicions but I feel I want to tell more people as the time is getting closer.

My biggest issue was food and eating out. I loved it! Now that the surgery is over I don't miss eating alot. I had  some head hunger in the beginning but that is gone. I'm so happy with my choice and would do it all over in a heart beat. I had alot of weird thoughts too and still do but I happier than ever. Being only 2 and half months out and down 55 lbs. is amazing. Good luck and hang in there.

I hear you there.  We used to eat out alot.  Especially on the weekends.  I have been trying to cook more at home and healthy.  Which I don't know why I didn't do years ago.  You look amazing.  I am looking forward to meeting you on Thursday.